Guardians, what do you think about Paul and I creating a beautiful life where we own a popular business where people come to learn about frequency healing and mineral balancing? Where we have healed ourselves and we live a sunlit life and have a beautiful comfortable home and office where we love on people - see them and hear them and comfort them and help them heal themselves.
I must invest my time in learning and understanding the mechanics of minerals. And in meditation and for the supportive machines to show up. Could Puja be one of my best friends?Could Paul and I travel and feel really good in our bodies?
Could I learn to live a life of pleasure? Sunlit pleasure. Krystic pleasure. Could Paul?
May we heal the lunar distortions and fkot and love everyone(including ourselves) just as we are in this moment!
When I have time when Paul is at work -
Malai Nextdoor
Malai Preston Facebook
Malai hiring
Mineral balancing- learn and love
Meditation and more engagement in ES communities
We are on the cusp
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My pre-session write-up for Charlotte:
Dear Charlotte,
I am very much looking forward to our session on Monday! I pray you are feeling strong and rooted and watching the show unfold from a place of peace and neutrality.
My intention for our session is to gain some course-correction in terms of any physical support I need for my body as well as healing and fortification of my lightbody.
I feel like I’ve been in the trenches and I need help. I have lost ground in terms of lunar forces coming against (and frankly, through, me). In the last month I’ve found myself being a dark portal again and given much power back to my negative ego.
I think my “main thing” is Paul and fighting off the anti-HG splitter tech. I think I am supposed to be embodying and holding my personal HG union and light of Christ-Sophia so that he feels safe enough to embody his own. My personal battles with negative ego are causing me to do harm vs. the good that I am meant to do.
Enemy patterning comes up - I’m very adversarial and tend to attack my beloved. I’m demanding, judgement, critical, and controlling. Please don’t fire me or give up on me! I am here to heal this and need you and the Guardians to see that I WANT TO heal this once and for all!
Sexual trauma - I think - relating to to my father - is coming up for healing in dream state especially. Possibly holographic inserts though?
Things have been worse… but I also think I’ve been given a ton of support… I just am not as solid - not sticking to diet, meditation (the one during the day has been sent to the back burner often though I do my morning and evening routines and listen to meditations at night). When Paul gets a job (hopefully this week), I think we’ll be able to find our groove and I’ll have more space to get back to these very important matters. It’s just been a period of transition the last couple months.
I feel strongly he is an awakening emerald order brother and it’s confusing because there is so much satanic and luciferian influence (I meannnnn…. His body is tattooed with it and all his social media content and the music he blares…most of it is satanic…. OVERTLY satanic. Which is, interestingly LESS satanic than some of the mainstream satanism hidden in plain sight. It’s confusing though.
He needs help with his body too and I suggested he see you for some nutrition and homeopathic support - sounds like you emailed him back but I hadn’t heard anything since then.
I feel VERY affected by the earth again - the, I guess it’s magnetic, shift at dusk each day seems to bring in something that triggers anxiety and discomfort. I just realized that it COULD be LIGHT coming in… it COULD BE like how in the fall and during Ophicus I feel the worst but it’s the void that allows density to shift and new energies to come in. I don’t know… but dusk, and I feel the weather fronts are affecting me again too. You gave me a homeopathic treatment last year that helped with that.
Poop-wise, I’m doing okay… I started taking a ton of probiotics because I ended up taking antibiotics (which I don’t do lightly…but I was in so much pain in my head - you and I talked about it during my last session…and it turns out I had a significant sinus infection and ear infections… I had been trying all the natural remedies but nothing helped and one day I woke up and felt that I should ask my pendulum if I should go to the urgent care and it said yes. It was a whole spiritual process of working with that … taking antibiotics. It ended up throwing my candida a party so I’ve been taking lots of probiotics which really helped my poop situation. I don’t always poop because I’ve been doing the coffee enemas daily again (and they cause me to have that broken up poop)… but I did note that I wanted to tell you that I HAD great poop for a while. I’ll pay attention from now until our session in case there are follow up questions.
