Messier 44 is in Cancer
https://ascensionglossary.com/index.php/Cancer
Also this:
This is the dismantling phase from unnecessary substances, energies or objects that have been shifted from the alchemical synthesis of the polarity integration of forces. There is a process of resolving emotional body issues or dissolving into parts or elements in the shifting field of the energetic consciousness.
What a life.
Let Lior be. Unless you have something that will fuel his narcissism right now...he's focused on himself and if you give him something to play with about himself then he might play but you don't want that in your life. You don't want to be this person. Be with YOU now. Leave this person and all persons alone. This is about YOU.
It's August 1st... 8/1. Next Sunday is 8/8. Am I getting in line with my soul?
Is focusing on Lior or Kirk part of aligning with YOUR soul? No. No. You don't push people. You will attract the person that is meant to partner with you. But you are wasting your energy - your mental energy etc on these OTHERS. This is MENTAL constructs that have you focusing on them. And maybe the dream states which could so easily be manipulated and holographically inserted. I do not consent to psychic attack or manipulation.
Be with YOU, then beloved. You said what you needed to say to Lior. Now let him go. You are like a stalker to people, haha. It's not funny. It was a fake "haha".. but it's actually REAL. DO NOT STALK PEOPLE. Mentally or spiritually or anything... just leave them alone. And do those exercises... yes, that's what we need to do, those relationship cord cutting exercises. Okay. Hold on, let me go get the recording...
We are going into Leo: https://ascensionglossary.com/index.php/Leo
Feels important for 8/8. We are closing out old energy patterns... all of this with all the boys... Lior, Jeff, Gabriel, and Kirk are all part of sweeping out old stuff. Lior has so much to do with closing out Tyrone. Now let it go. That was a soul matrix partner and there were lessons in it and continue to be... but we are closing out all of them... along with life review... we closed Joe. Jeff was a childhood dream and we had to close that. Gabe and Kirk are related to my true partner and also healing old wounding from guru/disciple from past lives. Maybe that's just Gabe. Maybe Kirk has to do with experiencing a bit of the ... both of them actually... a mirror of my own Twilight Master stuff and healing. Mirror Neurons. I know you tell me to look that up all the time and I keep putting it off. Okay. Doing it now.
https://ascensionglossary.com/index.php/Mirror_Neurons
Yeah, definitely related to Kirk. We are mirror neurons to each other in a way. We have been. 15:15 I saw a vulture today too...also a shared trait/friend. Also our gender splitting behaviors, etc...homosexuality, sexual misery programming, etc. We're sibs. I'm sibs with Gabe too. These aren't people I'm closing out with, necessarily. But the old ones ARE... sionara Joe, Tyrone, and even Jeff ... I can only be with an awakening person.
But am I supposed to ... WHAT? SAVE Lior? Ha! Look! No. NO. Leave that boy alone. You will GET IN THE WAY. Just come back into your own heart and twirl with yourself, beloved. We need to heal this "boy crazy" mentality. This idea that a man will complete you... that a man loving you will complete you. MICHAEL loves you and it doesn't complete you. Only YOU LOVING YOU will complete you. I know it's fun...it's part of the addiction matrix, but you don't want any part of that anymore either.
Yes, and you probably need to do as Lisa does and have ZERO sugar or fruit.
Well. Let's do at least one of these exercises. 3:21 3:22
Is there any human or circumstance that I need to forgive or resolve?
Myself. For being so spongy. For being so needy. I wanted my parents attention so bad. I wanted people to see me and like me so bad.
I AM MY PARENT NOW.
Okay... let's do Tyrone... this was the biggest mess. It was my HG partner and mission failure from this life and probably others.
List all of my resentments toward that person or circumstance.
I resent that he wasn't there for me when I needed him. That he took and took from me. That he used me. That he wasn't stronger. That he let me fall. That he blew me up and left me.
List all of my regrets toward that person or circumstance.
