Inundated with Black Subtle Forces

Yup. For sure. Got this as an AG pick today:
https://ascensionglossary.com/index.php/Black_Subtle_Forces

Feel it applies to both Paul and I and that we can work together to heal. When I was feeling this before, Abraham Hicks positive vibes helped pull me out. Transiting heavy densities today. Had "black magic attack" this morning - horrible pain in the belly and nausea and felt so so so bad. I tried to just feel into it and experience the pain. That was good work, but it was really unpleasant. At one point I wondered if it would ever end. I didn't want to die. I still have abdominal pain. And just had a big burp.

Paul and I went to "Temple City" church yesterday which was really interesting. Always a good reminder to feel into the psyop - the twists and manipulation being pulsed out through the "well-meaning" church. They have lots of beautiful things happening, but it's also very much a show run by ego and flesh. The whole story is designed to teach humans to reject themselves as evil and give their authority away to others who say they have their best interest at heart, but it's like the government... it's all a lie. 

Been having some very vivid and relevant dreams. Last night Kelsey was in it. The night before Kelly Brogan. The night before Ayla and Katie from ES. There are many more... and locations... I think Siberia came up a couple days ago but last night was a portal from a mountain to India (maybe bangladesh. I never actually got there). And Jannelle or her house and some dogs were also in the dreams. The one with Katie involved moving some heavy equipment in a box truck... also a little dog. Hm. Dogs.

I'm burping a lot as I write this. Transiting black magic? 

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1/3:00
Been a day fullllll of numbers and black magic! Looking forward to Paul being home soon.

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It's the next day... 11:36 now, saw 11:11. Saw a 2:22 today too. 
Last night I had a dark portal narcissistic rage come up at Paul for no good reason. I observed it, recognized it, and called it out to myself and him... the whole process took about 30 minutes but it was not fun and I've damaged trust with Paul. I need to be patient and let him process through it. 

Yesterday I told Paul it felt like I had morning sickness... I felt pregnant... I kept thinking "I just had my period and Paul has retained his cum since then so it can't be that"... but I had a "buddha belly" (it was my saying that that triggered Paul to look at something on YT which triggered my narcissistic rage attack.)... anyway... I was directed to do the "Winter Solstice 2021" meditation and also did an hour meditation with Paul - both sseemed supportive. There is a wasp in here right now. God. I must help it. 

I am a part of this planet. My heart is hurting now. What am I feeling? 7D? Left arm activation/numbness.

Am I having hara line activations (yesterday) or was it black magic or was I part of a planetary birthing of something? Is it required that I share with others in order to feel connected? To "feel" connected. That's the trick. Why do I need to "feel" anything? I AM.

I saw 9:11 today again. I see it almost every day.
Started re-listening to "Letting Go"... one of the best books ever written.