ES Post:
Preliminary information on the Chort and Bies … feels related to what I feel to be working on in some levels. Connected to Russia and Satanism (and Luciferianism as I’m involved in another round of trying to discern the difference.)
You guys, I think I’m on team Ezekiel too… this month's newsletter was so amazing… I mean, they all are, but this part:
"Ezekiel was able to track information about the origins of the Black Sun energy source fields from Taran and Tiamat body parts used by the alien invaders in the 8D Galactic Core, specifically the Marduk satanist lineages traced to metatronic reversals and Nibiruian control. Thus, Ezekiel is prominent in working on restoring the time matrix through finding the locations of the alien black cube system architecture that comprises the beast machine technology in the Yahweh Matrix, that sends feedback loops of the Black Star Abaddon and transmit the revelation 9:11 timestamp codes running the Armageddon-pestilence software."
Feels to me that I've come into divine union with my aeonic partner and judging by the darkness we signed up to swim in, it may look on the outside like we are an antihierogamic union or holding a reversal field… and maybe we are…. clinging on to the backside of a reversed field…. but I am confident we are doing this in order to heal it. To feel, observe, learn, and help the traps to dissolve.
I didn’t really believe or understand this at first (if I had, I don’t think I would have agreed to unite with him), but my beloved is a professing “Satanist”. “Anarcho-Satanist” is what he calls his particular belief system. Now I didn’t know much about Satanism before - still don’t - but I have learned that there are two main kinds of Satanists, some that believe in an actual being as their deity (though I think it is more like a power source they are drawn to and worship (moloch/loosh fields?)… and then there are some that are atheists that don’t believe in anything and just out to satisfy the lusts of their flesh/mind/emotions.
I think there is a third type that is a mixture of these… that believe THEY are God… that’s the kind that I have been embodying in this incarnation (and others). I don’t mean this in the “I AM GOD/ GSF” way either… this mindset doesn’t recognize UNITY or God as a WHOLE/ ONENESS. This is the “I am more powerful than God” idea… the “Luciferian” attempt to BE God… to USURP the Godhead’s power and rule myself and others. (USURP = key word.)
I’ve been healing this schism… which is something I recognized while serving and worshipping from the field of traditional “Christianity” (in a non-denominational but pretty much baptist version of “church”). I’ve journaled about it before - this recognition that “I AM the devil” was really profound, powerful, and also very unpopular. People don’t like it when you say that! But it was the grace of God and my Oraphim family showing me the template I was holding and a key part of the process of healing it.
So now I’m …well…sometimes not doing so well… these are really hard fields I’m swimming in…. but I’m starting to get my sea-legs, I think. Paul (whose first name is actually “Derek” which means “the Way”) IS my person. (My fear of commitment and the challenges I am enduring wants to add “for now”, but I know that’s negative ego…. I need to just be present with no attachment to outcome…and "now" is a mental construct.) But Paul’s been immersed in Satanic energies for pretty much his whole incarnation in this life and it sounds like in many others as well.
We are the same. Mirrors. Monadic twin? I have also been involved in these dark lifetimes. I believe we are both healing Fallen Seraphim distortions (and more?! GAH!)… but I have been swimming around in the beautiful Krystic fields here in ES for 2 years and kind of got used to that and now it’s like being dunked into icy dark water - unpleasant and shocking and trying to figure out which way is up. (I’m being dramatic - it’s not that bad! But the Satanism and sexual misery stuff IS really challenging.)
Currently I’m immersed especially in Satanic music and imagery… trying to understand it. The draw. The power. The message. Some of it seems so beautiful and almost intends to comfort the soul of the listener. Are there cathar or sophianic frequencies embedded in there and if so, why? How? What's the point? Is this a way to reach a different type of broken-hearts/souls to restore them?
What is Satanism anyway?
Paul clings to it as an expression of his disdain for the Catholic church and Christianity and all the lies perpetuated in the name of God and Christ. He chooses the ANTI-Christ although he thinks the character of "Satan" is fictional. He believes in TRUTH... in LOVE... and in Source energy.
I listen to some of the music and there are some horrible sentiments but also some that empower and give hope to people. It's confusing. It comforts people - gives them a community and sense of belonging... but does it do so with twists? Tricks? To invite cords to a “savior” that will love and be with them always (that is really a trap/trick … connect to the angel of light.) I guess it depends on the particular song or message and which satanic agenda they are trying to push. Dissociation and implosion of the being? External deity worship? Trade your "soul" for power? Believe in yourself only? Lust?
This “Angel of Light” business is twisty too. Lucifer, the Morning Star. Who is the Light of the World? Christ or Lucifer? Brothers? There are so many threads here…. the two candlesticks…two olive branches….??
