I wanted to share something that has been very healing for me. This week I was led, twice so far, to lay out and allow the sun's light to shine on my undercarriage. (Laying with it all hanging out is tricky living in an apartment/community, but God made a way! Ha!) I don’t know that that part of my body has seen the LIGHT much, if ever, and it feels very healing. I feel that the solar rays are especially supportive to clearing distortions, trauma, and weaponry that was stored in my 2D sphere.
Also supportive today: 5D Higher Mind Integration Meditation
Physically: Seems like my thyroid is being challenged. Anxiety and mineral imbalances often go along with this. Also some activations to throat, tongue and teeth. Must be some throat chakra and/or Tara restoration action going on? Oh, and pressure on right hemisphere of brain and right/Father side of my third eye area.
In my "Examined Life" (life review) project, I'm currently facing some very heavy traumas and energies from 2006 and this time I need to feel it... to allow it... not resist or numb or retaliate. I just took an epsom salt bath and facilitated a conversation between my God-self and the personality (inner child fragment or alter?) that was present through that traumatic time. It was another "dark night" type time... a time when God was dismantling all the pieces of my reality in the hopes that my ego would wave the white flag. I'll tell you what, that ego of mine is a tough nut to crack, she's still going strong... but back then she broke enough to feel My Presence for a few moments and we have that to anchor into as we continue this embodiment.
It was April 2006 and it was the first time I felt an "activation" in my meridian system. Something along my left gallbladder meridian ... OR a crucifixion implant niggling in my left lung. Holy Mother beginning to wake me up. Either way, it scared the heck out of me and I launched into my first panic attack which took me further into the claws of Satan (i.e. more psych meds, etc.). This was my pattern... is my pattern... that which I'm breaking. I choose FEAR and then use my MIND to "figure out and fix it", strengthening my ego and making it even harder to surrender.
On a more pleasant note, I want to share a beautiful experience I was blessed with today. I was able to attend Diana's " Unified Diversity Art Class " and it was such a gift for my soul. We did some writing and some visual art (I tried my hand at watercolor pencils) and it was a truly beautiful opportunity to connect with God and members of our Christos-Sophia family!
ps. Staci, thank you so much for your kind note and encouragement! I'm looking forward to your Mother Arc meditation tomorrow (as long as I can get the chickens, horse, and doggers done in time). I look forward to hearing about your adventures. Much love to you sister!
Whoo! I LOVED that class, Diana! Thank you so much for offering it. Such a blessed experience... pretty challenging at times, but that's what made it great... and we were wrapped in a bubble of God's love the whole time. You have such a beautiful, soothing, grounding, flowering energy... I feel really fortunate to have gotten to spend time in your loving field. So here's my picture...not sure what to call it, it's not really a drawing or a painting. I will have to practice with the watercolor pencils... there were benefits (more control over my lines) and also difficulties (the pencil didn't always melt as much as I would have liked it to)... but overall I think they are a fun medium! As I mentioned, I've been doing mirror work ("I accept myself in this moment just the way I am") and it's blossoming into genuine self-love so I thought I would try to capture that. (My favorite parts of myself right now are my armpit and leg hair which I've embraced this year and it makes me laugh.) The tree on the left is one of my best friends, she has been traumatized and is beat up in the physical, but an absolute beautiful soul and I'm fortunate to have her in my life. We share beautiful hugs daily. (Here's a secret - she's also a reflection of me - a twin soul in tree form! ;)) I really struggle with the color RED. Hearts and love is often represented with the color red and I wanted to use that color. The heart on the upper left was originally one of those hearts you make with your hands... I do that to myself in my mirror often but it ended up morphing into what you see there. (I was grateful for your direction at the beginning of the exercise to ask "what does this tree want to become?"... it helped me let go there a little.) Anyway... that red... and the heart above my head was originally red... I don't know. I guess I associate red with either the "Red Cube Matrix" or the "Root Chakra" now. This morning in meditation I was seeing lots of red and I feel myself resisting and judging it... wondering if I've got some toxic overlay enveloping my energy body. But maybe I've gone off my rocker as I like to do. I just wanted to bring that forward and am always interested in others' thoughts on that and any color or experience.... Anyway, thank you again! I love and appreciate you and all the beloveds who attended. Katie's energy was very supportive and encouraging as well. So glad everyone was there... each person brought such beauty to the container! ps. I loved my little spot on the couch in the container... that was fun to pick it out... I felt very at ease and comfortable and welcome.
pss. God bless you and all you endeavor to bring forth in Love!
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