A little on addictions

These are my responses to a thread on addictions... I can't remember if I already copied them but here they are just in case:

Dear Staci,
Yes! I join with Mia in my interest in hearing more about your journey FOR SURE!

I've dealt with (and deal with) addictions of all types and have tried a multitude of practices, groups, therapies, etc. to address and overcome them. Realizing that it is my spiritual work and mission and that I serve humanity as I drag the darkness to the light has been a game-changer! I wish this knowledge alone was a magic pill to "fix" everything at once but unfortunately I'm not finding that to be true (yet!?) 

Anyway, I'd love to hear more and talk more about this!
This morning I was reading about Spiritual Warfare in the Ascension Glossary and it talked about addictions:

... Addiction allows darkness to flood into the Lightbody, which invites parasitic entities to access their physical body through a chemical doorway that is generated in the altered state of consciousness...

I found myself wanting to talk to someone about addictions and considered reaching out to an ES friend who I know struggles with this too but didn't and here you are with this excellent topic! Thanks be to God!

ps. These days my addictions LOOK relatively mild ... sugar/carb addiction, maybe some screen addiction... but they are still very powerful and I'm called to overcome them! God (guidance, higher self) told me in no uncertain terms that sugar separates me from my connection yet I still choose sugar and end up dulling my senses. I can clean myself up but as soon as I get a little bit of it in my system, I'm a raging monster craving MORE MORE MORE! I've overcome some really hard addictions (alcohol, cigarettes, benzodiazepines for example), but freaking sugar still has me!

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Hi Staci! I just bought the kindle version of your book - I'm looking forward to it!

Interesting that it seems to be so much about the sexual misery program because as I was responding to your thread yesterday I found myself wanting to say that I had a pornography addiction at one point as well. I didn't say it because it wasn't a big deal, but now I see that it was part of the field around this thread and I think that's reallllly interesting!

In my case I had a period of time where I was obsessed with tapping into the feeling of lust that I got when I perused the personals on craigslist and I toyed with that energy (demon). I dabbled a little and tried at least once to meet up with someone, but God put the cabash on it and ultimately kept me safe (even from myself). However, I know and can feel and be that energy.... sometimes it comes up ... and I'm learning now that it's not really Carissa experiencing it, it's something or someone else, something dark and slithery... I think it's related to a golum that may be part of an indigo3 contract. Anyway, I'm now learning to dissociate from this - it's NOT me - I am the compassionate witness.

This isn't a Sexual Misery program thread so I should probably not talk too much about it here, but my first husband who struggled with pornography (and infidelity if that's related?) got me into it a little... I wouldn't say I was addicted, but maybe this was a doorway for this golum guy to attach? Maybe it's not Indigo3? Maybe it's all demons?? Ack! I don't know. I'm spinning out a little so I'll hang it up.

Anyway, thank you for the book reference. I've been an avid reader for years but this year I've puttered out because I mostly just want to read ES materials, so no promises on when I get to it, but I am looking forward to it in divine right timing!