Gobsmacked

I am.
What an honor. I am amazed by the energies. Seeing aurora rainbows everywhere... not just in sun, but the whole sky is made of them. And God sent me - I think - a perfect friend, a smokey quartz for me.

And vultures...flying over, criss-crossing on the air currents. Dropping liquid plasma light into my being.

And visuals of a man and woman in unity - hugging. Paul and I. And the messages of what's going on... I know I can't share from the forum but this is cloaked and I want to remember because it feels so personal and WHY Paul is coming NOW. "We are on Time".

I'm just floored.
Get grounded.
And it's much better to stay in my own heart and follow my own heart. I've been playing in lunar and ego trying to please Paul. I can't. I won't. It will just spur on the stuff that his GS (godself) is trying to drop. We are here for one another. We will heal one another in love...not by efforting in the flesh, but by surrendering to Source. WE ARE.

Thank you God. Thank you for the "Initiation" series. What was it "IN-MA" no. I don't know. The people from Sirius. I think that's me... this Sirus connection ... that star has been transmitting to me, especially at this time... this is my time. 

And we're moving into more TRANSCENDENCE on the other side of this solstice. And Ophicus. It's the last day and it's been so powerful. Did I tell you what Kelsey shared about the shooting stars? Apparently it's an annual meteor shower that comes out of Gemini (which is the "twins"... these are soulmates or twinflames)... this is Paul and I. And no wonder they are so powerful. 

The world conspires to bring us together... for just a time as this. (That "the world conspires..." is part of a quote that's not coming to me right now, but this thought is legit.) Thank you God for letting me be a part of something special! ("Wash it away" "stay humble"). 

So get back in the sun. Sit. Feel.

Yesterday and today I had such anger, irritation, annoyance, impatience come up... I was angry while walking the dogs and dragging them along. Angry that they wanted to sniff and stop. Today I was angry that Moses was leaning against me and scratching or biting or moving... it was just this TOXIC energy ... seething... I can now tap into the depths of hatred. I need to. Smokey quartz is coming to help me feel INTO these shadows. This is a gift and part of me.

Today I started washing with "Phoenix Rising" soap with an Apache Tears crystal in it. 

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Kirk's Planetwatcher email today is ON POINT. So crazy how synchronous it is with my whole life and existence!! Thank you God!!

From: PlanetWatcher <kirk@planetwatcher.com>

Subject: The Theory of Evolution is self-hatred propaganda

Date: December 17, 2021 at 12:03:23 PM EST

To: crwages@gmail.com

It's a lie intended for mind control. If the levers of control were obvious, they wouldn't work. Lies mixed with truth are more believable. Through our beliefs, we can be easily manipulated into predictable behavior patterns. By depicting us as a form of advanced ape that grew out of the primordial sludge and survived because we're the fittest, it's easy to see ourselves as superior and to justify our dominion over everything. Our ignorance can be a weapon of mass destruction, but we're not simply destroying our environment. We're destroying ourselves because we don't know what we are. This is perhaps the most important reason for the deception. Our non-human controllers don't want us to believe that we're human. They promote the beliefs that make us better livestock.

We're not the product of natural selection. We're the result of genetic manipulation and inter-species hybridization. The controlled narrative depends on shortening our history to the last 6,000 years, ignoring ancient advanced civilizations such as Atlantis that dwarf our accomplishments. If we knew how they self-destructed, we wouldn't make the same mistakes, but then we would advance beyond our controllers and free ourselves from the lunar matrix. The chimera effect induced by forced inoculations is one of many strategies to confuse our identity and alienate us from ourselves so that we can no longer accurately assess compatibility in preparation for the ultimate hybridization currently unfolding that erases our humanity.

The Crossroads of Destiny is about choosing our spiritual counterpart. Do we ascend out of this matrix through organic inner marriage assisted by uniting with our twin flame genetic equal (incarnate or not), or do we descend deeper into it by merging with technology instead? Eris is the gatekeeper that directs our collective bifurcation. Venus as ruler of Libra is a lunar inversion that replaces our heart chakra with our sacral chakra, redefining love as an act of consumption rather than creation. The vampiric black heart consumes to fill the unquenchable void of worthlessness, always needing to justify its existence by proving its worth, in endless pursuit of selfish gratification to dull the intolerable pain and horror of our existential isolation. The destruction of the planet that would otherwise occupy the asteroid belt is synonymous with our disconnection from God source, the fountain of eternal nourishment. Are we embracing the organic crystal heart or accepting an AI replica?

The financial armageddon being orchestrated now may seem scary, but Venus was over-extended in rulership of two signs, and the cult of the Golden Bull had infected our hearts. We're getting a divorce from money as symbolic of finite worth and our malnourished soul. The double station of Venus and Chiron during this full moon activation of the Galactic Center pushes us to redefine our values by embodying our inherent divinity and intrinsic worth. The Theory of Evolution is part of the zeitgeist of always more, always better, never good enough, that ridicules and shames our past (and by extension our present) and teaches us to reject ourselves, lowering our self-esteem enough to be loyal servants of abusive pseudo-parents. Blinded by our own insecurities, we don't see the trap we so easily fall into. What if the thing we're most ashamed of is the source of our greatest power? What if our obsession with progress is de-evolving us, moving us further away from rather than closer to our highest potential?

Seeking gratification is a coping strategy that never truly fulfills. It's a lifestyle in which we're forever in a drunken fantasy about future happiness, but the present moment is the only thing that's real. Avoiding the present obscures the source of our discomfort so we can never resolve it. How much truth are we willing to sacrifice for comfort? Venus is comfort. Eris is truth. Prepare to be uncomfortable. Destroy the fake peace that stands in the way of real happiness. We're surgically removing the sacrum from the heart, but fear not. Pain opens the heart, which makes us cry, which opens the eye. Then we can see.

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