Cahokia Heart Healing

We leave on our trip tomorrow!!

Cahokia Mounds Research:
 
https://ascensionglossary.com/index.php/Cahokia_Mounds
https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Cahokia
https://whc.unesco.org/en/list/198
https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Cahokia_Woodhenge
 
Well after an eye…heart…opening talk with Rosemary, I see this great adventure to heal the heart at Cahokia Mounds has, of course, many layers…
 
We knew about the ancestral connection through my Monad or Avatar body… not sure which… Monad? Anyway, the Blood Sacrifice clearing may or may not be relevant here but it feels like it is. But the heart healing… the seed… black seed that projected the Anubian Black Heart and the resulting Metatronic Spirals is planted there and needs to be switched out with a Crystal Heart Seed. 
 
https://ascensionglossary.com/index.php/Thymus_Complex  I think that I’ve been in this process for a couple years… activating the Permanent Seed Atom. I think the Autumn 2019 heart stuff (and potentially the Autumn 2018 brain/sinus/pineal gland stuff) was all related. Slowly but surely this is coming on line.
 
So do we plug in to the heart complex in Cahokia for further activation?
 
I felt this was part of why I was sent there. Also to witness the civilization and destruction of said civilization. And to address my ancestral spiritual pride and the resultant gender split from self-sufficiency and wanting to BE God… usurp God’s authority. 
 
It’s another shot…another run at my 2011 contractual agreement for healing, thank you God for another chance!!!!! Thank you!! And the Ai Red Wave tried to thwart me again… the Alien Love Bite… but this time the Guardians were on the case! And I made it through. I have some lingering clean up to do … and need to keep… GET my heart in line, in humility. 
 
BUT HERE’S THE BIGGER PIECE for ancestral, family of origin, heart, and earth clearing…
LEARNING TO LOVE. Learning to HEAR. To Listen. To BE there for. To listen with my heart, not filter through mind or expectations or ego. Not trying to teach or change… just BE THERE FOR… Caden. Beloved angelic Caden.
He is here to heal the world and I am here to help him step into his own power. I can only do that by holding the vibration that I can hold… which isn’t as strong as his, but if I can hold what I can hold for him to get to the next level, he can hold it for us as we keep ascending. This is ancestral healing. This is genetic ascension. This is BIG.
 
So if I want to really heal my heart and heal the world, I have to heal Caden… but it’s not ME who heals him, it’s him healing him if I can just hold space in love for him to connect to HOW to do that. I can’t know HOW… that’s his own internal process. 
 
So to heal my own heart, I need to learn to SERVE others. Caden is the beautiful being (and a JOY) who I GET to serve… and I do that by not trying to change him. By honoring his heart, process, and experience.
 
By asking questions. 
By not making judgements.
By practicing telepathic communication… send images of colors and nature. (Rosemary’s suggestion… beautiful. She said he feels so much more on more layers than we can comprehend and it reminded me of how when I was trying to communicate with my parents and others how I would get tripped up because I was so sensitive to their thoughts. I didn’t realize I could read their thoughts, but that’s exactly what was happening and they had so many thoughts and they weren’t about what I was talking about so I felt UNHEARD. 
 
We do things in our actions but if they aren’t rooted in Truth, in Presence, then they are chaff and create these false realities, these pits and reversals. 
 

Note: Be sure to read Charlotte Session Transcript from June 21, 2021... lots of information on Cahokia Mounds and heart complex.

Stuff from today so far

 It's 11:44 and here are some things that have come up in the last few minutes. I have had a beautiful morning with some seepage of density as I connect to Source, thanks be to God. I surrender all! "You can't rush your healing!" "Be the change that you want to see". (Songs that came up to minister to my soul. So grateful for the songs, Oh God! For the guidance, beloved teams, through songs and bible verses and ES materials, especially the AG. 

Sent from Kirk - seems relevant:
https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Watcher_(angel)

I definitely feel like I'm given this opportunity to choose differently and I'm not doing as well as I'd like to. Yesterday's pain body/ego situation when it came to work... I hadn't slept well the night before... up every hour (sometimes more) to check on baby chicks outside....that probably added to it... so note to self- take care of your body! Rest and eat well. Speaking of eating well, we've eaten VERY rich meals the last two nights too. And lots of spinach. I need to do better. Control my gluttony. Lots of bread. It's not MY gluttony. I do not consent to any spirits other than those aligned with Christ!

