Getting rocked back and forth by God. Very soothing. But may also be part of the alignment of my monadic body: https://ascensionglossary.com/index.php/Organic_Orb/Slider
Today my father side (right) eye is getting a few upgrades... this will help me "see" better.
Lots of lesssons so far... really beautiful day. I've been USELESS to the world, but learning lots.
My daily glossary AG pick, the Partial Fall of Milky Way took me on a beautiful tour of understanding about the Metagalactic Core and how as the Metatron Collective, we came to try to rehabilitate the 12D stargate (which aligns to Andromeda) but we had mission failure and were swallowed into the YHVH Matrix/Saturn blood worship mess (which had taken over the 12 faces of man or the 4 Faces of Man grid which is a diagonal fire grid with a 2D stargate in Easter Island, Chili). I may be making some of that up... b
This was a very important AG article for me: https://ascensionglossary.com/index.php/Metagalactic_Core
I AM aligned to all these timelines and have experiences and lifetimes in all - Gaia, Tara, Earth... I have consciousness pieces on exploded Tiamat and parts of me have been taken to Nibiru too. I have experienced the flowering black heart and I don't know if that's the same as the annubian black heart... but those reversals took us down and out for a while but we are being reclaimed and as we get back our consciousness pieces we re-join the mission.
So we have lots going on here on our personal galactic history lesson... but also SO much personally and with ego clearing and alignment. The mirror exercise (I accept myself in this moment just as I am) etc. has been incredible ... miraculous even, in just the three days I've been doing it morning and night.
Lots to observe in myself relating to the world. I guess I told you that Michael has been courting Ammi and that's been really hard. Lots to process and understand. For me I hoped it meant I was going to get a new partner too ... but I have SO MUCH work on myself first. I am building a relationship with MYSELF first... so much to heal...so much pain, trauma and distortions. The "Gabe thing" (I will just call it that) is here for my learning. I believe now it is an Ai Red Cube Matrix hijack attempt and I want to see it for what it is). BUTTTTT we are co-workers and siblings in this work so I get messed up because I feel connected. But it could be and probably is. IT IS!!! DARLING, SEE IT!!! It is one of those things that happened to Lisa where people would decide they are in love with her and they are meant to be together. That's what I'm doing to Gabe! LEAVE THAT MAN ALONE!! okay.
So.... yeah... that has brought up some stuff to witness.
And watching my "comfort implants", I guess, around Michael. I'm doing lots of work with this Michael thing... like trying to figure out if I should be encouraging him to find love outside of our marriage (he's all for two wives too) or if I should be kicking up my investment in trying to heal the abyss.
Any attraction we could feel for each other has been damaged by fear and trauma (my fault mostly, but he came in with lots of distortions, ie. sado masochistic tastes). We just don't seem to have chemistry...but is it because of the distortions and reversals? Yes. But there are lots. And you have more time to put in to heal this Saturn Blood Worship schism. We're helping you, but you are "ground crew", indeed.
So now I feel like I just need to continue being open to God's movement if there is a better partner for Michael (as long as God has a better one for me too, please! I DO, YOUUUUUU!!!)... but you can be in a relationship with yourself and be fostering that at the same time you are with your husband.
Okay, but I don't want to "give up so easily" on Michael as I believe we are doing important work together and I have a TON more negative ego to clear - service to self mentality etc. and it is a joy to practice with him. So as of this morning I feel like I want to push for us to.... PUSH. I see. Okay. Well, I want to HOPE that we can stay together and stay here and if Ammi wants to take the initiative, if she is driven by God and it is meant to be, then she can move here and join us. They can get their own apartment and if he wants to be with her, then so be it...it will be a more gentle transition. Then when "the silver comes in" Michael can buy his plantation and do what he likes. It will also give me time to continue working on myself and who knows what God has in store.
But like-minded people in this day and age are hard to come by. I don't want to be alone. We help keep each-other apprised with what's going on in the world and safe. We are good partners. And we have a family and life together. A beautiful one.
Ammi just seems sneaky and gamey a little. Not completely in the light or truthful. Like she's doing stuff behind my back in a way. I don't know that for sure, but, for instance, I texted her on the group text this morning and I just had a thought (could be real, could be a fake) that she texted or called or talked to Michael alone.
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I stand corrected...she didn't do that. I am dealing with jealousy problems here.
I did talk to Michael some more (he's at kettle corn and it's slow) and decided in that conversation that I would NOT like to have sex with him after he's had sex with another woman. They bring their own problems (she's got some body things... candida, and DNA distortions, not to mention that she's been tested for Covid ... Michael said it was the spit test, but I doubt that... but maybe. I just don't trust her. She didn't say that to me. She just did one of her "loved" comments when I encouraged her that if she had to do it again, that she get that PCR test. Oh... just looked it up...the "PCR" is the swab. NO THANK YOU.
Anyway, I don't feel that is how God created us... to be united with multiple partners. I think we create a structure in union with our divine partner. I don't know if Michael is my divine partner ... I DO feel like we have work to do and we can decide if we want to work together more or not...and that takes both of us. But if he doesn't choose me, then God's will be done. It hurts, but it's part of my experience and lesson. I can be a "sister wife" in word and will be Michael's friend and partner as long as it's meant to be... but I don't feel that it is safe to my body or being to mix sexually with Ammi (or any third party) and would be doing that by sharing a physical partner.
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