I've had that pain in my center-to-right chest a bunch lately...something wants to be born through that... a fragment released or returned. A weapon removed from my lightbody that has injured my etheric heart. We are returning.
I am the embodiment of Christ-Sophia I AM... WE ARE... All in One... and One in All... the merging of masculine and feminine... the shedding of societal constraints and overlays designed to keep me from recognizing and embodying the fullness of the truth that I AM God, Sovereign, and Free.
Shaving my legs and armpits to please others is not the Way.
Finding my heart, my center, my joy... what feels good and right to me. Feeling my pain and tears. Feeling the shrapnel in my field and stake in my heart. Feeling the pain of separation from myself and my beloved.
Yesterday I swatted a beautiful dragonfly that came to hug my left calf... I was walking and it landed on my leg and before I saw it or knew what I was doing, I was panicking and swatted it off. I felt so bad immediately and repented and asked for forgiveness as I looked for her body which I could not find and I pray she is well. God thank you. I weep. I leak pain and sadness. I need to feel into it.
I need to keep doing my work ... it's uncomfortable and not moving fast but I need to keep reading my journals... I need to get into Joe and it's going to hurt... that time... and then I need to go to 01022010 and see what happened and then watch it unravel with Tyrone... I have to see what happened. Was it me? Did I fail? I'm afraid to find out. I know I did... but I'm here to work through that now... always here learning.
In April 2011 we DID sign up to be a martyr... we are not careful with our thoughts and words... but we DO yearn to please God and be of use in the reclamation of Christ.
I could live this life for myself or I could live it for God. Is it delusional to want to live it for God? Is it worthy? Is it ego driving me trying to find meaning in my life? But I feel so much divine support. And I am learning so much... the portals of consciousness.... the guidance and light of God guiding me is so real.
The mind wants to know.
The heart already knows.
Just come back to your heart and follow where you are taken... the path will unwind the snarl and you are doing good work. You are a good girl with a good heart. You have given yourself away to things that are not aligned with the truth of who you are, but you are reclaiming them now in Christ-Sophia. We are with you.
Thank you.
I loved what I read today in a marketing email by Esther/Abraham Hicks... I want to remember:
Dear Friends,
Abraham told us a while back, "If we were standing in your physical shoes we would make more decisions in every day." I was thinking about that this week and so I asked Abraham to speak more specifically, to me, about that and they said this: "Focus on a desire without contradiction."
Please say more about that, I asked. And they made the following statements:
Decide to do something and then do it. Do it because you want to. Do it because you decided you would. Don't complain about doing it, while you are doing it. That is a contradiction. That is split Energy.
Focus only the positive aspects of people and situations. Do not weigh the pros and the cons. That is contradiction. That is split Energy.
Choose something that is important to you and focus on that. One thing at a time. Do not try to think about many things at once. That is often contradiction. That is often split Energy.
Think about what you desire and think about why you want it. Spend no time trying to figure out what others want and why they want it, or what others do and why they do it. Your speculation about others is always incomplete and usually inaccurate. That introduces contradiction. That causes split Energy.
I always appreciate Abraham's practical advice.
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