Denebola

Is THIS the star that was sending me the rainbow vibes last night ... tag teaming with Sirius? Both with their rainbow (aurora) support beacons?

I just tried to figure it out with my stargazing app. I need to look in real-time tonight if I'm up. I can't imagine I will be up again though... at 2:00-3:00 in the morning? 

Well, I've learned that Denebola is the "Lion's Tail" in the Leo constellation. Paul is a Leo. Why couldn't it have been Jeff? He had his chance too but it wasn't him. We love each other super duper much too but also would have been hard. TRUST GOD. Paul is THE ONE. (For you and through you and with you.) YOU CAN DO THIS. I know and see your fear. 

I think he had sexual relations with someone else last night. Could be psychic attack and could be real and either way, it's not for me. It's for me to compassionately witness and collapse it through LOVE. 

Anyway, I googled the image of this star and it looks a lot like Paul... this vibrant diamond white light and purple. Amethyst Order. Cetecean. 7D Gaia.

WE ARE ON TIME.

He'll be here tomorrow. I'll be leaving for the airport in 24 hours. He'll be almost here. Hopefully comfortable in first class. Hopefully Manson will be sleeping and comfortable and okay... poor guy. God, please take care of Manson!

2:14 We had a terrible experience with Moses this morning.... we = royal we. Moses's head got stuck in the fence and he was choking himself and panicking and almost broke his own neck and was suffocating! It was TERRIFING!! I was on my bed texting and thank God the heat wasn't on so I heard the ruckus with the fence but felt the energy - I started running and fell down and kept running desperately to get to him! I could hardly think to get him out but I did. We held eachother for a minute or two and then he was okay... shook it off. But VERY SCARY!

Last night Bobbi Jensen was in my dream...we were becoming aligned or working together on something in a store. 

This morning so many people talked to me - Kirk, Candice, Misha, Melanie, and Paul a little, but he's hiding. He's on the fence about telling me but I'm not giving him a warm and loving environment to air these things. He's not comfortable "confessing sins one to another that we may be healed".... he's just clogged up still. So am I, but he's in a bad way. This is what we are here to heal. So LOVE HIM!!

Hang with ME. We have each other and you LOVE HIM and show him how to love himself.

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Beautiful conversation with Paul. He said he is feeling disconnected from Alaska now. We talked about how he is coming home and how his energy is going to shift. I need to remember that. We (I) joked about how I'm requiring a PHD level dissertation on my emotionality and how that's not fair because he's been going through SO MUCH.

I have a poison dart in my being from talking to Julie and how she said she felt the same as I say I feel about him - the deep soul connection. I think he is a strong spiritual being and we are all "genetic equals" so she and he could have been like Tyrone and I... opportunities to heal and restore ourselves out of the Fallen Melchezidek state...and they tanked too. And he ended up in the pit too (in the form of homelessness, etc.) So actually this is more like a "parallel life" situation.... and again, WE ARE ON TIME... he is my MONADIC partner anyway... not soul mate. Tyrone and Julie were maybe soul mates... and we needed those relationships to heal on a soul level. But now it's time to put on the HGU as the Aeonic Pair WE ARE.

This is truth.

Thank you. See. We can work everything out. And again - we just need to LOVE one another. "Let there be LOVE!" 

I let the rest go. I CHOOSE to let the rest go. 11:11 <-- is where we BOTH choose to be on a scale of 1-10 about how excited we are to be together. Now if only I could not be so puffy! (Well, stop eating CRAP. But it's my coping mechanism.) 

We will carve ourselves out of the Shreks... rise like Phoenix!

Today a beautiful grey heron flew all the way across my field of vision from Bonnie Lane over the riding arena over Sioux's pasture! What does Heron say? Go inward? Meditate?

I pulled a Teal Swan "Labyrinth" (32) card that said to just hunker down...that I'm in a state of confusion and just don't make any decisions. Wait until the path is clear. 

I pulled a Judy Hall crystal card - Herkimer Diamond