The Fast: Day 13

LOVING it!!!!

My breath is still kinda bad, but getting better. My body is feeling great- healthy. I'm walking and working out when I can. (<;-- I am still struggling with trying to keep my focus OFF weight loss and ON God and His Temple.)

I am hungry now and then, but I realize that that means that I need to eat some scriptures. When I open my mouth to the Lord, He fills my heart with good things (Ps 81:10)....

Yesterday I took communion- it was a wonderful experience- I feel very "in the Spirit" - but I think the matzo cracker may have started my digestive system again (or whatever) and left me hungrier than I should have been. I also spent the day at a "Talent for Christ" audition and didn't feel like it was a very holy use of my time, but hopefully it sent a message to my sisters-in-Christ that I was supporting. I know God had His way.

So far the biggest revelation has been that God wants me to work on pulling together resources to equip a new church plant in Uganda in July. (He is ministering to a pastor there right now and will reveal who He is when we get there.)

I have also had some very personal revelations, including my need to continue to focus on GOD alone and not worry about a spouse.... indeed, that it may be better for me NOT TO have a spouse at all because it is akin to how Israel demanded a King (1 Samuel 8) and look what happened....

"When that day comes, you will beg for relief from this king you are demanding, but then LORD will not help you." But the people refused to listen to Samuel's warning. "Even so, we still want a king." they said. "We want to be like the nations around us. Our king will judge us and lead us into battle."  (v.18-20)

I need to just remain close to God and if it is HIS WILL for HIS GLORY, then I would be happy to partner with a husband who loves God as much or more than I do and wants to lay down His life for the sake of the Gospel. If, however, I would just be heaping responsibilities and distractions upon myself, I am dependent on the Lord to save me from my own desires.

He keeps telling me to WAIT. So I must wait. (And STOP pursuing the poor man that I feel a spiritual connection with. God had something to do there, but it's not for me to try to understand or control. Just rest in Him (and live a life of RESPONSE.)

Another huge revelation for me is the tenth commandment (Deut 5:21): Thou shall not covet anything that belongs to your neighbor....  thou shall not covet.  COVET = DESIRE. Thou shall not DESIRE things that belong to others...

I SHOULD covet/desire GOD... pursue God...nothing more.

Thou shalt not desire. whooooooh....

Gotta grab a shower.... <3