Tomorrow (Today)

It's tomorrow now... 3/2

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Kelsey's wisdom = work on my own Father/masculine healing.

Get quiet. Go within.

Grasping at others to love me the way I want to love myself... 

Fear of being alone. Limiting myself.

Have conversations... not imagining... not wishing and wanting and fantastical thinking.

I think I need to be single for a while. I have been feeling that coming in. Work on loving and healing myself. I've been opening my sexual energy with obsidian and AM working with 2D/4D split. I am having sacral energies in relation to Ryan ... as well as warm heart. But I need to foster the friendship and learn to take care of me. 

I don't want to be with a smoker. 

I'm not fond of the jab, but I don't feel like that is something we can't overcome. I think we can do clearings and heal his body. But if he keeps hurting his body...smoking... it isn't the right energy.

But I love his heart. And we communicate well. We talked from 9:30-5:30 straight.... what is that? 8 hours!! ...and he said he would build ME a house if I wanted one (he wouldn't have done it for himself)... and he tried to open my door and pay for our meal and the way he talks to me... honestly and sweetly feels so nice. I feel like he would take care of me. But he is also a homebody and I want to travel some when I can. 

God, please lead.

But I DO need to be single. And love myself. Learn to be MY OWN container. Learn to FOLLOW mySELF. Be my OWN "Banks".