Unity consciousness over patriarchal domination

Maybe I can type this out a little bit... try to just BE with it. I've had a good conversation with Michael re: Michael consciousness. I was reading to him from Lisa's March 2010 newsletter which I felt was very helpful in understanding the Michael vs. anti-Michael (archangel Michael) consciousness... the "anti" consciousness is plugged into the NRG and powers the 10D Golden Eagle Grid and runs the patriarchal domination scripts (along with it's supporting VV, sexual misery, armageddon, etc. programs). 

I believe with my whole heart that Michael is here to heal that false consciousness and the reversals but he is still being birthed out of the SRA Saturn Blood Worship YHVH Matrix and the religious overlays that have enslaved him to the False Father. His lens of the bible or Torah which he believes is "THE truth" models a patriarchal society and perpetuates patriarchal domination.

He made a good point about how the anti-Michael consciousness may be creating and working with these distortions to fuel patriarchal DOMINATION, which he doesn't necessarily agree with. He said he just personally believes it's Yehovah's plan to have a patriarchal/male-led, society where the men are the leaders and rulers and it is set up around them since they know best, etc. 

I thought that was a good point and one step closer to dropping the whole mess. But really even if we aren't SAYING the "domination" side, I believe it perpetuates "domination" because men are demanding women's power in order to fuel their egos.

I told him I do not believe in a patriarchal society but I also don't believe in a matriarchal society. I'm not a feminist. I believe in UNITY... that we are meant to come together in unity and create personal and societal structures that leverage the heart and strengths of both sexes. 

Anyway, hopefully seeds are being sown for Michael. They definitely are for me as I learn. And it's an opportunity to be a compassionate witness and observer and love him and us despite our differences. I'm not sure what's going on with us... I mean... it looks and feels like we are still NOT working toward a relationship which is sometimes sad to me. My body is starting to awaken and it's fun to have someone that I might be able to explore it with here in the house with me...but not if it's not aligned. I'm grateful to God for protecting me from myself. My guides, Michael's guides...please keep me pure. I ask for the spirits of Christ to embody in me... spirits of purity, patience, kindness, generosity, discipline, diligence, and humility.

I had to just watch Michael... he did really well listening to me reading about the Michael consciousness...it usually would make him impatient and mad and he started to try to back out at one point but he kept listening. Based on a question or two I asked, I'm not sure how much made sense to him... but I pray the seeds were sown. I used to read that type of thing with little comprehension too. I'm still gaining understanding. 

Anyway... it was a good exercise. And I just need to trust God. But I see more that Michael is here representing Solar Michael consciousness and doing the work (internally and through his vessel) to correct the distortions. As I told him, the words he uses and what he "preaches" on his blog and class is different than what he lives. He LIVES love and kindness and respects and honors and cherishes me. The energy signature of his blog is not that. 

I just need to keep doing negative ego clearing and surrender and am grateful for the support. I had a lovely time in the shower-turned-bath this morning... can't say exactly what happened but I was both baptizing myself and being reborn and being washed and loving myself and purging... there's just density to move out so we can level up. 

Dream state provided some big opportunities to choose correctly but I chose fear and lust so I need to do them over... I want to choose surrender into God's plan and be a neutral and loving witness. That's really what I did right when Moses almost died last year... his N.D.E....I surrendered and told him I loved him and that's when he came back. Thanks be to God. 

I am also having profound dream state experiences and doing lots of clearing. (Freaking Kirk has been with me all night the last couple nights.)

I know working with the Seraphim Reclamation and Clearing Hybridization Trauma are really important right now for me. 

I need to choose thoughts and activities that are aligned to Christ. I probably didn't hold the most loving vibration toward Wendy today when Jenn was so upset and I was trying to comfort her. I felt angry at Wendy but I should have just felt it. God gave me the Emotional Release technique this morning (along with the Luciferian Void... get empathy into my heart- I want to heal the damage and black heart wholly!! (I did the Lovingkindness meditation while bringing solar light to my undercarriage and sacral center (for the first time in a long time if not ever). I laid in the hammock in the sun with my who-who out! It was GREAT!). Anyway, this is what I need to do.  

Emotional Release Technique - Quick 

1. Patience: pause, step back, take a breath
2. Surrender to the process: The Divine is at work AGAIN!  I do not know why or what caused this, but I surrender to my highest power. I will get myself out of the way
3. Acceptance: I may not like it, but that is okay, I am at peace because something larger is at work in my life
4. Forgiveness: Tell the story, feel your feelings, Revalue them and shift perspective
5. Be Here Now! Be Here Now! Be here Now

I also need to burn that lesbian painting I made in college. Last night in my dream a woman telepathically invited me to have sex with her. I thought about it and was turned on and decided I could go down on her but I didn't want her to do it to me... I may have considered it though. But I played with that lust demon thus anchoring it deeper when I need to EVICT that sucker! And the FEAR demon too. Those assholes are out to get me! NO. I do not consent!! I AM GOD SOVEREIGN AND FREE!!!!

The lust demon may be the one that is getting me to think about sex with Michael too. Why NOW? Ugh. He's happy... he likes talking to Ammi and I walked past Remy and Mya (horses on the ranch) and they were so sweet nibbling on hay side by side... just peaceful. That's what Michael and Ammi would be like and what they both deserve. They'd be a good couple... I think. Good for each other's healing too. (Physical, mental, emotional, and spiritual.) I don't need to justify or stand up for myself... I've done the best I could and Michael has been a God-send... despite his beliefs, because they ARE rooted in FAITH, he vibrates LOVE. He is a beautiful soul and has held an energetic resonance that has empowered me to turn from the descending path back to the ascending path. 

I don't know if I wrote this before, but I see how I was awakened first thing in 2010 because of my Indigo neurology and I believe it must be Oraphim consciousness joined me and began helping me to restore myself to and in Christ. 

The rubber met the road a couple years later in 2012 and time was up... I had to either surrender fully or get off the pot. Fear and ego could not drive anymore...but I clung desperately to my ego. It's so hard now... I have such a strong ego. False King stuff I guess. And Dark Mother doesn't help. So down down down into the pit I went.

I got another chance in late 2016, by the grace of God. Someone took pity on me and we began the process of filing through the shackles with a rusty old nail file. We're still at it.