Dreams - yes, I’ve had a couple about my Dad. Last night I had one where I was in a bed with my Dad and two sisters. I was sitting at the foot of the bed and my Dad was on the left side with my sister Corie in the middle and my sister Page on the right. I scribbled in my journal:
"…Dad confessing and having hard time with …Corie got it out of him by questioning him…something about being attracted to his daughter. And I was trying to chime in (in my egoic “I know the answer” way that everyone resists)…I wanted to tell him about Nephilim and DNA / Sexual misery program etc. I think. My Mom was then sitting on the bed and when they didn’t want to hear but I mumbled something about a curse, she heard and saw me and she already knew. Her eyes were bright. Just now thinking back it reminded me of Lisa Renee somehow. The dream continued and I was - we were- working toward healing and disclosure. Something about a steak - probably unrelated. I wanted to tell my Dad I felt it too - it wasn’t just him. He wasn’t evil. Guilt is the trap. We have to - get to -must see it. See what’s going on. Thank you God. I don’t know if Dad did anything with his thoughts or if the thoughts were enough to damage us all but I choose forgiveness and healing and want everyone to, please.” 4:11/4
Emotions: I’m all over the place. Really disconcerting as I had found a peace but when I came into union with Paul I’ve gone backwards. BUT I think I had just been working on my own inner HG and now we’re working with a new layer in the external HG union. Definitely in wing-land now! This morning I wrenched my left shoulder and neck and it’s so stiff. But I’ve had a ton of pain in my left front shoulder for the past few weeks - l wrote some notes a couple days ago to share with you about what’s been going on physically. It’s always changing.
Here’s what I wrote:
Left thumb pain …both at one point but left has continued
Left shoulder - squeezing, radiating and throbbing - thought I was having heart attack a couple days. This was coupled with anxiety for a few days - strong fear - had some good cries moving density
Pains in left rib and left abdomen
Each of my ankles collapsed one one day, the other the other
A little dizziness, headache, sinus, and week-long cold
Vagina itching and discharge (liquidy - not yeasty, but feels like yeast infection would - itchy - tried using yeast infection insert last month. This month I tried boron suppository capsules.)
Felt that shard in my left chest center heart a handful of times this month
DARK MOTHER - LUNAR - DARK PORTAL - CONTROL TANTRUMS - FEAR, impulsivity, emotionality, confusion
On the eve of the New Moon which apparently there were some other planetary shifts having to do with Venus, Mars, and something else… I need to look it up, but that night (which was the night before I got my period too), I was a MONSTER! It was so confusing Charlotte! I was definitely in my pain body and lunar body but it felt like maybe Paul was in some sort of weird place too and I made it my pain body mission to draw him out and it was an awful battle (started at dusk and went until maybe 11). That day I found myself praying for him lots - trying to do clearings and begging God for help but I was doing it from this LUNAR place … it’s very confusing. I couldn’t access love. I WOULDN’T access love. UGH. It’s haunting me and I know I need to forgive myself but I also need to observe it. But ughhhhh…. That was unpleasant.
We DID reach some understanding that helped us recommit to loving one another and seeing the unbalances we have - specifically with my throat chakra/communication being way too “open” and his being “closed”. And the same goes for our sexual centers… his are too “open” with mine being too “closed”… so I don’t know. Lots to learn.
Supplement-wise … I guess I’ll just go through them again and make you a list. I would like to stop taking ALL OF THEM and try to get what I need from foods. I’m tired of the pills. Is that possible?
AM & PM Sunflower Lecithin - 1200 mg
AM & PM Magnesium Bisgylcinate - 665 mg
AM & PM Ultimate Omega - Nordic Naturals Omega 3 - 1280 mg
AM & PM Paramin (Calcium 200mg, Magnesium 120mg, Boron 500mcg, Vit D 3.325mcg)
AM & PM GB-3 (black radish 130mg, ox bile 112mg, pancreatin 160mg)
AM & PM Zinc 22.5mg
AM & PM Pyridoxal-5-Phosphate 100mg
AM L-Serine 500mg (3x week)
AM CoQ10 200mg
AM L-Histadine 500mg
AM Se-Methyl L-Selenocysteine 200mcg
AM Vitamin D 125mcg
PM Probiotic
PM Methylcobalamin 1,000mcg
PM Vitamin K2 - MK-4 & MK-7
PM Liposomal Vitamin C - 1400mg
PM N-Acetyl Glucosamine - 700mg (2 on Saturday & Sunday)
PM Vitamin Code Raw Multi Vitamin
PM Taurine 500mg
Homeopathy - I take a EMF Combo and Adrenilinium daily
I hope that helps!
