OmniLov3 post: Paul, Alaska, Pot (& Eliyanah Review)

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 Mhairi & Sequoia, Thank you so much for this post/support.

This makes for a living hell realm as part of their life experience. It will take time to come into understanding about regaining a clear lightbody, to remove influences, attachments and the etheric weaponry implantations. Any life trauma such as accidents, abuse or addictions must be considered and healed in coming to heal the soul matrix and mental bodies into wholeness. This can be achieved by persevering on a gentle meditation path.

I want to share my recent descent into this hell realm... I'm absolutely flabbergasted (with myself) that I did this to myself... but I did and this post gives me some understanding of what may have happened...

Here's the story:
In the last timeline shift at the end of October I believe that I had a kundalini awakening/shift that appears to be associated with connection to a divine partner. I am still building my own wings but it feels like I am also being given the opportunity to begin to template a union with another. Feels that way but I'm also skeptical and trying to remain neutral but following the path laid before me....

SO, there was a man who I had talked to only a couple times but we were connected on social media and over the past 5 years I had a couple thought-forms float through that said "Is THIS my person?? No. Couldn't be!" I never met him, knew nothing about him, and he is literally on the other side of the country from me (he was in Alaska and I was in North Carolina). Nothing ever came of it ... just a couple random fleeting thoughts, but my consciousness remembered these thoughts. That said, in early October he lost his beloved canine companion and we connected over that (I wonder if his dog came to get me?) ... and we started talking in earnest and pretty much right away my consciousness clinked in with his. He is wearing a good bit of darkness and is a microcosm for the (heavy and reversed) Alaskan grids satanic and sexual misery program energy. Feeling into this was very interesting and enlightening and all-encompassing. (I want to pause and say that it feels we are BOTH polarity integrators and as such, part of our "job" is to put on these architectures to feel into it in order to neutralize it.)

So a week or so after we started talking and after I started working with his energy in sleep (and waking) state, there was some sort of massive shift from some sort of personal healing ceremony where he worked with/fought/surrendered something (a demon maybe...felt like a golum) and he said after it was destroyed all he felt was light and felt ME with him. From that point on we have been pretty much inseparable - we've been through these intense feelings of love (dopamine hits, ha!) and talked for hours and hours (and hours) every day. We feel like we are each other's "ONE" that we'd been searching for for millenia!

Let me pause here with some paranoia...Is this a weird place to tell this story?
Nah, I don't think so... it IS relevant... it's going to get more relevant...

Okay, so of course I was questioning if this is an "alien love bite" - the intensity was fascinating, but at the same time I felt mostly neutral and it didn't feel hard to stay non-attached to the outcome... I felt non-attached... I still kind of do, although it's gotten progressively more serious.

On week two or three I felt SO MUCH of what I guess I can describe as kundalini energy... even (or especially) when walking in nature...but all through the day it felt like etheric surgeons were literally sewing Paul's and my architecture together. I want to stay positive about this, but I realize as I'm writing this that it could be a more nefarious spirit doing the sewing, right? Hard to say...I guess we'll see what the fruit of our union looks like, that will tell us.

Let me speed this up - I WENT TO ALASKA. It was an incredible experience.... from flying over Canada (and being called to do Crux Implant meditations to just holding space for it which also felt ... angry - steely, like steel wool maybe... also suppressed or oppressed (both)...can't breathe... you know... just NOT WELL. I flew pretty much directly over Calgary on the way back.)... but Alaska itself was fascinating. Beautiful but also oppressive in places. Dark pockets.

I had a MOST AMAZING day with our beloved sister "Eliyanah in Alaska" who took me to some amazing places - the top of a mountain, a hike in 3 degree (fahrenheit) weather in a nature preserve (brrr, but so rad!), to the most magical Russian orthodox (indigenous) burial ground where we worked with some lovely energies/beings.... she also fed me and introduced me to her Beloved! Just a perfect day!

...and with Paul it was beautiful and interesting... I "put on" his life as one does when they are on vacation... out of my routines and he took the time off so we just putzed around together - didn't sleep much and didn't eat the nourishing foods that I'm used to, so naturally I came a bit unglued. This leads me to the terrible part....

