Healing

Great news from my AG pick today (posted 7/28/22 .... today it's 8/15/22)
https://ascensionglossary.com/index.php/Cosmic_Dragon_Star_Twinned_Plasma_Domes

The 7D current locations in the planetary grid are currently undergoing a major overhaul as the Cosmic Elohei have returned into their Solar Dragon God body, to evict this extensive antichrist matrix connected into the Peruvian Gates along with the entities from Alpha Draconis running it. The announcement of the return of Emerald Order Elohei, reveals as their Cosmic Dragon Star Twinned Plasma Domes are now made visible two miles above the peak of Macchu Picchu and underground in the Earth. Cosmic Holy Father and his Plasma Dome embodied in the Aquarian Solar Dragon in the air element taking the northern position on top of Macchu Picchu, while his counterpart the Cosmic Mother Dragon and her Plasma Dome took the water element into the southern position, located about two miles underneath the crust in the planet’s aquifer system.^[1]

It was a beautiful weekend. Lots of healing and opportunities to surrender fear. I really wanted to recount it to you but I'm not really feeling like it right now.

One item I am trying to surrender fear about is this spider bite on my leg. It's very painful and has an abscess and it's infected and really ouchy. I thought it was a bot fly yesterday and went down that path which scared me. I've been trying lots of different remedies...starting yesterday morning...
colloidal silver, my hippie toothpaste, MMS, warm compress, the bite stick, clay mask that I got for this a few years ago, lavender oil, activated charcoal, baking soda paste, tea tree oil, ice, benadryl, homeopathic for snake bites, and I'm sure more. I'll report back. It still hurts quite bad but it seems like it's a little less red. I had a slight fever yesterday but I got my period so it could be from that. 

Earlier in the weekend I was really having to feel into "loving my partner so much and them not loving me back". That energy. Mamma Bear ended up calling on Saturday and she was so weak and was in the hospital and she said she thought she was dying - giving me an opportunity to hold space for her and ask her if she was ready. She said she was always ready and that if she was going to die, she wanted it to be August 22nd when her Bruce died. The hospital had her in a covid room and floor, seems like it was "punishment" because she refused to get tested/swabbed for it. She said she heard them whispering outside her room that she was going to be the next "death by covid" statistic. Horrible. No one could visit her because she was in lockdown. (The next day they took her out of there and she was feeling much better and I think they will release her soon.) 

But on that first phone call where she said she was dying she asked how things were going with Paul and I gave my standard answer about what a gift it is...so many lessons... relationships are hard, yada yada. But she read right through that and said "the greatest form of love is to love someone even when they don’t love you back… love them with all your heart.". And I just started balling and balling my eyes out. Jewel was in the room and she probably didn't understand what was happening but it was such a release and felt like God was speaking through Mamma Bear... letting me know I'm heard and seen and loved and to encourage me to just keep loving Paul even when it's not reciprocated. (All week he went to bed with his back to me... for no reason... he just isn't interested in or attracted to me. I'm jealous of Manson who he dotes on and loves to be with, while I try to please him and love him ... scratching his back to get him to sleep, making meals and cleaning the house. It hurt. 

But this is the lesson. And I come back to "this whole exercise is between "ME and me" and I need to learn how to LOVE.  I want to cross the Luciferian Abyss and this is my ticket. 

After that phone call we left and headed to Raleigh and went to two thift stores. While in one of them I was having massive sharp stabbing pain in my left shoulder blade and pain in my left shoulder... it almost took my breath away but I was trying to just be with it and allow it. I didn't mention it to Paul but while we were in line waiting to check out, he started rubbing my back like he knew/sensed the pain and he soothed it deeply. It was PROFOUND. Again, felt like God working through Paul and reminding me that we have something deeper than the standard 3D relationship. It may feel like it's so challenging, but these are gifts and it is our Higher Selves working together to heal us and the world through us. WE ARE TIKKUN OLAM. And that was a profound and MIRACULOUS experience. 

Apparently there are some major shifts happening in 7D Peru and that's why all the left side pain. Last night I had pain in my whole left side from head to toe. I think this snake bite is even the left knee Crucifixion Implant. 

We had a nice time at Corie's pool and ate at their house. We saw Page briefly who doesn't look good. God, please help her! She needs healing!!! Get that vaccine out of her! Help her to rest and find peace (while ALIVE please)! She just goes so hard all the time!

Paul cleared his closet out of all/most of his polyester and synthetic clothing too this weekend! We are making strides! 

We are both trying. We are both healing and growing and that requires a "two steps forward, one step back" experience and I need to learn to accept what is, stop being judgemental and pushy and controlling and just learn to go with the flow.

Paul's and my Avatar are Aeonic Pairs...I really feel that. Can we hang in to support the healing of earth Carissa and earth Paul? I hope so.

I really need to take care of, soothe, invest in, love on earth Carissa a lot. I need to support her body so she can start utilizing her food and nutrients and drop this extra weight. She needs sleep too. She might not sleep well until 2:30am because she's working in the grids. Everything is perfect. 

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12:06
12:15/15

Well sounds like the lungs are up and pancreas is up and venom is up. I've been really struggling with blood sugar going wonky, especially right around 5pm... this is pancreas work and reclamation... and my lungs hurt for a few days and I wondered if there was something but it felt like clearing/healing... and of course this scary thing on my leg which Candice recognized is a staph infection. I've got to get a hold of my anxiety. Nothing is wasted.

Whooo. Anxiety likes to get me. This thing on my leg is a staph infection... but it's getting better! So be positive! God's got you!

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8/16/22 (You know who's birthday, even though I can't say it.)
4:46am
Still really working with pain, inflammation, infection, and anxiety (fear) around this leg. And my left ovary hurts quite a bit too. I thought I had a fever when I woke up but it must have been hormonal or panic attack... I keep trying to release the fear and surrender but it's not so easy... it doesn't just *POOF* when I say that. 16/4:48 4:02

Paul gave me an incredible kiss in my morning breath mouth this morning! And I made him pancakes (first...  maybe the pancakes led to the kiss....whatever it was, it was wonderful!)

16/11:00 My AG pick: https://ascensionglossary.com/index.php/Triple_Solar_Masculine