Response to Paul's note back to mine... here's his response first...
So what keeps coming to my mind is “As above, so below”.
The difference in the sexual organs of the two genders are what give us the clues to express the divine masculine and feminine in their most natural form. The penis is hard, rigid, dominant, penetrating, stiff, filling, etc when aroused. So too the masculine energy embodies those characteristics. Yet, once bliss is achieved and procreation completed, it can relax, soften and “hang out”.
The vagina on the other hand is the polar opposite. It is soft, warm, fluid, accepting, malleable, quivering, penetrable, yielding. This is the essence of femininity. The firmness of the male penetrates the yielding warmth of the female. This is how we are designed. This is what brings natural union. This is how both genders experience bliss.
It only becomes a role when our programming is counter to the realities of nature. Any other reality is unnatural.
I agree with you fully that the state is impossible to reach through the mind. It must come from much deeper. It must be a spiritual connection. That’s why I’ve purposely gone without release for so long. It’s meaningless distraction if there isn’t that soul connection.
I know that it’s what I’ve sought for my entire life: true intimacy. I’ve yet to meet my twin flame to whom surrendering to my guidance will be her deepest desire, a surrender that will elevate us to indescribable heights of sexual bliss.
I knew that you would be open minded enough to at least read the article and discuss it with me, and I treasure you for that. There isn’t anyone else to whom I’ve felt safe enough to bear my soul. I just have an intuitive trust in you. You are an honest intellectual and deserving of all truth.
Lastly, I don’t want you to fall for the misperception that I’m (or the HF community) is in any way advocating that a male must act as some cruel, barbaric master over his woma(e)n. That is not at all the case. His role is to be a leader, a teacher, a guide. He should encourage and protect her, mold her. Restrain her from folly. Be her rock, her shoulder. Discipline her as needed, but only when he has first disciplined himself. He can’t command her to eat a healthy diet (for her own good) and reprimand her for failing if he’s eating donuts and drinking vodka for breakfast. He is to be a ROLE-MODEL. Not play a role. His authentic self must be what he guides her to attain. His actions are logically and intuitively decided in the interest of benefiting both. Males are left-brain creatures. Women run on emotions. That’s nature. And that’s why an emotionally driven woman needs a strong hand to save her from herself.
And I said:
I wrote a book as a response but I think the most important thing is to let you know you are heard and appreciated.
Thank you for sharing your thoughts and your heart and thank you for your trust, Paul. Bless you for it. My desire is to hold these things in my own heart with kindness and neutrality. I feel it is a big part of the reclamation of my own identity in the Law of One.
I want to say it again - you are an excellent writer - and I feel the depth of your sharing. I’d love to talk more today too! Lots to unpack and feel into.
The rest...that I didn't send but feel is journal-worthy:
I feel the divine feminine is necessary for the divine masculine to embody to the fullness of all he is meant be. And visa versa. The Controller agenda (which I believe is ultimately sourced from off-earth negative entities) is to destroy that divine design… to blow it up and reverse it. It’s the foundation of our lives.
For me “as above, so below” which I can see as a message from guidance teams (do you believe in guidance teams?) is a reminder about the micro/macro connection… what we experience individually is also a part of the larger architecture.
Right now this is “up” in the fields very much… the healing of the masculine and feminine divide… and I hope I don’t trigger you but it’s the “patriarchal domination” slant that is ready for healing. The suppression of the divine feminine. This has caused both men and women to fall into distortions and reversals.
Men and women aren’t the same as masculine and feminine. I don’t believe in gender dysphoria (well, I believe it is an actual symptom of an imploded psyche which happens with toxicity and social programming), but I do believe that we all inherently have both masculine and feminine energies and that the way to find balance and truth and satisfaction and happiness is by merging those first within the self, and then ultimately, the ultimate goal, is to merge with a partner and anchor that energy together.
The mental body focus driven by the masculine merged with the heart/emotions which are a more feminine aspect creates a stronger filter and foundation for interacting with the world.
I’m working on integrating these in myself and healing the many many distortions that have manifested in my being as a result of the reversals and being cut off from truth, acceptance, and love. All of this comes from within. If there’s one thing that I’ve learned, it’s that this whole game of life is really between ME and me. (My godself and my incarnation as Carissa.) Working this out, integrating my higher power or Source more and more into this vessel. Again, so that I can anchor frequency on this plain. And when we can come together in union with a beloved who is doing the same… anchoring purity, kindness, generosity, patience, discipline, diligence, and humility (for example), we really support the ascension of the earth (which is why I believe I incarnated here… to help with this mission).
I agree with what you said about the masculine and feminine — the hard and soft —and believe that is the divine design and it’s very appealing but there’s so much more to it. It’s the adventure of working through all this with another…someone with the same desire to …and this is Michael’s phrase and the one that really “got” me…. “live according to our created purpose”. I love that.