I don't know how this happened but I heard that cannabis was legal on Alaska and convinced Paul to take me to a dispensary. It was a FASCINATING experience.... the "budtender" told me all about the plant and it was beautiful and interesting. I KNEW that I couldn't smoke that stuff... I had TERRRRRRRRIBLE experiences with it in the past and hadn't tried it in over 20 years (nor did I want to). BUT... some stupid part of me thought it would be fun to "just buy it so I could say I did...but I wouldn't smoke it"!

3 days later on my last day there I decided to take ONE hit.... one. Paul doesn't smoke regularly though he has in the past.... I dragged him into this in a way too... wouldn't have happened if I didn't beg him to take me to a dispensary. Anyway, I took that hit and went to HELL. It was an indica strain called "LSD" and I was quite literally "tripping".

It was awful but I was also somewhat conscious of the experience of feeling and seeing all these different timelines and dimensions and not being able to get a foothold/handhold in any one of them! It was terrifying to be sliding around the consciousness units, not be able to get a grasp on anything - I was trapped in my body and mind. My body felt to be having seizures and of course my panic and anxiety was off the charts, causing me not to be able to breathe and my heart to be pounding out of my chest. It took everything I had to try to take a breath. Paul must have seen what was going on and was so kind - I was trapped in my body but I witnessed him wafting sage smoke over me with a feather and bundle of sage. His dog laid with me the whole time - guarding me and doing energy work... at one point Paul noted it and I felt it where the dog was putting his head into my side (spleen area) and beaming me with healing energy that was so warm... both of those boys' love sustained me for those 2 hours of HELL.

WHAT HAD I DONE?!!!!!!! So of course I knew I had opened myself up to some demonic entities in the astral realm and I felt my lightbody had been shredded. My aura was already weakened from the long air travel, lack of rest and nourishment, and the different grids, but now THIS STUPIDITY!! UGH!!

I have, of course, worked through some of the layers of this (SPIRITUAL PSYCHOSIS) and see an opportunity for forgiveness, acceptance, and recognize some of the gifts given to me. Quite recently I've been telling people about how terrible pot is and how it damages the lightbody and opens access to the astral plane to let in distortions, yada yada. So I've been SAYING IT and I felt I knew it based on my experience in the past, but NOW I've experienced it along with my current level of consciousness in a new way that nailed it in MUCH MORE and now I can speak more personally about it.

2 years ago (right before I joined ES) I was in a dark night of the soul period and running to the hospital regularly thinking I was dying (now I know it was ascension symptoms, etc.), but after months of this, they convinced me that I was just off my rocker (again) and that I needed to get back on psych meds (which I had been off of for a few years at that point). I caved and took ONE zoloft. ONE. But with my consciousness (my friend...family...oraphim family maybe), I was able to witness/observe the experience from a different place and SEE...EXPERIENCE DEEPLY how that ONE pill capped my ability to feel or process what needed to be worked through. This "dark night" experience was related to deep shadow purging and required me to feel, moan, cry, surrender these deep-rooted traumas and that zoloft made it impossible... it put a lid on it and I had to wait for whatever it was, 5 days maybe, for it to wear off before I could keep purging!

So I am trying to consider this recent horrible experience as something like THAT. Educational.

Thanks be to God I had a session set up with Charlotte 2 days after I returned from Alaska, all blown up and exploded. She said it looked like my lightbody was a worn or torn sock that needed to be sewn...something like that. I see it in my field too... like cheesecloth sort of. Scary! But I feel like in a way she was sent to "put Humpty Dumpty together again" and I am feeling much stronger already... the session, being back in my Krystal Cathedral, doing my clearings, getting my diet back in shape (slowly), I'm regaining coherence....but still definitely took a hit.

So this all feels related. Also I think I maybe took on some of the reversal architecture from the grids there (and I agree with Eliyanah's assessment of the metatronic reversal coded into Denali which feels like it may be or have a buried pyramid structure working through it and feels like one of the planetary heart centers connected through the earth to Giza). I feel that I may have a bit of shapeshifting ability that I'm not proficient in managing and may have inadvertently done some sort of chameleon thing with that Alaska architecture.

