So much going on under the surface...
Obsidian ... the song and the rocks are loud in my world...very supportive
Gabe... (eye of the storm)
JOURNALS... obsessive tendencies, especially about lovers... bondage loops. Wanting to be loved and heard. I have been a black hole....
Now it's a love story between me and my God-self. God and I.
Two nights ago I had a beautiful time dancing under the stars. Praying. Crying.
I was going to post in ES but I think I won't. I think I'll leave here:
I have a good amount of Christian music in my mix. I have to be discerning and often decode or dismantle dogma intertwined in it, and I have whittled it down to mostly be the stuff that isn't outright Jesus worship. (I was taught by the spirit of God 10 years ago that Jesus and Christ are two separate "things"... Jesus...J12...was a man like us... and he is a great example to/for us. But Christ is the anointing ...the chrism... and we are anointed or baptised/immersed into Christ.... by the Holy Spirit as we unite our hearts with God (our Source). Jesus was the Christ...or I should say ONE of Christ... there are many others who are Christ ... are we all? This is the war over consciousness...the NAA wants to damage the beings so much that they cannot connect back into their organic being enough to then unite with/in Christ. I digress. I love this topic so much. But I was talking about music... so... because of the dogma and because I want to be careful about what influences me, I usually choose songs that loosely reference God and allow for interpretation.... I love Needtobreathe and Lauren Daigle who are Christian and feel like divine siblings...but my favorite nowadays is Nahko Bear and Medicine for the People. Obsidian by Trevor Hall and Gajumaru by Yaima and any song, but especially Tightrope Walker by Ayla Nero on her Code of the Flowers album ...these are also some of my favorites that I thought to share.
I wanted to share that because today I was listening to a YouTube mix and "Ain't No Grave (Live)" by Molly Skaggs & Bethel Music came up and inspired and reminded me that WE ARE still following Jesus' example... dying (ego death anyway) in order to go to the depths of hell in order to overcome it. To take on the sins of the collective... in order to heal them. This is what a genetic pathcutter (or whatever kind of pathcutter I am... every kind)... this is what we do. We take on the sins of the world to heal them for all of humanity. And we do it because our strength comes from and for God. This is the work of Christ (Christ-Sophia I AM). And as we are born into or baptized into Christ, as we become One with the Father (and Mother), we are led in our path to serve those the Father gives us to serve. It may not look or feel very glamourous... it is HARD... riddled with traps and pain and loss, but we count it as JOY to get to be a part of the valuable work of God.
Oh, shame is a prison as cruel as a grave
Shame is a robber and he's come to take my name
Oh, love is my redeemer, lifting me up from the ground
Love is the power when my freedom song is found
Oh, fear is a liar with a smooth and velvet tongue
Fear is a tyrant, he's always telling me to run
Oh, love is a resurrection and love is a trumpet sound
Love is my weapon, I'm gonna take my giants down
Oh, there was a battle, a war between death and life
And there on a tree, the Lamb of God was crucified
And He went on down to hell, He took back every key
He rose up as a lion and He set all captives free
I'm currently releasing crucifixion implants so I'm not keen on the "crucified" part, or really any of the classic Jesus story... but if we have hearts open to the movement of the Holy Spirit, then the truth can set us free....then we begin to unlock the gifts within the heavily coded Jesus story which is right there in plain sight but only if you have eyes to see and ears to hear which is the work of God. Crucifixion, if we look at it as putting to death the ego and lusts of our flesh ... super painful depending on how much you are carrying ... well that's the "faith" isn't it? ... to die to....to deny my "self" that Christ might live through me. Not my will but thy will be done, O God. It's not actually death, per see, but it is the marrying...the merging of consciousness with the fullness of all that is in order to support the mission of the reclamation of the earth and/or humanity. (I need to stop there because I just realized that this is a finite mission... that there is much more beyond that, but this is what is in scope here and now.)
ps. Tonight I also had a lovely time dancing naked under the stars. It was a little more forced... but felt good to move my body. And one song I rubbed and loved all over myself ... I need to touch and learn to LOVE and not judge and hate myself. One song was the JOY song again!! King and Country I think. Rosemary talked about joy today... she said she's always been a really joyful person and wondered if I was too (I was). We both dealt a lot with addiction as a way to cope...but under it all is a joyful being. Someone commented... oh, Ammi's mom... about my laugh... lots of people like my laugh. I saw a small dim shooting star (or UFO - ha!) but it was quick and not an activation... but the stars were lovely.
Tomorrow don't forget to re-listen to your Joe session.
I have been using my dowsing/ pendulum for help in deciding what to do. I need to work with my HSP.
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