Best message I've ever written

 I feel this is the best message I've ever written! Loving, kind, and honest! Thank you GOD for allowing me the opportunity to see and practice this:

(Thanks be to God for THIS information too! https://energeticsynthesis.com/index.php/library/negative-alien-agenda/2183-mission-briefing-on-nrg)

"There are mysoginistic men who enjoy causing pain and being tyrants. They are called “government officials”.  - Ha! YEP!

I love the Matrix and that is a poignant analogy that strongly applies in what I see as this holographic reality. What you are saying there about having to go through the fire to become pure feels powerful and I tried being pure just this very way... by giving myself to a man. Handing over the reigns and saying I don't do a good enough job, you do it. 

I handed the reins to the kindest man too. I have no qualms about that… I know you would be a kind master too. But as I’ve said before, I found that it didn't work. It led to me into living a lie/disconnected from my soul... cognitive dissonance. It felt awful. I gave it more than the old college try though... I believe it was close to 2 years of trying to wrangle that into truth in earnest. Unfortuntately I got very sick and was required to work through lots of distortions and one of my big lessons has been the responsiblity to take my own power back... to own myself again. I had to learn that I am the source and that only I can love myself … I had been looking outside for that deep acceptance (first through parents and then through friends and lovers and then through addiction and religion). I learned that only from this place of self-acceptance and self-love am I able to truly connect to Source and embody the divine I AM. 

You don't see all the energetic vampiric cords around this. Until you recognize WE ARE GOD, WE ARE SOVEREIGN and WE ARE FREE. ALL BEINGS... you say it, but you don't fully see or will to embody it... until you can surrender to SOURCE ENERGY to guide and direct you, you will be a slave to the energies that have infiltrated your lightbody to whisper lies and make you think something that is not true. 

"There is nothing toxic about a loving man taking charge." - I agree. I only used the word toxicity when referring to what the NWO (etc) is doing to poison humans into gender dysphoria ("distress a person feels due to a mismatch between their gender identity—their personal sense of their own gender—and their sex assigned at birth.")  ...the GMOs etc are causing the physical body to store toxic chemicals and even natural minerals like copper to an exorbitant level which poisons the body, damages the endocrine system and creates a disconnectedness from their bodies and minds and people no longer recognize their own gender. 

I agree and appreciate that men rooted in their masculinity are beautiful and powerful leaders and I have so much respect for that energy and vitality. I want (and will have) an alpha male partner… I need it to balance me. Not to dominate me, but to balance with me to create something new and powerful for both of us.

"We do not contain the energies of both genders.”  You’re right… not both GENDERS, but we DO both hold the attributes of both masculine and feminine energies. Gender = male/female. Penis/vagina (etc).   Masculine and feminine are, what? Energetic traits? The atom comes to mind with its electron, proton and neutron.  We are electromagnetic beings and require all of those to function (electron = masculine principle, proton = feminine principle, and neutron = neutral). There's a good analogy in here and I'm hoping you've already heard it or I'll need to get my mind wrapped around it better to explain .

Gender isn't the same as masculine and feminine. For example women (gender) are designed to embody more feminine traits, and when there is an imbalance and she is forced to utilize more masculine traits to function in the world, this throws her off her natural balance and into a reversal system that starts feeding energy to the beast machine. Same for men… and there is an attack on humans at this level, masculinized feminine and feminized masculine… blowing up the system!!

As far as the quivering vagina, ha! Yeah. I'm watching and learning and my guidance is showing me where this is sourced from. The thing is, THAT energy isn't actuallly what you think it is. That does support you in attracting and "conquering" a woman, but you may have noticed that it dissipates eventually... it loses power. So then what? I think that energy is a reversal/golum energy. I toyed with it before a couple times so I'm learning to recognize its signature and this time am not going to let it feed on me. (I hope you understand this is not YOU. It's not Paul. You identify with it in a way but it is a hitchhiker. The real Paul energy is strong and grounded and does not need to feed on power from other humans. You are tapping into life-giving energy through your meditations and cleansing your body and those hitchhikers will eventually slough off. Especially if/when you identify them. They don't like to be seen.)

I'm being very honest about what I'm seeing and I recognize this is likely going to cause you to not talk to me, but if I don't share it, who will? I mean, you'll figure it out on your own. Your heart will guide you to all truth. But I want to be honest because I care about you. The kinship (literally) that I feel isn't related to the sexual energies, per se, but I was right when I told you that I felt we had work to do with the "sexual misery program" together - I'm astounded at how much and how fast, but it's been very supportive and educational for me.

My desire is to hold a place of love and neutrality for you to continue to involve into the most authentic Paul that you are. To embody your higher self, your god-self, so you can fulfill more of your purpose. 

If I have royally pissed you off and I don't hear back from you, just know I appreciate you and am always here if ever in the future you want to talk more. I think as our consciousness continues to grow, you and I will continue to grow towards each other so I’ll be around. You have all my contact info. 💗 Love, Carissa

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I JUST NOTICED ... I sent that at 5:56!!!!!! That is OVERCOMING... COMING OUT OF THE 555 NRG!!! WHOA!!! I noted earlier how many of our messages were related to 55... this was a sign! GOD!! You are teaching me!! WOW!!! THANK YOU!!!!!!!!

