Cord cutting

 I'll share some photos later ... it's almost midnight and I'm POOPED but shared in a "cord cutting" ceremony with Sophia and Alegra tonight that was lovely (and exhausting) and hopefully educational and hopefully beneficial.

I just kind of went with what a felt, not as strongly as I would have liked, but eventually did choose to do a cord cutting... Sophia had candles and she had us choose one colored candle... I chose green, and then write the thing we are trying to cut the cord from on that candle. I chose: ego, manipulation energy (pushing/pulling), FKOT and Dark Mother. Then we had to choose a candle that represented us... I went with cobalt blue. (I chose green without knowing what was happening and then I was trying to make it work for me the rest of the time... maybe the manipulation energy didn't burn up, ha!)? I chose a gold/yellow cord...representing Christos, to me... and of course the green represented masculine energy and the blue represented Mother energy. I thought the Sophianic energy would help heal these distortions etched in the masculine. (It IS powerful, isn't it?)

My blue/mother candle burned fast and powerfully and burned the cord brightly....lit it ABLAZE!! The green candle kept burning strong and straight after it was released from the blue and I felt to ask her to move the green one so that it could merge with the blue candle on its white rose base surrounded by clear quartz crystals. It was beautiful! They merged and created teal wax (as I had asked for originally, but she didn't have a teal candle... which of course I thought of as Indigo/AA 6D colors). 

Anyway, it was neat. Long. 3 hours talking to them. Sophia pulled some cards for her and Alegra. I wasn't really feeling them tonight. They were angel cards that felt like maybe hijacked astral versions and I didn't like them. Reminded me of ... well shoot, now I forgot. I'm so tired. Mind slide, I guess. But it didn't feel right for me at this time. 

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Update while brushing teeth, I see that it is MORE RELEVANT to be cutting cords with the MASCULINE MENTAL BODY/MIND... this is what spins me out. Rest in the arms of Mother. 

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Marriage is not a "trap". It's not about the "commitment". It's about love. Presence in God. I mean, it IS a commitment, but it's not a prison sentence. If you want to get out, you can get out. But if you can love and serve each other and enrich each other's lives in love, then it's a beautiful thing. A continual "choosing" of that person is lovely! ... but ... I don't know. I'm too tired to think of this. It's 12:55am...and I'm in the middle of doing the commanding personal space and I'm tired. And scattered. Not grounded. Go. Okay.