BE

I don't want to look outside of myself for answers.
I dont want to give my power away.
I want to meditate.
I want to love myself sufficiently.

I want to take care of myself sufficiently so that I have bandwidth to try to be lovely... to be pretty... to be charming...to call and check on others... to love on others... to do the things that I do do well....to take care of my home and animals... to be a good girlfriend... to be patient and loving and pray for Ryan (even though he doesn't want me to... but to be solid and loving and faithful and unwavering.
I want to be genuinely grateful instead of playing it on TV (faking it).
I want to BE.