That I fell into ego and control and that I was an energy vampire (desperate for his love to feed me to make me feel whole. I hadn't healed myself yet so I couldn't be a good partner. I need to be whole, teleios, complete within myself first. I'm not even that way yet... working on it. Closer than before but not there yet. This is why my beloved cannot come yet. God won't let me blow up another partner. And that makes me think that Tyrone maybe wasn't even my HG partner... he maybe had some pieces of him ... holographic inserts... but Misha may be right about that "powerful" energy signature being more Thothian...Luciferian. Is that what love feels like? I think it might have been a reversal. We're so upside down and inside out here on earth. And he was only looking for someone to save him and give him a life... he had tapped into the "magic" of God but he just wanted to ride the wave... take his pills that made him feel high and smoke cigarettes and have someone take care of everything for him... that was the life. Until I started feeling that HE was sucking ME dry. So maybe he was an energy vampire too. Was he empathic? I think so. I think very much so. I think he is a starseed and gifted being and a member of my monadic family or my TRUE divine partner's monad, but he is...was... still stuck in his flesh too. He was not balanced and loving as he should be. He just sucked the power down. And there were so many reversals and distortions.
My LOVE was a distortion. It was based on lies and trickery and deceit. I was a psychic sponge and was taking on his fallen architecture. This is what I did with Joe too... I took on my lovers' architecture. And maybe that has helped me with Michael... but I also think I was too saturated with Tyrone's distortions that I couldn't shapeshift into a Michael. But maybe. I DO know his field helped me to begin healing from the reversals that I put on with Tyrone. I need to be so so careful. Only interact with those who are healthy... or shield the crap out of myself when I have to spend much time with others.
I want to repair and strengthen my own GOD structure... my 12D blueprint. I want to be true and loving and aligned. Let all those others go. I see you. You had that great interaction with Kirk and now you want to sponge him. NO SPONGING ANYONE!!!
Find your own strength. This IS shadow-work. Find your OWN will and power and drive and do what you do for YOU.
Even that trip to Pennsylvania which you think was because you were so pious and good... much of it was because you wanted to be loved by Mark Stefanik ... and you almost manifested that but you weren't willing to give up Rue, thanks be to God and Rue.
It's always boys. That's your ... one of your weaknesses. Wanting to be loved. It's the primordial separation from your beloved and your desire to be one with them. You tried so hard with Joe to make that your perfect idea of what you should be... you worked and surrendered so hard, beloved. Now poor Michael is doing the same.. sort of...he has taken such good care of you, but you have taken it for granted (or in sickness just allowed it to be done, faded into laziness.)
It's YOU. YOUR LOVE. YOUR BEING that you need to live with and for and everything else will unfold. And maybe that means you don't get to have a partner here in this life. You've had many...but none of them were HIM.
You have Moses and Rue...they are your divine companions... and so much love from all the elementals. And so much support with friends and ES... and a VERY EXCITING time. Let that be enough.
Write all unsaid or undelivered messages toward that person or circumstance.
I think I did... God gave me the opportunity to do that through FB messenger. Whether he saw them or not. I wrote them. Asked for forgiveness and told him about ES. Told him I loved him and wanted him back. (then)
Communicate all the things I wanted to acknowledge that person for but I did not.
I acknowledge him for his faith in leaving. Strength in not killing me. And for the incredible strength it is going to take for him to pull himself out of the pit. But he'll do it. He's strong.
THEN I went to FB for something and promptly talked to Lior on a post. STOP. Leave that boy alone. He had a 222 and an 88 on his post.
Again, HE has to do the work to heal himself. I just have a hunch that I am able to connect to and pray through to Israel through him and can learn so much if I could be friends with him, but he has to want that and if I'm crazy, he's not going to want to.
CORD CUTTING TECHNIQUE.
I'm going to read about it in a second but I know I'm being called through the Luciferian Abyss. Mirror Neurons. Empathy.
Open Your Heart
I allow myself to feel the full range of emotions, especially all the forms of love.
This is a card with a very important message for you: spend less time thinking and analyzing, and more time feeling and experiencing. Mother Mary asks you to open your heart more. She realizes that you may have some fears about being emotionally hurt, and she offers to comfort, support, and guide you.
Of all the components of your spiritual path, opening yourself up to experiencing love is the most essential. Make the conscious choice to risk being hurt and drop your emotional defenses. Be vulnerable and real, and allow others to get to know the true you. Mother Mary and Archangel Michael act as your shield so that you can be open and protected simultaneously.
Okay. That's a good one.
To do:
Spend more time with rock friends...get to know them.
I've been getting number 43 a lot too. It's 10:42 which is NOT 43, but it made me think of it. I think that has to do with my age. And reminding me that I'm coming up on 44. I've made an awfully big deal of 44. Hope I can live up to it! 10:43
Time to start winding down... at least away from the computer and devices.
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