Gets Easier

I was tempted to go to town to get that ice cream I was thinking about yesterday. Michael was going right near there and I thought I would go. But I didn't in the end. In the end I chose correctly... I chose my body. I chose to make the right decision to CARE FOR my Carissa. To take care of her body. 

I've been heavy, dense, depressed all day and ice cream ... a last hurrah for sugar and dairy... that was going to make me "feel better". << --See the trick? See the lie? It would distract me from my work of processing density and embodying Sophia. All while poisoning (further) my precious body. 

Thank you God. And they say that it will get easier... each correct decision you make... in the correct direction... it gets easier.

I deactivated my Facebook account today too. Tried to do Instagram but couldn't figure it out. I never use it anyway. But Facebook is a life suck and I hadn't done it because Malai and the Ranch were tied to it and I had to do that for "work"... but today I created a new account called Malai Kitchen and will just use that for administrating Malai and Sundance.  BOOM. 

I like staying in touch with people through FB and maybe another time I will go back, but for now, I'm pleased to have taken these steps. And the ice cream (lessness) thing is big. 

I want to be authentic.
I want to stop judging.
I want to live in the now moment with discernment. 
I want to stop wanting and to just LIVE.

Canceling the 8/8 ceremony with Sophia Aurora was big too. Another correct choice... choosing the correct path on the bifurcation. Today I was thinking about how I used to wonder if I could "love the devil so much that he turned back to God". I think that's still what we're doing. Holding space so that those who have given their souls to darkness can choose to return to the Light. 4:33

Lots of numbers today. And birds... this morning I saw two hawks and two vultures. Again this afternoon I was watching more ride the breeze...hawk and vulture. And lots of dragonflies and hummingbirds. The poor dear rabbit that I tried to help last night and that I saw this morning ended up having a heart attack from riding on Robert's mower. :( Rest in peace sweet bunny. He's free now. 

ps. I used "Random.org" to decide if I should go get ice cream or not and chose "1" for yes and "2" for no and it told me YES. Can't trust that stuff. 

6:23 8:23 10:23

The Giver

22:22

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From Kirk:

HEART MIND 

Let's see what God shows me.