I hope YOU are doing okay. Crazy energies. Oh, SUCH CHALLENGING physical symptoms this year! There were many days I thought I was going to die. Another opportunity to surrender to it. I have so much going on all the levels and things are shifting quickly so I’m really only tapped in to what has been going on the last week….and this is not all inclusive because I forget.
Gosh this is long!
Have a great weekend and we’ll talk soon!
VERY VERY VERY MUCH LOVE and APPRECIATION!!
Love,
Carissa
I am very much looking forward to our session on Monday! I pray you are feeling strong and rooted and watching the show unfold from a place of peace and neutrality.
My intention for our session is to gain some course-correction in terms of any physical support I need for my body as well as healing and fortification of my lightbody.
I feel like I’ve been in the trenches and I need help. I have lost ground in terms of lunar forces coming against (and frankly, through, me). In the last month I’ve found myself being a dark portal again and given much power back to my negative ego.
I think my “main thing” is Paul and fighting off the anti-HG splitter tech. I think I am supposed to be embodying and holding my personal HG union and light of Christ-Sophia so that he feels safe enough to embody his own. My personal battles with negative ego are causing me to do harm vs. the good that I am meant to do.
Enemy patterning comes up - I’m very adversarial and tend to attack my beloved. I’m demanding, judgement, critical, and controlling. Please don’t fire me or give up on me! I am here to heal this and need you and the Guardians to see that I WANT TO heal this once and for all!
Sexual trauma - I think - relating to to my father - is coming up for healing in dream state especially. Possibly holographic inserts though?
Things have been worse… but I also think I’ve been given a ton of support… I just am not as solid - not sticking to diet, meditation (the one during the day has been sent to the back burner often though I do my morning and evening routines and listen to meditations at night). When Paul gets a job (hopefully this week), I think we’ll be able to find our groove and I’ll have more space to get back to these very important matters. It’s just been a period of transition the last couple months.
I feel strongly he is an awakening emerald order brother and it’s confusing because there is so much satanic and luciferian influence (I meannnnn…. His body is tattooed with it and all his social media content and the music he blares…most of it is satanic…. OVERTLY satanic. Which is, interestingly LESS satanic than some of the mainstream satanism hidden in plain sight. It’s confusing though.
He needs help with his body too and I suggested he see you for some nutrition and homeopathic support - sounds like you emailed him back but I hadn’t heard anything since then.
I feel VERY affected by the earth again - the, I guess it’s magnetic, shift at dusk each day seems to bring in something that triggers anxiety and discomfort. I just realized that it COULD be LIGHT coming in… it COULD BE like how in the fall and during Ophicus I feel the worst but it’s the void that allows density to shift and new energies to come in. I don’t know… but dusk, and I feel the weather fronts are affecting me again too. You gave me a homeopathic treatment last year that helped with that.
Poop-wise, I’m doing okay… I started taking a ton of probiotics because I ended up taking antibiotics (which I don’t do lightly…but I was in so much pain in my head - you and I talked about it during my last session…and it turns out I had a significant sinus infection and ear infections… I had been trying all the natural remedies but nothing helped and one day I woke up and felt that I should ask my pendulum if I should go to the urgent care and it said yes. It was a whole spiritual process of working with that … taking antibiotics. It ended up throwing my candida a party so I’ve been taking lots of probiotics which really helped my poop situation. I don’t always poop because I’ve been doing the coffee enemas daily again (and they cause me to have that broken up poop)… but I did note that I wanted to tell you that I HAD great poop for a while. I’ll pay attention from now until our session in case there are follow up questions.