As for Paul, he feels like my monadic counterpoint and he is passionate about embodying a unity field encompassing the divine masculine and divine feminine. He is not an ES member and doesn't have the language or understanding about hierogamic union, but he has been doing the work for a couple years. Maybe it's just me but it feels like I've been on this path to embody sophianic frequencies and purge the lunar influences out of my body for just a time as this where I am being called to hold a solar feminine field to support the divine masculine as he steps up to heal his own FKOT distortions which led to the suppression of the feminine (patriarchal domination) in the first place. Seems like that's the next phase... BUT I'm not 100% confident that I'm ready and able to hold the field successfully and not fall back into DM lunar patterning. AHHH! I guess that's what we came for. Not "I guess". THAT IS WHAT WE CAME FOR.

And I feel that Paul is the one that I'm meant to work on this with. Charlotte said at the end of our session that it seemed like I had a "choice" on whether to work with Paul or not. I had a lot of ALB fears from mission failure in the past and she said there was something coded into my 1D or Mercury birth blueprint (or something.... I haven't re-listened to the session yet) but it sounds like it was cleared so I feel confident I am able to step into this relationship with Paul (if I choose to do so and I feel that I want to), and we can do this work together to heal each other (and the earth and all we came to work with) IN LOVE.

There have been so many miraculous synchronicities with us but the most jaw-dropping is still that we each, on our own, came to the SAME "life purpose".... and when I say "same", I mean SAME!! I have said for at least the last 5 years that my purpose is what I call "tikkun olam" (you can read this in my introduction post in ES even)... and that phrase is a jewish phrase (I'm not jewish, it just resonated with me and although different people translate it different ways, I hold to the meaning that says "tikkun olam means repairer of the earth or healer of the earth".) So that's me ....but in one of our first conversations Paul told me his life purpose... he said "it's strange, but I call my life purpose "tikkun olam" and it means "repairer or healer of the earth""!!!! WHAT?!!!

So. Yeah. And he's definitely multidimensional which is surreal. I don't know if it's because of our connection but I can visibly SEE when he is in different dimensional realities... or SOMETHING. Sometimes he is SO BRIGHT and looks like my lifelong beloved - he looks almost childlike in all his VIBRANCE and we are just souls in love!!...and sometimes he looks worn or lost or suppressed... there are many different experiences which I am currently associating with dimensions, but not sure. I have also witnessed him witnessing ME in those ways too... which is weird.

I guess I could talk about this forever. I'll stop. I think it's still relevant. Feels like Seraphim healing. Mental body healing. Experienced spiritual psychosis and possibly triggered by Ai timelines, not sure. But I'm trusting that ... INTENDING that... all things will work out for GOOD (for all beings). May it be so.

Thank you for bearing witness. Much love to you all and much gratitude for this space and container. Even though I've been too inundated to participate much, the meditations have been so supportive and I'm aware that our UNITY field and Guardian support has been life-giving (literally)!

:dia:
Love,
Carissa

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ES POST:

I couldn't figure out where to share this but have decided on this (EXCELLENT) thread....

YOU GUYS.... Did you know that Eliyanah offers session work to support this SACRED SEXUAL HEALING??

I was late to the party apparently because I didn't realize this. I actually reached out to Eliyanah because I wanted to meet up with her when I visited Alaska last week. She kindly agreed and after that I decided to stalk her ES profile and found that she offers session work! WHOAH! I immediately booked a session with her and haven't looked back!

For anyone that doesn't know, here's her website:https://www.songsofwildgrace.com/

I hope you can feel the GLOW in this testimonial from me because the support that this beautiful woman provided was unlike anything I'd experienced before - we worked with something so rarely discussed and that is very delicate (and support desperately needed) for many people - sexuality, including our genitals and sacral and root energies (and more).

During the session, Eliyanah held a sacred space and field for some beautiful revelation and healing. One of the highlights was learning about female anatomy! At 44, I didn't realize the clitoris is shaped like a wishbone! Mine had some Ai wiring wrapped all around it which Eliyanah helped dismantle. (Probably from periods of chronic masturbation with (ridiculously elaborate) vibrators especially - sexual misery program and Ai counterfeits!)

What an experience! I felt like Eliyanah really SAW ME, met me where I was at, and spoke words of love and healing into my heart. She also felt into some alternate timelines and lifetimes and accessed miasma that was ripe for healing. Lots of crying and even some laughter! Just a beautiful and powerful session all around!

FIVE STARS... No... SIX POINTED STAR!!! (tee hee!) Just wanted to share in case it resonated with anyone else.

Love to ALL, especially our beloved sister Eliyanah! THANK YOU!!!


Carissa