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this was in response to his:

Paul [Oct 29, 2021 at 1:07:12 PM]:

There is so much that I want to reply to this. I’ll try to take a break today and do so. As always, I really enjoyed our conversation. You are fascinating to me.

Paul  [Oct 29, 2021 at 1:43:30 PM]:

There are mysoginistic men who enjoy causing pain and being tyrants. They are called “government officials”. HF isn’t that at all. My beliefs aren’t that at all. 

I’ve studied this dynamic for many, many years in depth. You may be correct that there will come a point in time where the expression of this principle will be entirely pure. But there is no better way to free ourselves from the Matrix at this point in time. To use the movie as an analogy: being disconnected from the “power cell that feeds the machines” was an extremely painful experience. There is no way around that. You must go through fire to become pure. You must learn to see with eyes that you’ve never used. You must learn new skills and accept the new reality that the Matrix hid from you. That’s the only path to healing. You must develop new skills: programmed into your mind by someone with your best interest at heart. That’s what empowers you with the ability to change the world. Your thoughts are currently limited to a time when the machines have been defeated. That’s the ideal, I agree. But right now they are attacking us from all sides. Submitting to the wisdom of the ship’s captain is the only way to save the world and eventually win the war. The world isn’t what you’ve been taught to believe. Learn to trust those whose eyes have been open for a very long time. It’s not about “control”. It’s allowing a military commander to order his soldiers to secure victory, while protecting each other. It’s about working in unison to defeat a threatening enemy. 

No matter what terms you use, reality can only be one way. There is nothing toxic about a loving man taking charge. The only thing that is dangerous is to usurp his authority. Trust him to lead and he will lead. Dissent only leads to distrust and defeat. 

We do not contain the energies of both genders. At least, not when we are spiritually healthy. Just as a hermaphrodite is a freak of nature, our fullness can only be expressed by being in energetic alignment to our genitalia. The mind, body and spirit all deeply recognize this. They crave to be in their natural state, in alignment with their purpose. The reversals are the Matrix programming that a man should be feminine and a woman should be masculine. That’s contrary to nature. There’s a reason that things with two heads are called “monsters”. 

Of course your body responds. I cannot count the times that females have told me, “you make my pussy quiver just talking to you”. That’s the natural response when female energy meets masculine energy. Our bodies recognize and respond to that Union. It should serve as proof to you that the divine female craves a strong, but compassionate hand. That is what it seeks. Vaginas are made to be penetrated. Penises are made to penetrate. That is the function that fulfills them. It’s just common sense. We can try to spiritualize the truth away. But it only distorts it. Two men cannot share that energy. They are physically, emotionally, psychologically and spiritually incompatible. It is contrary to nature to attempt it. It is a path that leads backwards. 

Thank you again for your thoughts and mentally stimulating conversation. Have a fantastic day, my friend. Talk soon.

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On dog walk I had HUGE breakthrough in understanding about Michael too ... His God is outside himself and he is trying to please and work with THAT. I AM trying to embody my GODSELF which does look a little self-centered, but it is part of my own evolution, thank you God!

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WIM HOF method night. Got some more understanding. I just ran off on my own to do the showers but I actually watched a couple videos....and I need to do the breathing.

I want to share in all this with someone. Felt it would be fun to talk to Paul about it, but feeling into his energy (OH! I didn't tell you, he said he still wants to be friends...but I do see I need to give him space...) I just wanted to talk to him about the wim hof. I want to experience life with a partner. 

Why not Michael?

Michael is coming around. He is increasing in consciousness. We have a lovely life together... 12:12am

Yeah. Just keep praying. Pray and ask God to lead. God, please lead. 

I feel myself wanting to change/awaken Paul but I can't do that. He's doing that on his own. That's the part that I connected to. But I understand that even his HF activities are about finding a better way that connects to his divinity and purpose. God will lead him. Help me to love him and to get out of the consumptive modeling mentality. (<-- like "I want him".) If I can remain non-attached to the outcome and just let it unfold then God can work.

Look at what we're learning and have learned through witnessing Lior and Jeff and Kirk ... so much. These boys. God is teaching me. And I need to lean back into my SELF... LOVE ME. Spend time with ME. I am now by writing. And we've done some fun activities tonight... checking out some Telegram/crazy world content. Talked to Misha for over an hour. Talked to Laura for almost a half hour. Cooked for Michael. Watched Wim Hof documentary and videos. 

My crotch smells but I just remembered that I haven't showered today. 

Is this BlueShield doing anything?

I think I'm growing. I was astonished at how God blessed me with words for Paul today and that he didn't cut me off (yet). And continuing to talk to Michael and share my heart and peel back understanding about my process and our work and expectations together. And I talked to Corie for a while tonight too. Page yesterday. Today was the first day of the soft opening of Malai at Preston Center.

I love Kirk the most. He's my favorite person to talk to. He's interesting and responsive and intelligent.

I need to get away from this computer and go to bed. Go to bed. 

I love you, ME! 💖