Whoah!! Why am I just seeing this thread? I’ve needed it for weeks! Oh well. DRT. 
https://esfoundations.com/forum/ascension-symptoms-kundalini-release/3400-intense-ascension-symptoms-and-experiences#26717
Not sure if it’s psychic attack or upgrades, but sometimes everything goes deaf in my head and then a big loud beeping sound comes in. Last year when this happened it frightened me so much. One time I went to the hospital (the second time I didn’t because I had already gotten the message that they couldn’t help me). Anyway, happened again this morning. And less dramatic ones have been happening…plus tinnitus. I don’t know if these things…all the strange things… are signs of attack or of upgrades. EITHER WAY I am trying to remain a neutral witness and respond by stepping into my authority in Christos-Sophia, shielding, and commanding my space.
I am GUESSING that was an upgrade though… yesterday I definitely had a psychic attack mind beam hit me (I was out and near a tower of terror (which is what I call those scary cell phone towers)). It’s a different kind of sudden headache like an ax to the head and kind of takes the breath out of you. I started shielding and claiming my authority as GSF and was given direction to run the EMF clearing meditation and when I did, even though I was in a busy flea market and couldn’t hear it well, it totally worked! Very cool! (I used to run away when things like that happened, but this year I'm trying to push through more...face my fear and discomfort.)
I’ve had the burning poker in my butt a few times this season and flu symptoms and sinus issues, and nerve and neurological symptoms (upgrade etheric template now), nausea, fatigue, and my old agoraphobia has tried to trap me again. It’s a constant battle.
That said, I also have more support than ever! The most valuable for me is the context, information, and shared experience provided in this beautiful container of being(s). Knowing that this is part of something much bigger than my micro. I’ve gained more insight and understanding, breakthroughs, connections, and opportunities to serve. Yesterday I knew I held a space on what reminded me of an underground railroad of helping a group of toehead kids move to their next destination.
This morning I was directed to: esfoundations.com/library/meditation-sup...ing-with-holy-father which I found very supportive to everything we're doing and talking about.
I also downloaded the energeticsynthesis.com/shop/clearing-tre...ral-in-personal-tree …this was my daily glossary pick and believe it to be very aligned. Will work with this meditation in DRT (soon though… maybe later today. I also want to make sure I am taking time and space to integrate…need to do more silent meditation too.)
Whoo… good idea Kristina, to list symptoms! Here are some of mine. They ebb and flow and change but some of the heavy hitters:
- Freaking anxiety always wants to get me. I do think it’s related to my thyroid… I’m feeling thyroid pressure and fullness (a little like being choked lightly)… this affects heart rhythm and maybe breathing.
- I mentioned above nervous system and nerve problems (numbness, shooting pains, weakness, heat. Not lately, but I’ve had the bugs crawling up my legs, neuropathy, zaps, etc.)
- The other day I felt energy bubbles or entities or beings or something bubble up through my being and out my crown. That didn’t hurt…just scared me a little.
- I know I’m doing work with blood and veins… circulatory system. This started as a part of last year’s massive heart upgrade. (Where I had to let myself die of a heart attack. I didn’t die, but it was intense. ) I have some fear that I'm clearing around the veins, but it's par for the course.
- Hydration, skin, dryness
- Swollen and slightly numb tongue
- Terrible smell… like the ghost of a smell… phantom smell…something just existing maybe right outside a portal that goes into my sinus cavity in the lower center of my head… back behind and a little up from my throat and behind my nasal cavity but a little lower… hard to describe. Unpleasant.
- Nausea, some diarrhea, terrible gas - belching and pooting, stomach pains, stomach gurling (like the “I am telling you that we are moving energy" type of gurgling in the solar plexus …which is a good happy sign to me.)
Mind slides! Dang! - Lower back pain, kidney pain, and especially what I call “3D pain”. I have a pain in my lower right hip, usually when I wake up in the mornings these days. I was joking with my friend Evangeline that maybe it’s from having to come back into my body from sleep state into 3D and it hurts to do so! This has come and gone (especially during the fall season) the last 4 years and I always think it’s my appendix but I had it checked 4 years ago and so far it’s still with us so now I’m just going with “3D pain”. This year it only hurts for like 20 minutes and then I forget about it. I get pain in my “4D” center (left hip) intermittently too.
- Tinnitus… I mentioned the beeping and quick deafness… it’s a reprogramming. This is okay. This just came to me. It’s an upgrade being pushed through… We’re shifting frequencies. Okay. Good.
