Journal Post

I want to document what I'm learning but I don't want to put it in the ES community every time and I don't want to limit myself... what is this? Why? What's the ego motivation behind my action and inaction here?

I ended up just posting on there... here's what I posted:

Today's journal post:

I relate quite strongly to what I’m learning this month about the Amethyst Order.... I also relate to Indigo and 6D information so I think I must be involved with both. One does need 2 wings to fly, afterall, and I suspect it must be the balance that we are looking for in all the different layers… whatever the lower level is called - I forgot right now - I’ll call it earth level… maybe atomic level? (I looked it up, it’s Personality Matrix ). Anyway, then soul level, and monad level and then avatar… but doesn’t the avatar incorporate ALL the levels so now do we need a new name for the 13D-15D and what is the 16D-18D level called?

… and still…I think this three-fold flame radiates all the way up through all the dimensional doorways… if that’s what they are called, these sections of three… 1D-2D-3D, 4D-5D-6D, 7D-8D-9D, 10D-11D-12D, 13D-14D-15D, 16D-17D-18D, 19D-20D-21D, 22D-23D-24D…. I just wanted to get to that one…23D. I think that’s the Christos-Sophia, heirosgamos union, field, whatever it’s called that I’m ultimately supposed to be integrating…I just have to work through all these lower levels first.

22D - mother principle
23D - united christos-sophia
24D - father principle

I’m just trying to put it together. Anyway…

From the newsletter here are a couple more pieces I relate to. I relate to SO MUCH of it, frankly. And I want to say how amazing and grateful I am that the scales are being removed from my eyes and heart. For years I read that newsletter knowing that there was truth and life in there for me - I loved it but had no idea what it meant, frankly. Ha! This month I felt like I was able to track with almost all of it - even the grids and people groups. I have so much to learn about all of it, but I feel like progress is definitely being made, thanks be to God!

... many of the Amethyst Order have been appointed to directly rehabilitate and transit the Annunaki Hybrid Fallen Angelics race lines, and to override their artificial timelines that are related to the NAA. “

There we go! There’s the dang Annunaki and fallen angels that I relate to so much. These “people” that I’m healing through my body… this is part of it.

I need more information though because I thought this was part of my Indigo3 contract and this Amethyst Order info seems to be related but different. I guess it goes back to the balance.

Are there wings on each level?

I digress.


And

"The correction of the Flame codes and Amethyst Order fire letters have direct correspondence to the cetacean-whale-porpoise sound code and sonic patterns, and those spiritual families who embody the Holy Father lineages that hold violet sun heart codes. These are diamond crystal hearts linked directly with the Amethyst Order Holy Father principle, that hold special Rod flame codes that transmit their code controls into the earth crystal core and crystal generators. “

SOUND has been a big thing for me, especially these past 4 years I have become so SO sensitive to sound… when my Lightbody is open for etheric surgery through the meditations we are doing, I am like a raw nerve with sounds… my husband in the kitchen moving a plate passes through the closed door and it pierces me deeply. I was like this - raw nerve - for a couple years… 5 or 6 months SOLID in 2016-2017.

Last fall I found myself sitting outside doing what I called “toning”… just making tones with my voice and I found that there were pockets of emotion stored in my energy field that were released through sound. Michael (my husband) said I sounded like Dory trying to talk to whales! Ha! So here we are!! Makes sense now! Hahah!

I am learning love. I’m softening toward creation. This year in particular I’ve really gained a deeper understanding (and it’s still scratching the surface) about how animals (and in my case, especially my close companions/elemental family members) are working on healing the earth too. Also ascending. They are genetic pathcutters too… they have selflessly taken on suffering to support my healing (as well as dis-ease related to their own species). My horse, Sioux, for example, is doing similar work as I am - we have similar makeups. She is a gridworkser and supporting the grid here and I was told she’s also got herds she's connected to in Arizona and Equador. (Someone doesn’t want me to talk about this - psychic attack/head is being shot at and squeezed! It's really hard to keep going through this. I'm trying though.) Sioux wants me to learn to go about my work and life with PEACE. I learn so much from her on many levels.

A couple months ago I started a painting of my horse doing her grid working/anchoring … she has wings … we are beginning to see them too this year … but I’ve been blocked with that painting now and then I messed it up so we’ll see when I get back to it!

My dog, Moses, had a near death experience this year and he chose to come back. He was given deeper understanding about his purpose and chose to come back. It’s really amazing what they know. My horse and dogs and chickens are all part of the whole that WE ARE and we must all be in the Amethyst Order working together. I have been falling deeper in love with nature this year. Not too long ago I was laying on the ground naked kissing the grass, ha! Just sitting with, touching, being with, recognizing, appreciating nature!! I'm just becoming less inhibited to what others think (my core matrix removal is working, slowly but surely) and really embracing nature. As I've said previously, the trees are my teachers, but more than that, all of nature is. Walking barefoot the past 4 or 5 months has been incredible for me and I'm already mourning that I have to go back to shoes. (Today was nice enough to walk barefoot though!)

This morning on our walk I saw a dew-covered spider web with a heart in the middle of it! I knew it was a message from God! I AM LOVED. WE ARE LOVED!!

God and my guidance teams have been SO CLOSE lately. I had a miracle this afternoon - my husband thinks I'm crazy with all the "miracles", but IT'S HAPPENING!! I had a huge download the other day and this part of an old 1970's or 1980's movie called "Nadia" about the Romanian Gymnast (one of my favorite childhood movies) came to my mind. There's a part in it when she says "I can do this on my own!" ... she finally recognized it... she had counted on her coaches her whole life to make her do the things she needed to do - eat right, exercise, set boundaries, etc... but then she steps into her own power and realizes SHE is responsible for her own life. <-- I had a similar revelation when I saw how I was looking for practitioners to help me do my clearing work. I wanted someone else to do the heavy lifting for me, and while there is certainly a time and place and the sessions with Joseph and Agni have supported me more than words can say, I ALSO have to realize that it's MY work and I have to do it. I have been given the tools, resources, and community to support my efforts - just THAT is mindblowing! So now I just need to really step into the next level of owning the process for myself.

Anyway, today's miracle was that I wanted to see if there was a video clip of Nadia saying that "I can do it on my own!" and I googled it - nothing. After a second google of something I saw there was a YouTube link for "part 9 of Nadia" and I clicked on there, and then on my second click on the timebar at the bottom I was (miraculously) at the exact point where she said "I can do it on my own!"!! WHOA!! I mean, this was like looking for a needle in 1000 haystacks and there it was for me within a minute of searching! Just amazing! I feel so loved and supported by All that Is! Thanks be to God!

So, that's it.
Always more but I'll hang it up now.
I'm torn because I really don't know whether it's beneficial to put all this babble out here in ESF - but at the same time I'm trying to track my progress and "revelations", so I feel kind of like I should.

I could maybe make a checklist and narrow it down better...but for me I think there are gems hidden in the bulk of this for me to discover later. I've had lots of new revelations that I could tie back and was really grateful that I had shared them because somehow it makes it more real and not just all in my head. So, it is what it is.