And this is it. Abide in God... in Christ-Sophia who is the expression of Holy Father and Holy Mother... WE ARE. And this is my "job". ABIDE. 

And meditate. I've got to be more disciplined about meditating silently. Let's set a timer for 30 minutes a day and just force myself to do that. Breathe and meditate. 

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I won't be able to remember it...and that's okay. It's recorded in the consciousness of the earth. This afternoon I read an AG article on Neuroplasticity which I thought was SO good. About how we need to remain mentally flexible in order to hear our hearts. And I tried sharing it with Michael... the concepts... as I thought it applied to both of us. And he gets so defensive and won't hear anything that I have to say. But again, I know, I just need to listen, not speak. When I'm speaking, I'm not listening. Did I share that "best advice ever" from the other day? So good. 

Anyway, he is not open to anything outside of Torah and not willing for God to speak through his heart. He said it all sounds "New Agey"... and I just need to surrender. I'm not communicating this well... the love I have and the desire to help both of us open our minds and hearts that they would be connected in and to Source which is the only way we can move forward... or the main way, the best way, to move forward. I fear that this stance Michael is taking is leading him astray. It IS. He's now using porn and still drinking daily and addicted to his screen which he spends most of his day on... learning. I guess I'm here in my computer too... and I need to do more meditating and outside activities and connecting to Source myself.... the ORGANIC LIVING LIGHT instead of these AI imposters that are sucking our life force. But I'm scared this Michael beginning his slippery slope down. 

I mean, he was so brave to leave the systems of men and follow God. His broken heart from the loss of his family softened him enough to hear and follow God. But eventually it became a mental construct and ego personality and calcified into what appears to be prison bars. Thank you God for helping me to not have that happen, exactly. I have other things and my dang ego is definitely a problem, one I realllllllly want to surrender. But I fear for Michael. And I know, fear isn't the Way. Fear just creates energetic schisms and blockages... so watch as a compassionate witness. 

DO ME. LOVE ME. LOVE GOD. Don't approach Michael with mental constructs. Don't force his hand. Don't try to change or DO anything. Just BE. Be you, love God, love others, ESPECIALLY him. Your lack of judgement and your untethered love... that which isn't corded onto an expectation of any kind, THAT can be the alchemical agent to help soften his heart. Just love. 

You've tried and tried your whole life to change people with words. It nails the action in further. It is destructive. Your words are destructive. Keep those kinds of words reserved for OUR relationship, beloved. I want to work with YOU on that. This is between me and Me...US. Everyone else has their own process and relationship with Me and with themselves. 

Thank you God, for loving me so much and helping me so much! (tears) I'm grateful. 

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And here's that response from the other day:

Kiran, Thank you!! I this is such a helpful reminder.

Young teens certainly are not given one-on-one times of presence.  They, at least unconsciously, yearn for that. 

Kris, BEST ADVICE EVER!!! 

” if you’re talking - you’re not listening “. 

Huge thanks to you both for weighing in on this topic - I feel really supported and am grateful for your wisdom and experience. I'm also grateful to God who is calling me to step up my listening game... I know that's on the docket... to practice presence and compassionate witnessing and to release my propensity to push/pull energy (even if it did come from a desire to do/be "good"... it is still energy manipulation). Time to drop that and just hold space in love.

I loved what you said, Kris:

you can’t go wrong with being a trusted, calm stable adult...trustworthy and one who brings calm. He won’t remember as much of what you tell him but how he felt in your loving presence. 

Love and appreciation for you both and everyone holding energetic resonance with this topic as we learn to be the best stewards we can be.
Carissa

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Listening to /transcribing Charlotte session and came across:
https://ascensionglossary.com/index.php/Fallen_Angelic_Controller_Hubs 

Is the "wood henge" part of Cahokia the "one place in particular" with a nasty reversal vortex?

Raising Kids in the Matrix

 Here's a post I wrote on the forum just now... tippity typed it by thumb in my phone...

Just found this fantastic thread!! So much wisdom here. Thank you to all who have shared.  

I am looking for some resources to help onboard my 16yr old starseed nephew to the Law of One mission (which has been inherent in him since birth). But finding a way to communicate and provide context for what he feels and experiences in a meaningful way is challenging. I want to help him understand the lightbody and multidimensionality and portals of consciousness and negative ego and the “Matrix”, etc...but to do it in a way that makes sense and isn’t scary.

He isn’t my child and I don’t spend enough time with him to be able to “shepherd” or support him in a holistic way, but I do feel a level of responsibility for helping him and want to provide uplifting resources and not harm. 

