Perfect reminder that nothing is wasted and things aren't as they seem.
AG Pick today: https://ascensionglossary.com/index.php/Carnac
Feeling like this is related to Paul especially. Things are very challenging. Lots of possession in both of us. Tomorrow he may get offered a job...we've waited 3 months - 3 months of feeling into our relationship and there have been some very beautiful revelations as well as some dark and challenging ones. It's been hard and I wish I handled it better. I wish I were above all the mess but I guess I have to come down into it to rescue my own soul. I wanted to say his too but that's the "hero/savior" mentality which has really been driving my commitment. "Rescuing my divine beloved who is a fallen angelic of the Emerald Order who is ripe now to return to sanity, health, wholeness...etc. But instead I've fallen deeper into the pit myself. It's very confusing.
I DO feel that God is with me though... lots of support and I know when Paul goes to work it will allow me to have more time to clean up our Krystal Cathedral and for me to fortify my own energetic architecture and shield.
Suggested for Today: Boundary Test
From within your 12D Shield, see, feel, sense, imagine the three frequencies of "I am God, I am Sovereign, I am Free" (GSF) encrypted into your 12D Shield; or envision or imagine the GSF Three Fold Flame encrypted into your 12D shield; or imagine the words "I am God, I am Sovereign, I am Free" written on the inner screen of your forehead.
When approached by entities, use this GSF triad of frequencies to boundary test whether they are resonant with the GSF frequency by either stating, "I am God, I am Sovereign, I am Free," out loud or just focusing on your GSFencrypted 12D Shield.
A negative entity will be disarmed or refused access to your nervous system when you are obeying the Law of Intent and the Law of Consent.
Commanding Your Space
At bedtime: Boundary test by pushing the pale silver while light (Aurora rainbow current later on) out of heart and expanding shield to fit the room you’re in as you picture I am GSF on your body (me: I also picture it written everywhere and on everything in the room after I expand my shield) If you notice things stepping out of the field and then trying to gain entry back around the periphery of your space you can reinforce your set space firmly by stating "No manipulation here, I am God, I am Sovereign, I am Free. I command this space in the sanctity which is ONLY God in exchange with the Eternal Living Consciousness of Christ.
Today's "suggested for today" was a direct answer to what I was venting to Misha about which is feeling ...wondering... what was going on with the Ghost songs (satanic in nature) that play over and over and over in my head all night. Sleep has been fitful as well.... I wondered if it was trying to keep me from my dreamwalking or if it was part of the work there. I don't know. But I DO know that I can strengthen myself and protect myself by really committing to my shield and to God. To seeing myself safe and unaffected by the dark energy. I AM A COMPASSIONATE WITNESS. I came to learn about it and potentially reverse engineer it. All of the stuff that is coming up with Paul and I... from addiction programs, to sexual misery programs, to misogyny and patriarchal domination, to selfishness and self-centered living, vampirism, narcissism, and manipulation. There is SO MUCH! And it's in me too which is why I recognize it! It's a gift to see it because then I can take it to God and work to clear my negative ego. This is my work. It's time to clear this sucker in earnest. I don't do as good a job when I'm not nourished well and when I haven't slept.
I'm tired of being used. But I can't try to stop or control anyone else. I have to let Paul do whatever he feels led to do and I'm responsible for MY response. I have been trying to show him things... tell... (teach, you see?) him things... this is the "being the holy spirit"... I can't do that. That's not my roll and it has the opposite effect.
I have to love everyone. Even the pedophiles... I mean...that's not nice and it probably isn't exactly true, but it is true. One of our friends is sickly in love with a child. What can I do about it? I want the friend to know that they are loved but I don't want to encourage that behavior. So I have to watch it. Why am I here God? Have I done something wrong?
It's my vibration. What will my vibration be? LOVE? That's what I want. But Paul just eats it. Let him. And generate more. BE LOVE NOW. This is my job.
I'm being groomed to be an Archon...come back to the dark side.... NAA for life. NO WAY!! I don't want to be a Negative! I am a CHILD OF GOD! I AM GOD SOVEREIGN FREE! I AM KRYSTIC! I AM CHRIST-SOPHIA! Thank you GOD.
So.... things will change when Paul goes to work. Let him do him. "Do me and let Paul be."
I feel like we're on a rollercoaster...some days it's easy and some days it's not. Does it depend on Paul's mood? Both of our moods? Maybe we are both co-dependant? I definitely am. When he's not happy (like today), then I don't feel I can be happy. But now I am choosing to be happy anyway!
The snarls of confusion like last night 2 1/4 hours of I have no idea what kind of discussion that was - it went round and round. I should choose not to speak. I knew he wanted a blowjob and if we went to bed without it, it would not be good - he'd radiate that passive-aggresive ugly energy .... like the dark fumes coming off a demon. Hmmm. That's what it is.
So this makes me think I need to get out ... but I'm on the verge of maybe finding peace and happiness if he gets a good job and feels good about himself and gets confident and wants to take care of a family.... maybe it could be good. He WAS turning his life around last year.... he could continue. Right now he's stuck in gluttony and laziness. Not scripting. Playing solitaire all day the last couple days. It's sad.
He's desperate to spend money because he thinks that will make him feel better.
He owes me for my tax return and for the extra money he spent on shipping because he didn't do what he said he was going to do. So if he pays me the $4000 he owes...probably closer to $5K, but I'd be okay with the $4K, then I wouldn't feel completely ripped off and we will have had a good run... a learning experience.
Is this one of the Ai versions of my true beloved? Or is it him? Seems like we have the same architecture and like we are both supposed to be healing it. I have to honor his own choice and path and that which he wanted to experience.
I just want joy. Peace. Love. Kindness. How can I get it? It comes from within me. "Do me and let Paul be."
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