Weaponry

Post in ESF at 10:00 on the 11th of August 2022

What a moving and thought-provoking thread this is! Thank you to all who have shared their experiences and insights.

I’m so sorry to hear about Patti and appreciate the additional information as it’s been something that I’ve not understood since it happened. I just knew it had massive ripple effects for the community.

Not that it matters but I wanted to note that my birthday is 9/23…. and actually, 2020 was the year that I had a session with Agni and we were supposed to have our second session on that day but she cancelled due to so much going on in the field. I just remembered that. Thanks be to God for protecting me. I was heartbroken about it and had lots of negative ego work come up, but now, 2 years later, I finally have context and understanding and can stand in gratitude for NOT getting what I thought I desperately wanted/needed.

I agree and appreciate Aramatena’s initial post and also find myself grappling with the energies and discussions about our beloveds who are no longer involved in the conversation. This thread (and others like it) has been very helpful for me in understanding the value of the discussion and helping us to do our own inner work and learning how to practice compassionate witnessing as well as STO as we work with it.

I am sure this comes from negative ego but it’s a legit fear that keeps coming up for me so I have a question…

What do we DO if we are pre-loaded and/or get ourselves involved with this machinery? It’s almost like a hostage that, as they are pushed to the front of the crowd, you suddenly realize they have a bomb strapped to them.

Since I got to this community which feels like where I’m meant to be - my family is here - updates on my mission strand are here - support in working with all the levels of reality are here (for me I need a lot of reminders and help with negative ego/pain body). But that said, I also sense some “side-eye”/mistrust and frankly I feel that it is warranted. I recognize I am not a safe person - I resonated with the Indigo3 narrative about 2 consciousnesses living in one body (and that the Oraphim-Sourced one is here to help rehab the Nephilim sourced one).

So I feel like I have these booby traps too. And I feel really alone/rejected sometimes because I know people have to protect themselves. Heck. I’m saying “people”, but I mostly mean Lisa. I may only mean Lisa … I thought Mhairi might have felt that way and I do sense that she has deeper understanding and can see some of the implants. But if I’m a bomb, I’m set to take out Lisa and that makes me dangerous. I’ve felt and worried about this since I got here a couple years ago.

But the other side of the coin is the possibility that it's all a mind-trick to keep ME enslaved, obsessed, and from interacting too much. Confusing.

To complicate matters, I have kept tabs on one of our other former members, beloved Kirk. We became friends after he left and I was and am honored to witness the spiritual work he is doing. That said, he is not well and the entities running the show are especially filled with Ai and also “out to get” Lisa.

Also, last October I felt that God was leading me into a relationship with who I believed was my HGS divine partner but this took me deeper into layers of miasma and darkness as he is proud to call himself an “anti-Christ” person/Satanist. He appears to me to be a wounded Krystic being, but I need to let go of my hero-savior complex and recognize that I really don’t know. As a result of coming into union with him, I’ve been living through some of the most difficult experiences of my life as I try to understand and come into alignment with the Truth. (Much of it is a gift from God to help me to heal negative ego, but I feel there are “attacks” too and I’m having to work with my perception of what that means and how that is filtered through VV programming, etc.).

ANYWAY, I feel even MORE “slimed” and shame creeps in and makes me think that I could bring some “NAA” energy that could cause a problem for others or get me kicked out from the first place that feels like a spiritual home.

So, what do we do if WE are the ones with the weaponry programming and we know it? I don’t want to be a bomb that is set to explode the container or Lisa and Tomás or ANYONE.

With Love and Respect,
Carissa