FEAR (not)

I woke up freaking out, again, about Paul and this... also thinking I might be pregnant. I wondered if I got pregnant 11/26/21. Will it be a girl? Oh my gosh! And satanism and bondage?

Can't I just honor him in LOVE, not chains? UGH!

And with satanism, it's so ugly and there are so many distortions in it... some of it is so good though, breaking free of societal bondage and lies. Yehovah and Yahweh are equivocal to satan...false alien Gods... beings pretending to be God to steal people's energy and devotion and understanding and keep them CLOSED to the TRUTH that WE ARE GODS. WE ARE. 

So anything that breaks us of it... 
But blood is so distasteful. But I have to feel into it. There is so much that I need to feel into about the BLOOD. Right now especially. Ophicus. Red blood cells. Support the earth. Heal the blood. 

But I stayed up until, what, almost 3:30? and woke up at 8:45ish. I need more rest. 

I'm scared. Of this new life. Of Paul. Fear. What if our egos fight? 

FEAR IS A LIAR. Please remember.

So I freaked out today and then I sat down and I looked at the music list in front of me as I was thinking about closing the app and realized there is yet another message from God there.

So I just need to chill. Be fearless... play with Paul and on this earth. This is what I came for. FEAR NOT!!! I am walking through the valley of my own shadow but I have life eternal so just breathe!! Only one more time to step into a relationship with someone (Paul is the real deal and when we are together, we'll be together forever... I'm reading all that.... but this is it.) And ONLY I CAN. This is my project and mission. PAUL is my project and mission. 

And remember, beloved, you are not alone! You see the support you have?! SO MUCH. If you feel alone or scared, just sit with it and feel into it and wait. God... teams... support... is coming!

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THE BOOK OF ELI... that's the landscape I saw yesterday when I clinked in to that scorched earth timeline.
11:43 11:44

7th harmonic of 11th sphere/dimension? 11/7 11/8/9 11:48

11:54 WE ARE
12/9 12:12 (I saw 12:13am last night too) Now with "Come Let Go" Dec(12) 9 12:13
TRUST THE PLAN

I got Consietta as my daily AG pick and this is a briefing on what I'm working with now WITH PAUL. 12:14...I have to remember that he is doing his piece and I am doing mine and our job is to LOVE and ACCEPT each other and PLAY and CO-CREATE a life of joy freedom sovereignty. FEAR NOT.

https://ascensionglossary.com/index.php/Consettia

So here we go...
Totally in line. 

12:22 1:11 13:13 14:14

5:50 I just finished messing around with Paul's calendar pages... God that was HARD. Very yucky energies but we have to feel them. PLEASE DON'T LET ME FALL INTO THE PIT. Why would my beloved submit me to that? Why does he think it's okay to put that in front of me - I can't look like or live up to (nor do I want to) those women that he is attracted to. What the HELLLLLLLLLLCK! 

Michael just saw some of it and was yelling about how I'm making a mistake and I said I needed to go in to get my beloved. This is what I'm doing. Is this hero/savior? 100%!!!! Stop! So I have to stop hero/savior but I do feel like the universe keeps nudging me to keep moving forward. I DO feel like Paul is my long lost aeonic partner and this is what we have to do to restore ourselves. We are both messy. He doesn't communicate his fear to me much at all, but he must have some. 

I sent him this note a little bit ago. I just need to remain aligned to my own soul and truth. 

12/9 5:55