Monday, December 20, 2021

Day before the sun is born

My guides gave me this song today and I just looked it up to check it out and the lyrics are perfect for my love for Paul!! Wild!!

Turning Japanese: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=IWWwM2wwMww

It's now 12/20 at 9:21 9:22

Today I had my first (and last!!??) Brazilian Wax!
I ate terribly and gluttonously. A lamb shwarma small pita with hummus and tabouli from Neomonde WITH baklavah pieces and a cookie (which I threw half away - not good. The baklavah pieces were amazing though!)
For dinner I had Chic-fil-A... spicy chicken sandwich, fries, lemonade AND 3 chicken strips.

I got some fun things and snacks (no sugar though) from an Indian grocery store - fun!

Spent maybe 2 hours chatting with the O'Malleys on their couch which was fun!

Went to the LAUNDROMAT and washed the comforters. That was interesting. Nice interaction with a man there - he just said "hi" and I said "hi" back. It was nice though. And a nice interaction with the man in the drive-thru at Chic-fil-A ... I think my smile brought him cheer and he gave it back to me!

God, could my niece be born tomorrow? That would be so neat! Niece!! Tomorrow? Wednesday? I was hoping for tomorrow (solstice) but I'm feeling you are thinking Wednesday - 22. That's a good number. Wild stars these days. Wild that you are coming now! THANK YOU! I can't wait to meet you!!!

I think both Paul and I experienced CEN (childhood emotional neglect). I think I have become narcissistic as a coping mechanism, maybe. I definitely struggle with that ... half of me. The other half struggles with co-dependency. 

I think I'll take a bath. 
I need to get the wax out of my butt. And sooth my poor damaged vag. She riiiiippppped the skin right off! It was terrible! But she was kind and patient. I gave her a $20 tip. 

It's time to clean my body and mind out... to remove distractions from my connection to Source. A little leaven leaveneth the lump and I need to get these discordant items out from my body. Tomorrow I want to fast.... maybe I can do liquid if I must, but I want to "eat" meditations and clearings and energy.

I want to listen to Paul and Kelsey's session but I want to be clear first. It's important.

And to feel good in my body. 

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