- “Kundalini flu” - 1 day of really terrible “I have covid and I’m going to die” — flu symptoms, fever (though thermometer said no, but it sure as heck felt like it!!) Mostly hot but some cold too! Head, chest and tummy sickness with that too… but also lots of energy or spirit around me… when I’m very sick sometimes I feel angels (MAP team) working on my body and this was like that… I was also doing lots of clearing meditations… so they were supporting me. Anyway, one day of that…where I was so weak that I couldn’t do anything but lay there. The next day it was significantly better and the following day I was able to get out and about some to take care of animals, etc. (Though there were still some lingering energies.) [/li]
Yeah, so that’s it. It's a strange life and experience but I am trying to trust God and walk this all out with a pure heart (as I clean my messy heart) and trust God’s will to be done.5Those who live according to the flesh set their minds on the things of the flesh; but those who live according to the Spirit set their minds on the things of the Spirit. 6The mind of the flesh is death, but the mind of the Spirit is life and peace, 7because the mind of the flesh is hostile to God: It does not submit to God’s law, nor can it do so. 8Those controlled by the fleshd cannot please God.9You, however, are controlled not by the flesh, but by the Spirit, if the Spirit of God lives in you. And if anyone does not have the Spirit of Christ, he does not belong to Christ. - Romans 8:5-9
Two years ago during this time I had a really scary ascension symptom. I got a horrific bloody nose that lasted 3-4 days with giant blood clots… I mean GIANT. I have no idea how I lost so much blood. I was not home and not with the most compassionate of beings and for some reason it took 3 days of bleeding like that before going to an urgent care. My husband drove almost 5 hours to where I was (we were supposed to be going to a wedding). We actually went to the wedding and I just held tissues up to my face but as it was starting I looked like a horror show doing what looked like vomiting giant chunks of blood up all over the bench. We left and we went to the urgent care who suggested I go to the hospital. For financial reasons (our local hospital offered a discount since we don’t have insurance) we decided to drive the 5 hours home to go to our hospital and by that time it had stopped again so we decided to wait until the next day and then didn’t end up having to go. All this to say, I think that was a brain architecture UPGRADE, albeit a horrible experience. Removing toxic old chunks of who knows what (I’m telling you- HUGE chunks!! Coming out my throat from my sinuses/head.)… I don’t want to go through that again, but I look back with gratitude (and horror) on it.
This time of year is always hard on me ...I seem to be tortured (<— such drama…. But really it’s tough). Last year the theme was heart upgrades which I already talked about. My heart rhythm changed a few years ago which resulted in an “abnormal” EKG from then on which was unpleasant when I was running to the medical system… but the context of now knowing that it is part of the shift in the frequency of the earth (of which I AM a part) provides peace (and gratitude to be a part of it).
This year I tried to get a head start on preparation for the fall season of torment (ha) and God sent me resources and of course ESF to help me gain understanding and all these wonderful tools to support the process. I’m so grateful for everyone to share in this experience with! (Though I don't wish it on anyone!!)
Related and I may as well continue since I’ve written a huge book so far…
I realized that the reason that I can even freak out about the things going on in my body is because my HSP is developing. I had my first panic attack in 2006 or 2007… I’ve got to look that up. But it was from an activation in my light body or meridian system. It was the first shooting pain that I registered that was unexplainable. I, of course, thought it was a heart attack and went into a panic attack and ambulance ride and we were OFF. Panic attacks and a strange life ensued. But now I see that it was because of my sensitivity coming online that I could feel it.
I just had an oversensitive perception… I could tell there was something wrong ("something’s off with my spleen” "how do you know what a spleen feels like?" "I don't know, I just feel like that's true." I guess this is what “hypochondria” is….but the root is because I could sense changes happening. Unfortunately coupled with increasing anxiety and control measures this all created a perfect storm for the spirits of mental bondage. Anyway, I think there are many people stuck in that place … higher than “normal” HSP coming online as we ascend and looking to the medical industry for answers (because that's what we're taught) and it creates a schism that creates a whirlpool that pulls them under. And most of us in that position eventually fall into the psychiatry and pharmaceutical traps.
Thank you Stefani for sharing about your body’s need for meat changing. I try to eat some meat as a part of my nutritional balancing program but have been very lax the last couple months because I just didn't want it. This last week or two I’ve felt like I needed more though and that it would help with grounding. I haven’t eaten much more yet but it’s here in my consciousness.
Well this has been an interesting journey reading through this thread! So many amazing experiences - thank you all for sharing. I'm sorry that I'm not a very good listener yet. I wish I had responded to your individual contributions better. I'm still very wrapped in my ego programming and selfishness. I I I I <--you see? But I wanted to share my perceptions in case it's helpful to myself or others at any time and I promise to do better work at STO in the forums. (I do better in real-life interactions...but still not good enough. Our dear friend MelanieR is teaching me what a great listener looks like.)
Two little notes that I might as well add here instead of my journal since they were born from Lisa's first post in this thread:
I’ve had a sun theme going on…yesterday I did the RA-MA meditation and this morning I had a double sun show up… I mean really it was the sun reflecting in some water but it was so perfect and aligned and gold and I just felt like it was a symbol and speaking to me about my meditation yesterday."Gold Sun DNA template restoration"
Here are links to that meditation:
esfoundations.com/library/meditation-sup...-sovereign-sun-ra-ma
esfoundations.com/community/platinum-arc...itation-january-2014
Candice ended up mentioning this in a post in this thread too!
During my last session with Joe he noted there were dragons flying around which I thought was great! He must have said they were good dragons because I would usually think they are dangerous, but they were apparently protecting and supporting us."beloved Founder Races and Dragon Kings returning from the God worlds"
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