I am afraid I’ve already imposed harm. I’ve made many mistakes, one resulted in my sister’s kids feeling the Greys/Zetas are a joke...surely due to misplaced levity as they witness my awakening. But a more serious offense involves a young lady that I’ve known and loved most of her life - my dear friend’s daughter. We lived together for some time too. She is a young teen starseed now and is working with gender polarity. As she was beginning to question her gender I was trying to share my own experiences (torment) with this. I shared some Ascension Glossary articles with her such as on “androgyny” and other related topics trying to communicate that we have both masculine and feminine parts of our being and the goal is to unite them in love, etc. Now I know that I can’t take full blame for this since I see her so rarely, but the 2-3 conversations (and the probably too high vibration of the AG?) probably contributed to her choosing to become a transgender boy. I see the fallout in her being (she’s now smoking pot and very disrespectful to her parents, for example.) I surrender and trust this is part of her work, but the takeaway for me is to learn how to be a compassionate witness only and listen to Source about when to share more. If I share more, there needs to be a better foundation and understanding about pain body and negative ego before addressing things like architecture and Law of Gender.

That’s one example and not all encompassing but it gives you an idea of where I’m coming from.

I have a road trip planned for just my nephew and I next week and I want to be supportive to him. At this point he is in such a bad headspace (I know he’s feeling all the shifts, activations and many ascension symptoms that we are)... so from what I understand, he just sits in his darkened room playing video games all day. He has online homeschool to some extent, but it feels to me like he is hiding out and really struggling. I can relate to being in that state myself and having no idea what was going on for years - and if there is anything I can do to ease his suffering and help him step into his God Sovereign Freedom, I want to do that. I know the CONTEXT for my experiences helped me so much - helped me begin to flow instead of resist. 

I hope someone has it in their mission plan to create an Ascension Glossary type thing for teens. I feel like both those kids are a ton smarter than me and they learn differently than me. They are sponges too - I just want them to sponge LIFE, not the death AI program that lines the Matrix they awoke in.

Anyway, if anyone ever sees this and has some suggestions for some God-self-directed type of resources for older kids or teens, I sure would appreciate it. I sent him Karen’s awesome YouTube channel as her videos are approachable, entertaining, and educational. 

Thank you all for being here and for the great work you are doing. Being a parent looks like the hardest job ever and I have so much respect for those of you working with yourselves and future generations in that way!

Love and gratitude,
Carissa

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Also, reflections on what happened with Gabe. Remember that you made an appointment with him and then cancelled it because it didn't feel right. I guess it was a week later Gabe called ME and gave me a session that I didn't ask for... he just started spewing off stuff....which was lovely... I was rocked. And I got a feather from him and maybe some other artifact which I think and hope and if I haven't, I give back. I do not consent to any artifacts from Gabe! I just realized that I felt like maybe I had accidentally corded on to HIM by sending him that silver and feather, but it might have been the etheric artifacts. Let's blow ALL THAT STUFF UP NOW!! Thank you God. I want NOTHING between Gabriel Aaron Dionne and I. May all his energies go back to him and all mine go back to me and that's THAT! No more visions or messages or songs... no more. 

I worked with Joe after that session too because it didn't feel right...but I kept going back. What the HECK?!

Okay. But it was part of what we had to witness and part of this Twilight Master healing. It's all good, beloved. But if you just LISTEN, we can keep you safeR! Okay darling One? Thank you God, thank you Guides, thank you Guardians. 

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This little game/exercise that Raven played in social media land today brought such joy to my heart!

She was just asking who would join her tribe ...

and I said:
Carissa Wages

A dream! Count me in!

Yesterday I was pondering how "civilization" has robbed us of joy, health, purpose, and ultimately life. I'm planning a trip to go see Cahokia Mounds (in Illinois near St. Louis) and feel into that once-booming Native American metroplex. My heart is calling me there to understand and hopefully help release some stored pain. But yesterday I was gifted with the opportunity to sit with some energy that is starting to move through me and I realized that that "civilization" is NOT the "Way". It leads to death. Becoming one in/with nature is the Way... small communities that live with respect for one another and Mother Earth is the Way.

Civilization leads to power struggles, pride, and ultimately destruction and disease.

Coming back to our roots and intended lifestyle of living in small communities among family who work together in love...caring for one another and the earth... that's the golden ticket IMO.

