Response to Amethyst Order Excerpts

 I was writing my thoughts down for the Amethyst Order Excerpts thread and said:

"This is more like a journal post so I guess I’ll plop it there."

So here it is... plopped:
I have only read the excerpts from the newsletter so far. Usually I inhale the newsletter each month, but this time, after reading the profoundly rich excerpts (which I was very thirsty for), I need some time to process before going on to the full article.

So much in there.

For me what stood out were:

There are many creation timelines in which the Emerald Order Sirius Blue human Maharaji and the Amethyst Order Braharama joined together in unified cooperation to return the hierogamic union template required to heal the Wall in Time, through the spiritual healing of the masculine and feminine principles while embodied in an androgynous Azurite-Oraphim form.

I kinda feel like that’s talking about me. Will let it unfold.

The Keepers of the Blue Flame are sourcing from the original Cosmic Mother spiritual lineages, while the Keepers of the Violet flame are sourcing from the original Cosmic Father lineages.

I don’t know if I could really be sourcing from both though… maybe if I am indigo3 (which I am pretty convinced “that explains it!” Ha!)

Some of the fallen RA consciousness are being routed into an anti-Kristos creation matrix which is not a punishment, but similar to a re-education assignment in learned self-mastery. … Being sent into a complete tri-wave Kristos field creation would be painful and traumatizing for them at this stage of development.

I also wondered if this was about me… I am definitely on an education assignment and self-mastery is a good overarching theme. I can’t tell if I’m in a tri-wave field or not. Sometimes I think I am but that I am just shielded from KNOWING it. I see all those colors sometimes - blues, magenta, yellow…sometimes some and sometimes all. Today lots of yellow. I think so much of my work has to do with the bi-wave/bi-polar field but is it all a mirage? Is it all a mental(spiritual) game where I just need to actually recognize that I AM standing in zero point and I AM (already) WHOLE and COMPLETE, UNITY. ??

And I see how I am aligned so much with this unfolding… this is my story that Lisa is detailing… I don’t mean it in a narcissistic-it’s-all-about-me way, but rather that I’m humbled to be on this journey and it is quite surreal to connect the dots and see myself in them.

My Violet Ray wings have been coming online this year and with it, this desire to connect to animals in a deeper way. I signed up for an animal communication class and I’ve been reading books about it. (Mostly it seems to be just about telepathy, our natural ability, and as I do the clearing work and healing set out before me, it will come more online naturally.) Anyway, a friend sent me this paragraph, thinking it reminded her of me:

Those with the Code of the Violet Sun will have very strong spiritual connection and love for the earth kingdom, they are sensitive to sound, and will feel compelled to do what they can to help heal the earth. When spiritually activated, they will begin to remember the inner Merlin, which will bring to the surface awareness that they can directly communicate with the elementals, fairy and deva spirits that live in nature.

...and it’s so weird that my initial instinct was to say “Nope, not me.”… but if I am honest (which is a learning process and I have layers of confusion and identity correction to work through), I really do connect with this.

#1, In one of my sessions with a multidimensional healer it appeared that I have a long lineage - or group that have been around a long time - of people on the masculine side - ancestral something or other. Regular number of ladies within 7 generations (or something), but millions of years of men (or something). Some really spiritual people too - Native American and shamanic lineage and lots of dark and light workers. When I saw “inner Merlin”, I rebelled against that, but maybe I need to just embrace it, or at least watch. My curriculum this year has included understanding about many forms of magic (black magic and my perception of what “witchcraft” was and what it actually is.)

#2, I’ve always connected more with the masculine side. Last fall I went to that practitioner because I felt like my energy flow was all on my right side like the Hara line was through my 3/6/9 energy centers (on 12-tree grid)… but this year has been so much about correcting that and my feminine side coming online. My left shoulder especially this last month. It’s sending me messages too. I just need to learn how to discern them. This body is a tool… I can learn so much if I learn to listen and clear out all the blockages and keep it clean. (Upon re-reading this I just realized what a MIRACLE it was that I sensed that my energy was shifted to the right last year. I didn’t have this knowledge base, just unanchored HSP… doing the best I could....God (and my avatar self) has been SO GOOD TO ME on this path and I've been a very tough nut to crack, for sure!

#3, I’ve been hearing more for/from animals. In general, in the past 4 or 5 years I’ve really been opening to them and their causes and it’s really hard because I want to close my heart down as there is so much injustice. But I’m learning more about it… they and God and all of you are teaching me. My horse, Sioux, has especially been an important teacher to me. Her overarching lesson and desire is for me to learn PEACE. To be at peace no matter what is going on. My dogs have been my greatest comforts - they also teach me so much about LOVE and devotion and patience and courage - they teach me so much. Even my chickens are my teachers - they have so much personality and of all our animal companions, they are the most "wild" (though not really).

Anyway, I digress (as usual). I'm feeling close to ready to reading the newsletter in full. I've been reading lots and doing meditations (yesterday crux implant and 144 harmonics and today clearing mental body.) Last night negative form removal. The other day alpha omega clearing and gallbladder meridian clearing. Others too, I'm sure, but my point is that I'm pretty inundated and I'm trying to find the balance between using them for clearing and support for what feels like some major energy shifts happening (not very pleasant for me, really), and also not "overdoing it" in case too much attention to spiritual matters is making it worse. It's a balance. Find neutral and hang out there, sweet thing!

I've got to go help Michael unload the hay so I'm piping down. I have so much floating around but this is enough for now.