Wanting to Correct

Just a couple corrections and clarifications.

Gold: I am gold colored in the mirror. Like painting. My eyes are gold and I have a gold aura and gold skin and hair and become almost see-through. Have dissipated completely a couple times. 

The soldier: It wasn’t like he AND I left the army…though it was. But I was given the gift of being consciousness witnessing his courage to walk away and choose a life aligned with Krystic values. 

Welllllll…. nevermind…that’s my ego that wants to add more. But DO remember that… and remember the Golden Boy painting of Caden…that’s kind of what I look like, except with gold halo around the head and gold eyes… it’s wild. But I do see kind of a blackness that is around my body still…we are being born out of the depths… reborn… AGAIN! HA! How many times do I need to “be reborn”? As many as it takes, Rayah!

So VERY powerful "Seraphim Reclamation" meditation… they talked a LOT about the Gold Body and the Rha body which is what Charlotte said I was working on or something… I need to listen to that or type it… I think I’ll cheat and have it transcribed. Is that okay? I guess not. I guess I don’t feel comfortable with that. Darn. Anyway… it was all so aligned. And of course the dang Red Cube Gabe stuff comes up … and I just need to keep surrendering it. I don’t really want to talk about it more now. It’s exhausting. But it led me to do the “Descending Serpent Fire” meditation again and in the middle of that I was led to go to do the hydrogen peroxide vaginal implants WHILE doing the meditation for super clearing… so God’s will be done. It just seems like we are really trying to get ourselves in order… and what was interesting… so shoot, I’m going to talk about Gabe again… is that the visions I’ve had have been me cleaning HIS genitalia/sex organs…. Sounds dirty, but it wasn’t… it was pure and loving… I was cleaning parts on his chest where there were wounds and spots and other parts of his body and carefully and lovingly cleansed his lower areas too (in that Azure water). Well… I don’t know. I am definitely feeling that same presence that was around in Pittsburgh that was trying to get me … I can’t think that it was positive… I allowed that “light” to have sex with me and felt like it impregnated me or my being in some way and then I started having this delusions about being united in spirit with my divine partner (who I was led to believe was Tyrone and even though I was conflicted, I was following the will of God (but I might have been duped with some false guides at the time… could be happening now too, I guess.). Anyway, that same feeling came up on me today as well like I WANT to … almost consent (don’t)…but almost… consent to uniting with this delusion that I think is Gabe or my divine HG partner. NO. I’m not ready. God will be very clear and very LIGHT and very OPEN and TRUE and LOVE-FILLED when/if there is any sort of HG partner merge… it will be pure and lovely. That’s what I want. The one that is born of confusion and darkness is a TRICK. It’s Lust all dressed to the nines trying to lure me in. I DO NOT CONSENT!! Get away from me! 

Poor Gabe. I hope he’s not feeling any backlash from this mess. This is imposter spirits if I ever have seen them! I cut all the cords all the time and I must trust they are cut and he is safe. Whether he is in my future or not, he is a beautiful and beloved brother and I want him to be freed from the shackles of delusion, pride, and lust as well… may his heart be freed to shine the God-light… the Rha Light… it is meant to. We are all learning. I am not here to judge. Discern. Love. Accept. Surrender. Love. Love. Love. FORGIVE. Today is forgiveness day for sure. That was my daily glossary pick and there is much to forgive… these are seeds that create roots that have strangled my Krystic being. I do not consent. I forgive all beings. I walk in unconditional love and forgiveness. I collapse all timelines into LOVE and accept all that is. 

We both have Twilight Master stuff to work through. We are siblings. I wish we could just be friends and talk through this stuff. That’s what I want the most… to share with him… to commune with him. To communicate with him… ha. To hold space for him so we can share in All That Is together. That’s all. Ha. I started to say “but that’s a delusion”, but I’m not sure. I think there is a phantom timeline here that is designed to drag me down into the lower lip of the bifurcation, but I think that’s to keep me off the actual ascension timeline that I am meant to be collapsing all timelines into. In THAT one, if Gabe chose that one too, then maybe we would be able to work together. IF IF IF. 

So my focus needs to be on my present clearings and work. Learning to care for and cherish myself and align to the Law of One. The rest is TBD.