The Fast: Day 24

 Psalm 91 
¹ Those who live in the shelter of the Most High
      will find rest in the shadow of the Almighty.
 ² This I declare about the Lord:
   He alone is my refuge, my place of safety;
      he is my God, and I trust him.
 ³ For he will rescue you from every trap
      and protect you from deadly disease.
 ⁴ He will cover you with his feathers.
      He will shelter you with his wings.
      His faithful promises are your armor and protection.
 ⁵ Do not be afraid of the terrors of the night,
      nor the arrow that flies in the day.
 ⁶ Do not dread the disease that stalks in darkness,
      nor the disaster that strikes at midday.
 ⁷ Though a thousand fall at your side,
      though ten thousand are dying around you,
      these evils will not touch you.
 ⁸ Just open your eyes,
      and see how the wicked are punished.
 ⁹ If you make the Lord your refuge,
      if you make the Most High your shelter,
 ¹⁰ no evil will conquer you;
      no plague will come near your home.
 ¹¹ For he will order his angels
      to protect you wherever you go.
 ¹² They will hold you up with their hands
      so you won’t even hurt your foot on a stone.
 ¹³ You will trample upon lions and cobras;
      you will crush fierce lions and serpents under your feet!
 ¹⁴ The Lord says, “I will rescue those who love me.
      I will protect those who trust in my name.
 ¹⁵ When they call on me, I will answer;
      I will be with them in trouble.
      I will rescue and honor them.
 ¹⁶ I will reward them with a long life
      and give them my salvation.”

I've been involved in some really serious and scary spiritual attack(s) for the past few days... I have been experiencing some heavy-duty anxiety and FEAR. It was worst at night...something about the darkness made it worse...I would be up talking to God for a good hour before I could sleep.  At one point I even considered going home (NOT abandoning the fast, but getting home to be around other believers). It was baaaaaaad.

I had a few prayer warriors but my number one (my BFF/accountability partner) was slightly off her rocker and making it WORSE! In her defense, she thought she was helping me by trying to convince me to abort my fast (which the Lord put on my heart to do). She thought that her feelings of imminent doom (i.e. God woke her up to pray, etc.) were because I was going to DIE... but that is NOT of the Lord. Hm. Actually, it's possible that He wanted her to warn me to stop that "Master Cleanse" thing, buuuuuut, I've been thinking about it today and even though I was weak- I was spiritually very open and God was teaching me things. When Satan brought that darn FEAR around (and confirmed it through her), I panicked to the point of aborting the heavy-duty fast. I guess it's okay... I am still having a lovely time and still learning... and I'll just do a water fast next time (in Raleigh, surrounded by people who can call 911 if I have a problem! Aaaand if I DO die, then someone will be around to feed little Rue! ha!)!  It's better now though so hopefully my sweet friend can sense (and continue adding to) the prayer cover that the Lord has sent me...

Last night God (first) and (then) I called on the saints (my friends/facebook friends) to PRAY for protection....and it WORKED!!! I have felt SO MUCH BETTER since then!!!

I might have mentioned before how I have been "casting out" evil when I feel overwhelmed and empowered to do so- I need more FAITH to do that though. I sense a hesitation in myself when I do it. My sweet friend, Alicia, sent me a ton of great resources today about casting out demons. My friends Ed and Beverly also encouraged me and are before the Throne on my behalf. My friend, Mark, reminded me of 1 John 4:18 (perfect love casts out all fear) and 1 Cor 10:13 (God won't give us more than we can handle).

Satan's minions are TRICKY and they were (are?) using every tactic they can to instill a sense of FEAR in me. They want me to be paralyzed...they want me to stop seeking God....to look at them instead of my SAVIOR. They want me to QUIT the fast...they want me to be distracted...and I think they REALLY want me to stop reading this BOOK.

Some their little attempts are temporarily working, but I REBUKE IT/THEM NOW!!!! No FEAR!!!! Just GOD!

The Lord is teaching me such AWESOME things about how to walk in the Spirit! He is also giving me great rest! And today Rue and I ventured out on a little 15-20 minute walk in the woods! (I'm trying to really take it easy... I FEEL fine now but I don't want to overdo it...JUST IN CASE!) :)

Here's a peek of my juices from the other day (some are gone now- :)). I found out that I don't love carrot juice AFTER I bought TWO bottles of it- ICK!! Tonight I mixed some pomegranate juice in with the carrot and it made it taste better, but I don't think we are supposed to mix fruit and vegetable juices. Oh well! :)

Oh, it's SOOOOO BEAUTIFUL HERE!! I ESPECIALLY love the CLOUDS!! They remind me so much of God.... of His Majesty.... His Transcendence... His LIGHT... His POWER... His KINGDOM!! (I'm getting fired up just thinking about it!) :)

*joy!*

(I love how the tone of this blog transitioned from fear to joy!! That's the Lord's work, brothers and sisters!!! Amen?! :))

Note: I had a moment today that I wanted to EAT something... chew on something.... (and it doesn't help that my dog smells SO GOOD- just like her new food! I switched her food because they didn't have her dog food up here and her new food is made of lamb, barley, brown rice, oatmeal, sweet potato, blueberries and spinach! RIGHT UP MY ALLEY!!) ...I might be losing it here... :)