reversal - loosh

Maybe I should write about this to myself instead of freaking Paul out about it. I almost wrote to Paul... I feel close to him and then spout all my thoughts....was nice to talk to him today... to see him and chat on FT. I wish I hadn't tried to add to/correct him about his intuition about the chakras. I wish I wasn't trying to "teach" him or "lead" him there. I have to just trust him to have his own path and understanding and I have to be okay with it being limited. 

But I got a GREAT AG pick today which felt really aligned 
https://ascensionglossary.com/index.php/Azazael_and_Black_Lilith

I wonder if the cum in my mouth/oral sex infatuation is a reversal too? If we are supposed to have our sexual energies merge at the sacral center and create a vortex in that way, then isn't the release of them in the mouth creating a different type of siphon?

Paul acknowledged that eating pussy is connecting to a power source there and I feel like it's a bit like siphoning loosh.... eating loosh... taking that energy into the body as a food source. It's very moloch-tank like. And it would make sense that he would think it would be the same for a woman and man... 

But I want to be ORGANIC. CORRECT our energy flows and reversal currents.

I'll just have to feel into it, I think. FEEL it. My job is to be PRESENT and ALIGNED with MY SOURCE and LEARN and COMPASSIONATELY WITNESS myself and Paul and that which is borne from our relationship.... 

This is a big deal. This is going to be very interesting. I listened to Charlotte's 11/29 session about me and Paul. And I think it's right on (as well as concerning) that our merge is like two water flows coming together... fresh water and sewage (not that I'm super fresh water, but this was the analogy so I'm going with it)... it takes a while before the fresh water clears out the sewage so the water runs clear... something like that. Maybe it's like running fresh water through a sewage pipe... that makes more sense that way...eventually it will run clear. 

God, please help Paul and I to run clear. Help us to fulfill our mission and heal one another in love so we can extend that to the earth in tikkun olam. 
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