Don't Judge

Judge not!! Discern and allow without trying to change or apply pressure. Accept. Discern and accept ... there’s two of them. Then I can make space in my being for neutrality. Observe. Discern. Accept. Neutral.

Do not resist or judge. Allow all beings to choose their experience. 

I get to choose for ME. Choose LOVE. Choose HARMLESSNESS. Choose compassion without comment or value judgement. Hold space for what is. 

And again- CHOOSE to make decisions that are aligned with my HEART in Christ. May it be baptised in chrisma and in UNION with Holy parents of/as Christ-Sophia.

Let your words be few.

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I see elephants a lot lately.

And the whale seems to be touching the collective in our ES family, some siblings close to me anyway.

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Just had a lovely time on the hammock (saw elephants in the clouds....that's where I've been seeing them)... and by lovely, I mean HOT... in sun... burning and filling up with solar light, purging pain and darkness and lunar influences.

Also, sound tones and breath tones... songs... indian sounding songs and mourning songs and groanings that cannot be expressed with words.... where did Paul say that? I need to look it up. Oh, I remember... something about the holy spirit prays for (through?) us with groanings that cannot be expressed with words and that's what that felt like. I was accessing deep recesses in my brain and being through these sounds. 

I had some memories of Cahokia come up that I can learn from, that "civilization" is NOT the "Way". It leads to death. Becoming one in/with nature is the Way... small communities that live with respect for one another and Mother Earth is the Way. 

Civilization leads to power struggles, pride, and ultimately destruction and disease. 

Michael just reminded me how YHVH (but it could be the true God) commanded us to be fruitful and multiply and spread ourselves all over the earth. We were NOT supposed to go to cities. Was it Cain who went to a city anyway? That was in the book of Yasher, I think... but we choose cities for the satiation of the flesh... perceived ease, abundance, and convenience. But this is not the Way.

What is the Way? The Way of God. I need to look at that book down. Go get it. Okay. 

Got it. Wow. Thank you God. Yes. This is so good. 

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ps. I struggled with pizza today. I did what I shouldn't do... I compromised my conscience. No, you whiddled and wheedled and whined your way into an "okay" with your conscience...and still, you have approval to have the bottom part of the pizza with the doughy stuff... just no more big crust or oily cheese. And the pretzel was fine. You live on earth. Our body is taking good care of us.... and we want to take good care of her. I need to eat my veggies too. Okay. I will. 

But this is a real thing... a good exercise where you can see how it's easier and easier... the slippery slope... to keep compromising your self, your body, your mission. You are doing SO WELL overall. I'm SO PROUD OF YOU for making good choices. I love you.

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Note to "Green Team" telegram group:

"Love to ALL! I was going to do a video but it didn’t feel good as I started so let me just pop in to say that I appreciate everyone so much. As I expressed to some of my sisters already I am kind of on the same wavelength as Melanie expressed… called into “hermit-mode” and supposed to be just tucking in to God for clearing, upgrades, and integration, etc. 

This group and all my beloved friends are such a GIFT to my life and I want to just hang out with you all ALL the time, ha! But I also need to practice discipline as it can be all encompassing (learning balance in all ways). But this group and friendships are such an incredible opportunity to practice the other spirits of Christ including kindness, discernment, compassion, purity, humility, etc. as well, so I plan to hang in here and just interact when I can (which was Angela’s beautiful intention from the get-go… to provide a space where we CAN connect in this way WHEN it is aligned). So thank you. I am so grateful.

I DID want to share that I’m also on the bug train, Diana. On Monday I was taken through an exercise where I had to choose to clean up the NASTIEST nest of old bug carcasses and eggs and I was almost vomiting the whole time…but God showed me that this was my job and it was an opportunity to practice listening and following through with what guidance was telling me no matter how GROSSSSS! It was also a mirror of the work I needed to for myself… get in there and clean that up. Lots of bug messengers… lovely ones too… dragonflies and butterflies especially. 

I’m also on the whale train. I shared this in a post yesterday but thought I’d drop it here too since it is such a beautiful whale… so organic and life-giving!! 

Oh, and I also LOOOOOVVVED your post Glenn. I loved the passionate way that you stood up for Dustin and hope he heard it that way. I think especially men really need to hear stuff like that from other men. 