I wish I could delve into this more clearly... I have lots of floating pieces to examine and would love to unpack it with you but my head has been messed up and I'm feeling like I’ve got significant brain fog. I’ve also had debilitating pressure in my skull for weeks… my left ear especially hurts but both did. I can’t hear great out of my left ear either. 10D. My clarity is off and I feel confused and sometimes in what feels like I’m caught in an undertow. I thought it was all energetic - I had a session with Charlotte and understood the relation to the 6th chakra and some of the work connected to that. I had a session with my chiropractor and frequency/laser doctor who worked her magic… but physically it kept getting worse. Anxiety was through the roof! CNS activations. Sympathetic dominance.
Of course I wonder if I'm back in Ascension Symptom land due to upgrades or is it because I'm back in these lower fields from my negative ego and work with Paul? I need to shield and breathe more and better.
The other day I woke up and felt that I should check with my pendulum if I needed to go to the western medicine field (aka get antibiotics)… and it said I should. I checked couple hours later and it still said I should. So I did. Sinus infection. I hate doctors and antibiotics but I had tried all my natural remedies and I was getting worse and worse. I guess this is a confession and me kicking myself - but I also had some good conversation with myself about running krystic algorithms through the antibiotics and how it could support healing of other items I didn’t realize needed that support. I am taking lots of probiotics and it’s the beginning of day 3 and I'm feeling a bit better. Head pressure is significantly better and right ear feels almost all the way better - left ear still feels clogged/challenged, but we’re working on it.
So back to Paul… talking to him, listening to his music with him, asking him questions, understanding his experiences has opened doorways of consciousness. Paul is an eternal truth seeker - so brave and beautiful! I believe wholeheartedly he signed up to understand and ultimately heal the 10-sphere Thothian distortions (and more). The NRG traps and mutations have trapped angelic humans in the forms of beasts (ie. Chort). I wonder if it could be as simple as a kiss (LOVE) that unlocks them from these forms? The classic fairytale with the kiss of the prince/princess that unlocks the being from being trapped in a frog form, or sleeping beauty, Snow White, etc…. Hmmm.
Yesterday Diana inspired me to play with some imagery/art and I found myself working on this “Healing Baphomet” artwork. I am going to drop a piece of the cloaked one (depicting healing through the Mother and Child) here, you won’t be able to tell, but there are components like a rose over its heart and layers of kisses to heal a baphomet image… including one big kiss on his third eye…
Anyway… this is where I’ve been….overwhelmed and slimed… but here I AM.
We shared a beautiful transit this morning with this first level of information on the Chort and Biel and its relation to Paul. Let me explain how it came about. (As I hear the “Ghost” song, “Hunters Moon” playing in Paul’s office… it’s all so relevant.)
So we started talking about Ghost (his favorite band which I have also grown fond of - great musicality and interesting (and disturbing) messages and art to explore). We talked about what some of the lyrics meant to him which led to conversation about AC/DC and we had to watch some of their videos (my negative ego is whining that this was all so disturbing and hard!)… and then we got into a conversation about a time 25 years ago when he was hallucinating and got some strange messages/downloads. We're both amazed that he somehow remembered two of the phrases that had popped in his head at that time: “Just Chort of Life” and “The Beis Life Ever”. Sounds like he didn't know what those words, Chort and Beis, meant and didn't have google back then to look them up. But we looked them up together today and I instantly recognized the resemblance (I guess to some layers of one or more stations of Paul’s consciousness and/or work). The tie in to Russia which is one of the projects I’m working with now also feels important. This is also why I’m sharing this here… it’s all related. So interesting what we are all doing here, family! It’s WILD!
Anyway, after we took in all that information, I didn’t know what to do with the energy… I went outside in the snow and tried to tone…make noises to release it… it needed a release… I was desperate for a release… but that didn’t work. So I came back in and asked Paul to sit next to me on the ottoman … my left side touching his right side… and I put my arm in his and FELT. When I did that, tears came…energy released. I watched the clock go from 10:23 to 10:24.
Thank you God.
Feels very aligned to the Chort.
"Many of the Nephilim were destroyed on the earth during the Nephilim Wars and their fragmented consciousness become enmeshed with the lower demonic spirits of the dense levels of earth matter. Some of these entities bound to the earth became known as the Watchers, and comprise of both combinations of Nephilim and Fallen Angelics fragments which descended to become ruled over by the hierarchies of the Belial and Baal entities in the earth. Over time these fragments evolved into many lower spirit hierarchies of entities, trapped within the earth fields unable to evolve, transit or heal."
4:43
17:17
Julie also saw Paul's werewolf cum persona/experience... which it is always there. I've been trying to say "I love you I love you I love you" in my heart (last night I said it out loud)....to try to heal this monster.... pain... wolf totem? I need to look into Ghengis Khan... is there a connection there with Paul? Is it related to his father's lineage?
It's so hard and big. Is it possible for him to fully come out of this during this incarnation? I want to say that it's impossible, but it's HIS SOUL's choice. I just need to keep speaking truth. Keep observing. Be a compassionate and loving witness, dear ONE. He is still here with you, not afraid of your Light.
Our Oraphim parts are counterparts, I believe.
What's with Faust? And Chort? and Mephistopheles....? Related?
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