Reading this in the AG ... feels resonant:
https://ascensionglossary.com/index.php/Embodying_Female_Principle_Melchizedek#/random
So the Melchizedek comes in and repairs the damage or views it, meaning the Melchizedek comes in to look at what got damaged, sourcing the problem going into the timeline and seeding in those particular timelines particular codes that will assist in the evolutionary potential in the progression of a species."
I'm thinking that an Oraphim Melchezidek consciousness is trying to understand and repair a Metatron consciousness that fell... fallen angel (is that related to seraphim. I guess I don't know what the genetics are of the group that came as part of the Metatron Collective. Or was THAT Melchezidek and fallen Melchezidek because we were trying to repair the 12th stargate?
" So as a being that is from the order of Melchizedek you have a lot of history with the histories feeding the Christ consciousness, the histories of holding the Essene materials and the histories of the order of Melchizedek in the timelines of Egypt attempting to restore the blue flame into the core of this planet. "
"it is the Melchizedeks that are hosting the ascension for the planet."
.... oh.... I got sidetracked....went to the dentist...new dentist, Dr. Emily, an angel and blessing...and came home and had a really good talk with Michael and played with Sioux and then we lost a baby chicken (boo...don't know what happened, she's just gone)... and now doing work for Malai and Jeff Chase just called and Melanie wants to talk now... when I'm super overwhelmed ... but I say YES, God. To whatever you'd like. Thy will be done.
I wish I could write out Michael's and my talk. It was REALLY good. We are coming to an understanding and I feel much better about everything because I feel like I'm being honest and we're clearing distortions and putting things on table.
I told him that I was committed to God's will and I think we both understand that neither of us were committed to working on our marriage our union... I was working on myself so that I could, one day, work on our union, but I have so much work to do on myself and my own healing. And he just felt like we were on different pages. He doesn't seem to get that the work I'm doing to know God and expand my consciousness is supportive to both of us and even aligned to his searching. He's more into the 3D stuff and I'm more into the ethereal stuff... .but they are both relevant.
I felt really bad like I was failing another mission... that I was going to single handedly repair the Michael consciousness... but on my drive to/from Raleigh I gained some space and listened to a little Galactic Heart call (which I'm having a really hard time connecting too this month for some reason) and some of my Charlotte session. Anyway, I just have to be honest, transparent, vulnerable, and allow GOD to lead. Maybe Ammi is the next wave to support him... and he to her... God's will be done. I contributed my part and can continue to in the way that I interact with him now. But he chose ...chooses... that he wants to continue to pursue another relationship and does not want to pursue ours further... as lovers.
He said he will not leave me high and dry and wants to make sure I'm provided for.
Cancel that. I just talked to him about it a little and he got all upset when I said I wanted to keep my IRA money that he insisted I take out so he can buy silver. He wanted to split it fairly as long as he kept the silver he brought with him and then leave me a little... not half because I don't make as much money as him. Note to self, don't allow this to happen again... be responsible for yourself... don't mix finances with another human... they are fickle and money makes people crazy people. Especially Michael. I know that. I brought in over 20K from Malai last year and we pretty much used it all to buy silver... all of which I considered "ours" and thus should be split down the middle.
Uck.
I don't like money. Feel it. Feel the anger and injustice I'm feeling now. It's okay. Just watch it. Fearless and timeless. I am the compassionate witness.
So anyway... I thought it was going to be a peaceful split... we agreed to remain "significant others" and "best friends" (though I assume that will morph with his new partner... she will be his best friend and rightly so). But who knows.
Anyway, as I understood it, we (9:55) were going to cohabitate in love and I was going to continue pursuing my relationship with myself and my own healing and he was going to pursue a relationship with Ammi. He said he wasn't going anywhere anytime soon and he likes it here too. But who knows what will happen. The important thing is heart intention. His heart intention is NOT to build love and unity with me. He doesn't feel like we are a good match (and I agree, but I am still willing if it's God's will... if it's part of the transformation and reclamation of Michael-Mary consciousness and clearing reversals and all the pain that is stored in them... I'm in. This is my job. My declaration of intention is to serve my source, NOT my whims (for a loving divine partner who I feel connected to. I'd like that, but if it's not in the cards, it's not in the cards. My first job is to heal myself.)
