Magic

A magical and beautiful day. I woke up with hope and happiness. There were a couple bumps but Ryan and I eventually made it to the Body, Mind, Spirit Celebration and although our massage was cancelled, we had our auras read. It was a very good experience. Ryan's is so beautiful - green and blues. Mine is still red. I have a lot of stress in my body. I need to learn to relax. God sent me an angel named Lyra who helped me find a pendulum friend - bloodstone. And a heart stone... I wanted one to wear. She suggested tigers eye for work and rainbow obsidian for life. Perfect. We just had a really good time. Ryan had some energy work by the Japanese people - I forgot what it was called. He bought us churros to share when we were done and dinner at Red Robin - burgers and fries and mile-high-mud-pie. I was happy to be with him. I'm grateful for this opportunity and call ...

Oh man, I almost forgot - Roland! I tried to force a session with Roland on Ryan but Roland called me out on my pushiness and showed me that Ryan has to want it. It brought up a good conversation about what Roland does - address past wounding, etc. And Ryan shared about wanting to leave sleeping dogs lie (maybe not that term, but maybe). In the end, I had a powerful mini-session and a powerful purge/cry. Roland brought me to my young self (I found myself in Uncle Jim & Aunt Brenda's basement desperately trying to get people to pay attention to me)....and helped me to connect with myself... to go see her and hold her and tell her I loved her and show her I saw her. I got caught up in the mental mind some, but I also had some breakthroughs and crying and Roland helped me a lot. And helped me see how I was pushing Ryan and helped me see how I was looking outside of myself for what I wanted/needed when it's always within. That was the message all the intuitives and speakers and everything kept saying... that is my message... Ryan has been saying it too. I need to hear please!!

STOP LOOKING OUTSIDE OF MYSELF... EVERYTHING COMES FROM WITHIN! (Answers, understanding, love, attention, affection, peace, connection... everything.) So BE with ME.