Dreams - yes, I’ve had a couple about my Dad. Last night I had one where I was in a bed with my Dad and two sisters. I was sitting at the foot of the bed and my Dad was on the left side with my sister Corie in the middle and my sister Page on the right. I scribbled in my journal:
"…Dad confessing and having hard time with …Corie got it out of him by questioning him…something about being attracted to his daughter. And I was trying to chime in (in my egoic “I know the answer” way that everyone resists)…I wanted to tell him about Nephilim and DNA / Sexual misery program etc. I think. My Mom was then sitting on the bed and when they didn’t want to hear but I mumbled something about a curse, she heard and saw me and she already knew. Her eyes were bright. Just now thinking back it reminded me of Lisa Renee somehow. The dream continued and I was - we were- working toward healing and disclosure. Something about a steak - probably unrelated. I wanted to tell my Dad I felt it too - it wasn’t just him. He wasn’t evil. Guilt is the trap. We have to - get to -must see it. See what’s going on. Thank you God. I don’t know if Dad did anything with his thoughts or if the thoughts were enough to damage us all but I choose forgiveness and healing and want everyone to, please.” 4:11/4
Emotions: I’m all over the place. Really disconcerting as I had found a peace but when I came into union with Paul I’ve gone backwards. BUT I think I had just been working on my own inner HG and now we’re working with a new layer in the external HG union. Definitely in wing-land now! This morning I wrenched my left shoulder and neck and it’s so stiff. But I’ve had a ton of pain in my left front shoulder for the past few weeks - l wrote some notes a couple days ago to share with you about what’s been going on physically. It’s always changing.
Here’s what I wrote:
Left thumb pain …both at one point but left has continued
Left shoulder - squeezing, radiating and throbbing - thought I was having heart attack a couple days. This was coupled with anxiety for a few days - strong fear - had some good cries moving density
Pains in left rib and left abdomen
Each of my ankles collapsed one one day, the other the other
A little dizziness, headache, sinus, and week-long cold
Vagina itching and discharge (liquidy - not yeasty, but feels like yeast infection would - itchy - tried using yeast infection insert last month. This month I tried boron suppository capsules.)
Felt that shard in my left chest center heart a handful of times this month
DARK MOTHER - LUNAR - DARK PORTAL - CONTROL TANTRUMS - FEAR, impulsivity, emotionality, confusion
On the eve of the New Moon which apparently there were some other planetary shifts having to do with Venus, Mars, and something else… I need to look it up, but that night (which was the night before I got my period too), I was a MONSTER! It was so confusing Charlotte! I was definitely in my pain body and lunar body but it felt like maybe Paul was in some sort of weird place too and I made it my pain body mission to draw him out and it was an awful battle (started at dusk and went until maybe 11). That day I found myself praying for him lots - trying to do clearings and begging God for help but I was doing it from this LUNAR place … it’s very confusing. I couldn’t access love. I WOULDN’T access love. UGH. It’s haunting me and I know I need to forgive myself but I also need to observe it. But ughhhhh…. That was unpleasant.
We DID reach some understanding that helped us recommit to loving one another and seeing the unbalances we have - specifically with my throat chakra/communication being way too “open” and his being “closed”. And the same goes for our sexual centers… his are too “open” with mine being too “closed”… so I don’t know. Lots to learn.
Supplement-wise … I guess I’ll just go through them again and make you a list. I would like to stop taking ALL OF THEM and try to get what I need from foods. I’m tired of the pills. Is that possible?
AM & PM Sunflower Lecithin - 1200 mg
AM & PM Magnesium Bisgylcinate - 665 mg
AM & PM Ultimate Omega - Nordic Naturals Omega 3 - 1280 mg
AM & PM Paramin (Calcium 200mg, Magnesium 120mg, Boron 500mcg, Vit D 3.325mcg)
AM & PM GB-3 (black radish 130mg, ox bile 112mg, pancreatin 160mg)
AM & PM Zinc 22.5mg
AM & PM Pyridoxal-5-Phosphate 100mg
AM L-Serine 500mg (3x week)
AM CoQ10 200mg
AM L-Histadine 500mg
AM Se-Methyl L-Selenocysteine 200mcg
AM Vitamin D 125mcg
PM Probiotic
PM Methylcobalamin 1,000mcg
PM Vitamin K2 - MK-4 & MK-7
PM Liposomal Vitamin C - 1400mg
PM N-Acetyl Glucosamine - 700mg (2 on Saturday & Sunday)
PM Vitamin Code Raw Multi Vitamin
PM Taurine 500mg
Homeopathy - I take a EMF Combo and Adrenilinium daily
I hope that helps!
I hope YOU are doing okay. Crazy energies. Oh, SUCH CHALLENGING physical symptoms this year! There were many days I thought I was going to die. Another opportunity to surrender to it. I have so much going on all the levels and things are shifting quickly so I’m really only tapped in to what has been going on the last week….and this is not all inclusive because I forget.
Gosh this is long!
Have a great weekend and we’ll talk soon!
VERY VERY VERY MUCH LOVE and APPRECIATION!!
Love,
Carissa
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