So I felt like we had a really good conversation. I always feel like I make progress in communicating how my consciousness work is relevant to that which he's seeing, but I'm not sure he understands exactly. It's okay. What I DO appreciate is that he has a shared understanding with me about the evils in the world and watching it unfold and remaining safe. We see the programming going on and try to stay outside of it. I don't think there are many people left who are unvaccinated and I don't want to be near them. God, please keep us all safe.
It's selfishness and greed now he's clamping down when I threatened his most precious commodity, his silver (aka, asking for him not to take a cut of my IRA). It's all God's. I need to let go. I'm selfish. I'm greedy. I see. He's resisting MY pushing. Let it go.
God, forgive me. Thank you for Staci's light... it just shifted my heart.
This is all so hard. But I know we are in YOUR divine hands, Oh God, and everything is designed to repair the breech!
I cancel the Red Wave programming. I feel accosted by it... thoughts of Gabe (cancel! cancel! cancel) and also they are throwing in thoughts of Tyrone (though I do think that was part of my work on the Metatronic Reversal and reclamation of the Metatron Collective... I see how all I live and do is connected to this work.)... and now Jeff calling (my first love/best boy friend who I cherish)... all these to distract me from my ACTUAL true love, ME!!! GET TO THE MIRROR! (10:11)
https://ascensionglossary.com/index.php/Red_Nile_Cube
THIS is what's attacking me... I DO NOT CONSENT!!
My time in the mirror was beautiful... spent time with Mother and Father God and my Christ self and they comforted and loved on me/Cristy. The love burned away the greed and gave perspective that allowed me to come out and tell Michael that I don't care about the silver and he can figure it out and that it is our love and unity that matter. He's like "that's good. I'm glad you came back out." He's so funny... he just will not look at his own heartset ... it's always me (to him)...but again, that's not for me. I am not a victim. We are all going through our own processes. He is a beautiful soul and is experiencing life the way he is meant to. I can't change it. (God knows this started because I WAS trying to push or resist in that area... I can't. No more pushing or pulling on anything. Just let everything unfold...God's in control.) TRULY!! Believe it!!
Tomorrow I get a tooth drilled and crowned or onlayed... so that's that. I guess I need to try to get some sleep. The Atomic Body clearing was quite good today.
OH! The dental tech today went to school in HAWAII!! So much Hawaii these days... maybe I was able to get there through her lightbody?
This song sang to me at 9:23 this morning. (I got both 9:23s today and lots of 3's... and 1's)
https://music.youtube.com/watch?v=DLd1smrE7Lk&feature=share
Lyrics: https://lyricstranslate.com/en/ke-ahi-fire.html
The Fire
One final word
Lasted a thousand years
Born of the raging sea the land,
One truth be told
An echo always ringing
Disrupted silence
Of the night.
The redness
The redness of the fire1
The redness of the fire2
The redness of
The redness of the fire
The redness of the fire
The redness of
The redness of the fire
The redness of the fire
The redness of
The redness of the fire
The redness of the fire
Fathered by light,
Mothered in womb of darkness,
Born of the opposites a dance,
A kindred heart,
Glowing below the surface,
Grandmother offering of life.
The redness of
The redness of the fire
The redness of the fire
The redness of
The redness of the fire
The redness of the fire
If nothing lasts,
Is taken back,
Release attachment to the plan,
What once was fixed,
Evaporates around her,
The wild earth unclaimed by man.
The redness of
The redness of
The redness of
The redness of
The redness of
The redness of the fire
https://lyricstranslate.com/en/ke-ahi-fire.html
Of course I wanted to send it to Gabe too. I sent it to Staci... but not Gabe. I need to make a running list of the things I WANTED to send. But maybe not. Maybe this is playing into the Red Cube Matrix... powering it. Just cancel and switch thoughts. That is false HG technology at play. I DO NOT CONSENT!!!
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