But I tried (very hard) from the state of my brokenness to just submit all I was to Michael and it didn’t “stick”… it doesn’t work if it’s not being anchored from a place of authenticity and connection to Source.
There is a tyranny and control piece in both the distorted masculine and the distorted feminine and unless that is healed to wholeness through mutual trust, eventually any union built on that will fail. There are wallflowers that are happy to hand over their own sovereignty… and maybe that’s enough for some…. But for me and I sense for you because I feel we are made of the same stuff, we are made for more. I want to (expect to at the right time) experience the fullness of BEING all I AM and encouraging and supporting and empowering my beloved in his quest to do the same. When we are strong and rooted individually and then come together intentionally and with purpose to be stronger together, I think that’s where true satisfaction lives.
I feel a lot of the dominance/submission mentality has to do with working out traumas that we’ve all experienced and isn’t, in my experience, the most effective way to heal. But it works for some and I respect and honor you and the path that your soul chooses for its own healing. You are my beloved brother first and foremost and I’m grateful to be on this earth at the same time as you and now given this role as a compassionate witness and friend.
I felt the energy between us immediately because of what you are talking about… there is an incredible power to a strong masculine presence and it naturally causes me to soften. I also feel we are working with healing some of the same things on a planetary level and of course personal level.
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This daily AG pick seems to have a message for me.... not only in the 88, but also:
The motion of M88 through the intergalactic medium of the Virgo cluster is creating ram pressure that is stripping away the outer region of neutral hydrogen. This stripping has already been detected along the western, leading edge of the galaxy.[1]
I'm not sure if this is positive or negative but feels like it's related to Paul's motion is creating pressure that is stripping away neutrality, especially on the feminine side.
His message last night came at 12:55. Lots of 55's ...and 54's though... and 48's and all the numbers...
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12:40 well my eyes are drooping from being so tired... energetically drained. I failed. I didn't maintain neutrality. I talked to Paul again for an hour and a half and it wasn't good. I told him (pretty much over and over) that I would not be submissive.
I sent him the part of the above letter which I didn't send earlier...added:
Thanks for taking all that time to talk to me. Couldn’t that count toward your mahjong (or maybe it was Words), solitaire and the brain games time??? Whooo… it was hard. But you were brave. Thank you for sharing all that with me. I lost neutrality and fell into not only analytical mind, but I made it personal and that also takes the fun out of it, so I’m sorry. We have established that I would be a terrible submissive and so now if and when you want to continue our conversation and exploration and discussion about the machinations of this world (including, I hope, more on gender roles as it is fascinating), I’ll be here.
Here’s the rest of the discourse I typed earlier…the part I didn’t send… I should have. I’m much better at communicating in writing. But I think more layers are available to our consciousness through actual voice communication so everything is perfect.
and at the end -
That’s all I wrote and it ended abruptly so I’ll just close with a thank you for all you have shared, and for all you are, and for all you do. You are the real deal. Authentic and honest. Bless you dear Paul!
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A let down. Sad. But also a relief. And then I talked to Michael who reminded me what a terrible partner I am. And it's true. I really would be. I can WANT to have a HGU with someone all I want, but if we're not ready or not right for each other, it's not going to work.
I THOUGHT Paul was on the spiritual path, but he's still working through his wounding. There's nothing I can do. I'm working through my wounding. I felt there were some real synchronicities and it turns out that his past and everything makes him like he's truly "a younger version of Michael" which is what I wanted, in a way. Except I want someone who is aligned with the Law of One and wants to be in DIVINE UNION.
What Paul wants is NOT THAT. He wants to boss someone around because it will help him to feel better about himself. Kick the dog. Nope. Not gonna do it. He's got layers of enlightenment on board that are being pulled away and he really COULD be a family member or genetic equal. But right now this was sent to me to feel the alien love bite technology and ai Red Cube and golum and think about gender roles. It was really a beautiful gift from God as I work to embody my higher self. Thank you God!
And it's almost time for the Omnilov3 class!
I'm sooooo tired.
I didn't sleep hardly at all yesterday.
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WOWWWWW. Yeah. I just read (skimmed but read)
https://energeticsynthesis.com/index.php/library/negative-alien-agenda/2183-mission-briefing-on-nrg which God led me to yesterday.... THIS is what we are seeing with Paul. NRG implant, addiction program, golum (even the liplessness stood out to me). Thank you God for this lesson.
I don't think it's my place to "help" him with it, but I think it was my place to be a compassionate witness. To learn, identify, and observe it. I am so grateful God has protected me. I do not consent to this impacting my lightbody at all. GOD BLESS PAUL. I ask for the 12D light of Christ to surround and guide him to freedom.
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