Daily glossary pick: https://ascensionglossary.com/index.php/Moon
Lunar Forces being evicted - shadow coming up for witnessing and wormholes being closed.
This thing (mental and emotional storm) yesterday was aligned with my life review how I obsess and fall into mental bondage loops especially about around wanting to be seen/loved by a man. I feel both the divine connection and the repulsion (since I do not appear beautiful ... my Godself is, but my inner child has gaping wounds). That is only one negative ego ping. What’s the truth?7D violet ray reversals surfacing for healing . Left ring finger is 7D axiatonial line.
Fear of upsetting people (then they won’t like me and they will push me away) along with dark mother (wanting to control and dominate into submission), along with ego wanting to be seen as smart and teach keeps me tied up in confusion and circles.
While Gabe situation is confusing and uncomfortable, it has provided a beautiful canvas for healing, introspection, and choosing to honor my HG within.
7D violet ray reversals surfacing for healing. Left ring finger which you’ve mentioned a couple times for me is 7D axiatonial line and has to do with monadic integration and HG union. Help awaken and reclaim your finger tips by squeezing the axiatonial line/tips of fingers and toes (as modeled in meditation entitled Inner Male-Female Recoding Calibration from July 2011).
Fear of upsetting people (then they won’t like me and they will push me away) along with dark mother (control and wanting to dominate), along with ego (wanting to be seen as smart and teach) keeps me tied up in confusion and circles. I've taken on the challenging task of unraveling this gordian knot!
"Oh yeah, don’t forget- almost mind slid away- the intimacy with Gabe (because he wasn’t fully calibrated in HGS) messes with me/us. He had a strong Christ presence and masculine architecture which my lightbody is looking for in its partner. That kind of intimacy is like having spiritual sex... it opens us up and causes confusion and the whole thing where there are cords intertwined. Not healthy for me or him or Maren, especially. I know that if/when I share this, it will be the end of our relationship- but it will help him and others going forward.
I want the relief and support associated with his “help” holding structure for my lightbody but it isn’t healthy or right. So I have to eschew my own desires and surrender- and cut cords with him." <--note, I do this often with you, but it doesn't completely work... since I first touched your energy signature you have been with me.
I really wanted to bring this up to help you understand what can happen, and so you can guard yourself and your beloved and it reminded me of that guru-desciple type of sexual misery program. Thanks be to God for the intel. Those guys and girls start genuinely trying to connect and serve others with this energy and architecture, but just like with the numerous spiritual leaders that are swept away by delusion and vittles for their flesh, this could be a foothold. So many Ai Red Wave distortions trying to get us. This anti-HG one is especially strong. Perhaps this is a little dramatic, but I am not exaggerating when I say that my heart and being has been through a LOT since our session. Lots of opportunities to choose God and love and to see negative ego and distortions. I'm still confused about whether it is God's will because that structure was SO supportive to me... it continues to be. The day after I felt you there (not you, your albion body) and I wanted to bring you close so that I could continue my work... merge with that energy and keep going, but I felt like it was cheating on Maren or something so I didn't... intentionally. I wasn't as strong as I would like to be... I kind of sat with it instead of fully rejecting it but I didn't pull it close. I started praying for God to lead and that their will be done in the Way of Christ-Sophia. And that's it. I have to leave it there.
But then the distortions came yesterday... the schisms... the confusion and emotional pain and feelings of abandonment and betrayal. Again, there for my witnessing and not your doing at all. I hope this isn't coming off accusatory... it's just what I experienced so that I can support the creation of healing pathways for our other brothers and sisters.
You appreciated my honesty so I hope that you will, (a.) see through what is astral or emotional, and what is dark mother and lunar distortions, and (b.) hear my heart that it is my intention that you be the strongest and most effective expression of yourself on this earth as possible. You are, to date, the most beautiful man I've ever met and I pray a triune God blessing over you, beloved Christ-Sophia that you are/we are/I am. You are GSF, fully held, fully protected, fully awake! We do not consent to any dark forces trying to intertwine with your light which is the light of the world. I love you!
ps. My heart is open to speak about this in person if you have questions or want to talk through it.
OBSIDIAN: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VTEpVcYeoN8
Today I also got "Check your Dashboard" on the Gathering page to prepare me for the storm I am headed into on family vacation. May I hold neutrality and a healing vibration for my family!
Check the Dashboard
One of the most important features to remember about egotists, narcissists and psychopaths is that they are people that do not recognize boundaries nor respect them in others. To these people, (whom are generally controlled by something outside of themselves) others exist to meet their needs and live up to their personal projections and expectations.
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