I arrived at the Summit Lodge two days ago (day 17- March 25) and got to spend two wonderful days with my brother, Davin, and his boyfriend, Brian. We had fun chatting and playing cards and catching up... :) ... but today they left and for the first 30 minutes or so I have to say that I felt VERY ALONE. I was scared...filled with panic and fear and loneliness (I plan to stay up here with God (and Rue) for 3 weeks and suddenly all the things that could go wrong started going through my head....all the things I was missing out on... etc...)... BUT GOD.
My Constant Savior came close and prompted me to pray in the Spirit to cast Satan and His lies and deceit (fear, loneliness) OUT. We prayed for protection and for God to come very close, for intimacy, etc. It was awesome, and IMMEDIATELY I felt better!!!
I just went on a little stroll (and I mean LITTLE stroll... maybe a 1/4 - 1/2 mile tops....I really want to be careful.) But on this wonderful walk through the clouds with God, I spent some time practicing "Spiritual Breathing" (which I heard about from Bill Bright's AWESOME blog/article about fasting)... breathing GOD and His light and goodness IN and breathing out SIN and ugliness. Bill explains it by saying "Like physical breathing, Spiritual Breathing is a process of exhaling the impure and inhaling the pure."
Anyway.... here I am. Lord, speak to me. Prepare me. Send me. I am yours.
Here are a couple pics of the Summit Lodge (my parent's masterpiece)... I'm in heaven!! :)
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