Goodness

It's 11:44 now. I saw 11,333.11 and 1:11 and 3:33 today too.

Ryan is squishy and soft and kind today. We had a nice gorgefest at Robin's Nest's 30th Anniversary (barf). Tomorrow we'll scratch the 815 Grill itch and then get back to the diet. I feel like a marshmellow. Not good for my body.

We are watching Marvel movies and it's fun.
We had great sexy time tonight... sex and all. 
A dream of a Valentine's Day yesterday.... Ryan surprised me with a dozen roses, teddy bear, chocolates, 2 cards, and a tile framed photo of Moses & Sunny. He also helped with Sioux's new round bale and we had a tout to Durham. We went to Duke Gardens for a brief visit and walked around American Tobacco and ate at Mellow Mushroom and went to the "Durham LoveRaiser" at DPAC (and saw the Paperhand Puppet Intervention's "Where Our Spirits Reside") and got to enjoy the President's Suite. It was really nice. I love adventuring with Ryan.

Today he shared his feelings with me and also had feelings about sharing those feelings. He is softening. When he's kind and we're good...at peace... in unity... I'm content. 

I have a codependency issue though because when he's not at peace, then I'm generally not either. 

But we're at peace now. And I'm tired as all get out and still need a shower and its almost midnight.

I love you Carissa.