Alice In Wonderland

1:23 13:23 2:11 2:22 and 4:44 today. 2D/4D split, building a bridge over the Luciferian Abyss.
Michael left for Chicago. 
Inner Solar Star. 
Ascension symptoms. Burning brain (left), left lung or spleen crux implant (REMOVAL?!), solar plexus heart pain.

17:33

I really do like Kirk....love him. It's confusing because he's like a little brother, a little gay brother, but also wise sage and also a form of "genetic equal" so now and then I can feel that in him and of course I talk to him most days and work with him most nights. But it's not like I'm attracted to him, except he's a boy so that activates my "boy suck"... where I want the boy to like me. An opportunity and blessing to practice being friends with boys. 

I've been freed from all the rest.... except they are all back in a way. Had to send an article to Gabe today via text. Had a dream about Jeff today and texted him back and forth a little. Logged back into FB messenger and chatted a little with Lior about his broken heart. He only wants to whine...which I get...his heart is broken but he's in ego (which I know because I am too) trying to get his wife back. Not really awakened to talking about spiritual matters. And of course Kirk. And Michael. These are my boys. I'm SURROUNDED by boys! Thank you God. But best of all was MOSES meditating with me. My partner for now. 

5:44

I look forward to the time when my human partner and I can lay together and meditate together holding hands or maybe even joined. God, please provide a partner who is interested, even more interested and passionate about you than me! One who wants to grow and heal and love together.

6:06 And that Hummingbird Wellness shaman lady zoom meeting was terrible. I had to leave after a couple minutes. Did not jive with that energy. Thank you God for her not acknowledging me. Otherwise I would have felt I had to stay. 

Nahko is my brother shaman - supporting my inner shaman. My inner indigenous connection. 18:08/10 18:10/10

GARDEN - Nahko. I never heard this before. It's good.

Great talk with Jeff. God I love him! God, please help him. 

8:44

9:54/10

Jeff is a distraction to take me away from my work. But he loves nature and is my beloved friend... but so broken but we can help eachother but I can't save him. ARGH. God's will be done. 

10:10

So much fun talking to boys. Stop it. 

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THIS is what I'm being taunted with by interacting with Kirk. 
https://ascensionglossary.com/index.php/Alice_in_Wonderland_Tactic

Come back to ME.

This is a beautiful time to meditate, rest, enjoy nature and animals and allow God to infuse me with the spirit of Sophia. I burped a lot of density out today, BM. Let that go. Rest. Eat Pray Love. Really actually. This is a beautiful time. Don't waste it on Kirk's madness. He's the Mad Hatter and the Cheshire Cat and the Queen of Hearts all wrapped up in one... he's the whole Alice in Wonderland staff. Don't follow him to fracture-ville. 

Thank you God!

11:23

Post in the ESF forum on the Alice in Wonderland thread:

Super duper needed this today, thank you! I see how it definitely pertains to the madness we are watching unfold in the outerscape. Today I had a conversation with a dear friend who is very gung-ho about the controller's agenda (celebrating his vax pass, etc.). But I've also been feeling this with some in the starseed community. God sent this message to help me with one situation in particular as I've been watching myself get sucked into someone else's fractured reality, and liking it! I started interacting with this person out of curiosity, educational pursuit, and as a form of service but then got kind of "hooked" on the energy signature... feels like addiction webbing... I even started mirroring it some... and playing with it, toying with it. This is someone else's energy field (seems to have Luciferian or Thothian infiltration) and there are also some psychic attacks being waged through it to try to create confusion and splitting of my own consciousness.

The confusion technique is designed not only to obliterate the familiar but to replace it with the weird and nonsensical, normalizing lunatic behaviors and states of madness portrayed as sane.

But this bump is perfectly timed. I heard someone say "Alice in Wonderland" yesterday (or the day before?) in a meditation or talk that pricked my consciousness... setting me up for this very information today, thanks be to God! I was literally JUST interacting with it before I got here to the fourm and just saying (to that person, in fact) that I feel like I'm walking on the edge of a cliff. I didn't say that I thought that he would like to see me fall off the precipice, but I thought it and now I see the agenda and dark portal!

So interesting to feel into it...  this person and energy feels like a mixture of many of the Alice in Wonderland characters - especially the Cheshire Cat, Mad Hatter, and Queen of Hearts - all rolled into one... and my addiction receptors like the hit of excitement from interacting with it. There's mental stimulation for the ego-mind to "figure this out", "follow the breadcrumbs", "collect the puzzle pieces". That on top of a sort of excitement that builds from interacting with that kind of excited mind, physically though, you know? It is addictive. Hm. Wow. Thank you for helping me observe this. 

Thanks for yet another life-saver rope! 
 

Love,
Carissa

11:54. 12:12  12:13

Yeah, I want/need an awakened partner. One who is passionate about God and this mission. Jeff won't cut it. I'll just love him. And no, I don't want to have fun with him or whatever he said... that's not on the table. I am saving myself for my divine partner... I have been working to clear my heart and vagina out (Dr. Wilson hydrogen peroxide procedure to reclaim my virginity)... I do not need to throw all that away on Yeff. No matter how much I love him!

Just reel yourself in from the boys, dear one. You don't need to reach out to any of them. There are none in your life who are "good for you" sans Michael and he and you are working from a different level... as friends and it's working much better at helping you both ascend and grow. So just HANG ON! (Thinking of the Needtobreathe song.)