So much

WHALES - dreaming about them, saw one in the clouds today. Read a post that related elephants to feminine aspect in amethyst order brahmarian group.... I've been seeing elephants quite a bit in the clouds. And white dragons. 

AG pick: https://ascensionglossary.com/index.php/Solar_Dragon_Wings
Meditation that I pulled last night was "Solar Hierogamic Union" 

The wolves have returned: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=IbED-8gdnHM

I wanted to invite Gabe to stay here on his drive back through but I'm feeling something on my left chest now... pressure. And then this song came up "The wolves have returned". But also he seems to be connected to Candice who is starting a Forest School! WHOOOOOO! Awesome God! Please bless her! 

And that Ayla song "Miracles" about the trees always made me think of GABE. And then I turned on my music after talking to Candice and "The Wind Forest" came on. May it be a blessing to them both!

A hawk has been around... and a black vulture. And always beloved dragonflies. 

Trying to FEEL INTO the dog barks.

Sent a note to my parents to remind them that I'd love to move to the mountains and now I am going to let it GO after listening to Dr. Hawkin's chapter on Desire and the need to LET GO of CLINGING... I'm clinging to my desire to leave here and to move to the mountains but ultimately I want what is best for GOD. I want to be of use. I want to be aligned with God's spirit.

Thank you for YoQi. 
I AM.

Feeling hurt that Paul doesn't want to celebrate me or my birthday. He is happy and almost reveres being "selfish" ... the kind associated with "Satanism"... not the "self-love" kind. And I need to keep my eyes on ME and not on him. Not what he's NOT doing.... that is judgment. I need to hold to my own love and plan and get back to holding space for my gestalt consciousness. My beloveds.

Gabe coming here would kick up too much dust. It would be too much. I feel so much hot energy as I even process this. God. Please help me to live in alignment with TRUTH and LOVE.