I'm my divine partner

I don't need to look for my divine partner.... I need to look for ME. Inward. I AM my own divine partner. I need to continue to get to know and love ME ... as I love myself and mine deeply into my own heart and discover the riches there, it will bring for the WAY for me to fullfill my mission in Christ. THIS is the Truth and my path.

I understood today that Joe was my "Personality Matrix" spiritual marriage (started with the glimpse of spirit - the ZWANG - God was with us... all designed to begin to break through the layers and lives of miasma). Through faith we "leveled up" and here came another dark night of the soul. (Note, there was a dark night of the soul for months before I met Joe.) After a time I "leveled up" again and that led me to Tyrone who was my "Soul Matrix" spiritual marriage and it was perfectly designed to help me integrate my soul and learn sacrifice and experience further breakage including a broken heart. There was interference from dark forces too... and my own continued failure on the negative ego front. But it was all part of my evolution. Then Michael... sweet Michael. He is here to help me embody my monad... to heal and collapse the lower layers of being... to hold space for my EMF and bodily functioning to dismantle so that it can be rebuilt in spirit and truth. I love him very much and as we've decided to allow God to lead us into new relationships due to our different beliefs (he doesn't care for my cosmic Christ consciousness and I don't care for his blood sacrifice and misogyny....the latter is a big part of what we are working to heal together... and he's come a long way, in my opinion. He says there is no way he will change, but he seems to. We both believe in "living according to our created purpose" (divine organic purpose). But we are not physically compatible or have physical attraction and he's 23 years older than me. (The attraction is coming online for me a little as my 2D-4D split is being healed... but he's dating Ammi now and I need to keep dating myself...so I just have to wait and trust God to direct my path.)

So... that leaves me with a divine Avatar Christos Spiritual Marriage in the works. Who knows how many years before it is revealed, and it will need to be divinely led by God, not by cords or Astral delusion or Red Cube distortions or interference. I surrender my will to the divine will of my Highest power, my God-Source. And right now that spiritual marriage partner is ME... getting to know and love ME (all of my divine masculine and feminine and ancestral work and healing and clearing up my lightbody and becoming ONE in/as Christ-Sophia)... THIS is my job and joy.

The rest is a distraction.

"Slow down". That's the song that just came on. So yeah... I need to just slow down and allow what is to integrate. We're having more activations and dismantling ... "slow down slow down slow down"... okay. 

So that's it. 

Today's "Breaking Bondage Loops" was really helpful too. So I am letting go of Gabe... I found more cords and think there is some astral plane webbing that we are both stuck in a little. I sense we are both ... well... I have to only focus on myself... clearing Twilight Master propensities and pasts... so just holding as one. And I am grateful for the opportunity to learn how not to engage in visions ... maybe just send love from the Present Christ I AM and for God's will to be done (without me mixing my still-fleshly will in through imposing my visions of whatever...even if it's good... Sa codes for the gallbladder meridans, etc... sounds good...but it's still me imposing my will. I could say it's Christ-Sophia motivated, but how do I know? So then what? Don't interact with anyone ever? Well... not without consent and working together, how about that? That man doesn't comprehend the doors in your astral layers that were opened. Earlier you felt betrayed by him, but he doesn't have enough information to make a conscious choice to betray you. The divine feminine isn't aggressive... dark mother is... but divine feminine is patient and pure and kind and humble and allows the divine masculine to be who he is without trying to change him or the situation. We trust that all things work out according to God's purpose for those who are in Christ-Sophia.

So me. Focusing on me. Loving and hearing me. 

ps. This is reallllllly good stuff, Carissa. You are a special person and I love and appreciate you so much.