I don’t know if I officially welcomed Eddie, Laura, and Misha, but I wanted to do so now. Welcome! I am honored to call all of you…all of you in this group… my friend and sibling in Christ-Sophia. Grateful to be on this journey and mission with you. Peace be with your spirit. In love, Carissa"

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August 2011 newsletter talked about the consciousness split between the controller mentality vs. organic plasma light ... basically totally in line with what God is teaching me (which has been my experience with the newsletters all along). But really solidifies for me how I am healing a Fallen Angelic consciousness... feeling that the Oraphim parent came in to support me in this Indigo3 contract which was designed from the get-to to heal the Fallen Angelic which manifested in the "fallen shamanic consciousness" related to the Native Americans/Hispanic cellular ancestry which I am working with at present especially. 

This "spiritual leader abuse" is all tied up in this "shamanic" medicine man FKOT thing which I need to repent of once and for all. No wonder the trees and nature have been such amazing friends and mirrors for me... we've been working together a LONG time. 

Now it's time to fully surrender negative ego and submit fully to God in all ways. 

Did I tell you I got the "Seraphim Reclamation" meditation card today and it was sooooooo good. I've been doing it monthly as well, but today it felt so in line and perfect for my lifestream right now and the space I'm healing for my own ancestral healing, Michael's healing, and the pending Cahokia trip. Very powerful.

I'm called to scatter the KRYSTAL seed roses throughout the lower densities 1, 2, 3, 4.... I see them blossoming in my higher consciousness most days, but I need to allow them ... give them space and commit to service in allowing them to anchor in these lower densities. 

Whale Mural

Response in a thread:

Oh Emma! Your art definitely lifts my spirits! What a gift to our earth-plane this is... sacred creator codes in living color. 

I had no idea you were an artist! How awesome is that? I've been honoring mural-artists and their expressions within my being for the last couple weeks as I am in mourning about a mural that is on the side of the building slated to be refurbished for my brother's new restaurant. My heart breaks for the for the artist and pending loss of this message of peace that adorns this corner in the world. (sigh)

I've made it my background photo on my computer desktop and maybe by sharing it here it will help it to live on in a way as well. Beloved whale.

Anyway, I honor you and your art, Emma. What a blessing it has been to witness the expressions of our beloved family in Christ-Sophia... birthing more and more beauty into this plane, elevating it and our souls. 

ps. On the GWL and GEG ... feeling lots of what was shared too. Lately feeling into Fallen Angelic consciousness a lot. 

Emma said:

I’ve been anchoring GWL energies in my aura and feel to be a certain representative for this consciousness. 

I feel the same re: the GEG. I think one of my main pieces is working with rod correction, restoration, and healing and learning to do that through embodiment (including recognition, acceptance, appreciation, valuing) of divine feminine energies and the necessity to operate in unity. (My ego is saying "Duh! Of course! You already knew that!"...but it's the deep cellular knowing and the outflow of that which is the embodiment work that I'm involved in these days, thanks be to God.)

Love to all. Grateful for this thread, this forum, this community, leadership, guardianship, and God!

WAIT

"Wait" might be showing up as a theme. 

6/11/21 Guidance said "Wait"... showed me that sign just as I was asking a question...

Now this feels very resonant... and know the theme of healing my heart is big too....really appreciating this:

Yesterday's Charlotte session was absolutely incredible. A huge gift and encouragement from God.

Today I found myself again working with trying to help Michael to open HIS heart to God... I see that the problem with him (and it reflects MY problem) is the propensity to look at and follow mental constructs in order to "please God", versus sinking in to the Kingdom of Heaven within and connecting and responding to God through my heart. That verse about the heart being "deceitful and desperately wicked" (Jer 17:9) is an implant designed to disconnect us from God. 

Yesterday I read Jeremiah 31:33-34 that talks about the "new covenant" where God's instructions are written deep within us, written on our hearts and how we won't need anyone to tell or teach us how to know God because we all already will. 

I think these are the days of the new covenant.

This morning I was directed to Ezekiel 1 about the 4 beings with 4 faces ... man forward (n?), lion to the right (e?), eagle behind (s?), and ox to the left (w?) and the spirit in the wheels the wheels had what seemed like a rod/staff (cross) type of thing... one wheel turning vertically and one turning horizontally.

Well I can't put this stuff in the ES forum because it may be disrespectful or filled with implants? I don't know. I could. If you want me to. I do. Okay. 

I started to and it didn't feel right so I didn't. I don't have to DO anything and especially I don't have to TEACH anything. So humble myself and learn myself ("I want to be a knower of God so I can THEN be a wayshower of God." DRO).

Thank you beloved Holy Mother and beloved Holy Father and beloved Christ-Sophia! I AM GSF!

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How about this one?? Thank you God! :)

Clearing Personal Timelines

Big time... https://ascensionglossary.com/index.php/Clearing_Personal_Timelines

Just had a good cry after witnessing more in my written journals from 2006... I went through so much. I was a different person back then. That was before I became a narcissistic self-centered selfish lazy bum. I tried sooooo hard to do the right thing with Joe. I was more pure. Then what happened? Lust from craigslist ads? Betrayal and heartbreak? We'll see. But I applaud my strength and perseverance and how I genuinely wanted to do the right thing. 

Last night I had an INNNNCREDIBLE mirror merging time... I wrote about it in my written journal so I'll just touch on it here because it relates to clearing timelines. As I've written about before, I have all these other people that come into my awareness (mirror image) and I have been trying to accept and love them just as they are... but yesterday I was also led to do the Unity Vow... and surrender and I think I cried and repented of my pride and being a fallen angel and my black wings, etc... I can't really remember, but it was a powerful experience. Thank you God. 

What a life.  

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Today we started  https://ascensionglossary.com/index.php/Gemini

This is what I'm working on restoring: https://ascensionglossary.com/index.php/Personal_Christ

Resurrection Vehicle- https://ascensionglossary.com/index.php/Eukachristic_Body

Guard your heart

 Post response to Lisa's "Preserving our Sacred Heart" post:

Thank you so much for this educational and encouraging information, Lisa! I loved the HeartMath video and the session transcript and reading what everyone shared. Sabine, I can relate so much to what you have been experiencing too. I had what I now look back on as a heart opening and upgrade in the fall of 2019. I had that breathlessness and chest pains and high blood pressure for months (sometimes it got really low too) ...it was scary. In 2017 my EKG changed to "abnormal" so that was a factor that freaked me out too. (But again, I think it was aligned with planetary shifts and the ascension symptoms which have been rocking my body for many years.) 

Anyway, in 2019 I was still running to the hospital for help... going quite regularly... and they never found any heart attacks or anything but did send me to a cardiologist who gave me some tests and blood pressure pills. (Luckily God sent help to keep me from taking those devils... I have enough neurotoxins to clear!) Anyway, that whole rigamarole brought me to the end of my rope and eventually I felt there was nothing else to do other than just let myself die.

That was the craziest experience of my life to date... laying on my bed and allowing my death....surrendering into (what felt like) a heart attack. I just let it take me... it burned through my heart and radiated up my neck, head and arms. I guess it's like birth pains which they say you can't really remember when you look back, but I hold the mental construct about how intense and painful that experience was. The crazy thing was that I didn't expire!! And it was the beginning of my next chapter. A couple weeks later I joined ES and off I went! Whee! 

"Guard your heart above all else for it is the wellspring of life."  (Proverbs 4:23)

Regarding the emotional aspects of the heart, I've heard (and stood on my soapbox declaring) this phrase above for a big chunk of my life. Despite that, I continued to sustain (allow...create) damage. I see now how the "guarding" of the heart can also manifest as putting up walls and shutting it down. I guess there is a difference between guarding from the heartset of the spirits of Christ (discipline, purity, kindness, humility etc.) and guarding from negative ego. 

This year I seem to be going through another level of heart opening and upgrade, presumably my permanent seed atom is coming online and/or working out some glitches in the process of embodying my Crystal Lotus Heart. I'm also clearing some old wounds, reversals and a giant shard.

My circulatory system is a trigger and I know it's because I'm sensitive to my connection to the earth's macrocosm (from the space of my microcosm). My "vein anxiety" has come back in a big way. It comes and goes but has been on high alert lately. I can just see everyone's veins and my own veins and it triggers fear in me. I worry whether they are working properly and see distortions. I know this is mental body fear programming and am grateful for the opportunity to PRACTICE witnessing with neutrality and brining love to the fear and the veins... so that's just my work now. And continuing to clear blood covenants . 

Thank you for the space to process this and grateful for the resources and encouragement which is perfectly aligned, as usual. 

Katie's post with the Heart Scar Clearing was really helpful too! 

Pearl of Great Price

 Why and how did I get this again?? I guess the first time it came through a different source... but PAY ATTENTION.

God, what would you have me do? Give EVERYTHING to FOLLOW and HOLD ONTO this PEARL OF GREAT PRICE!

And this is very good too... I know You are close and I know you are healing my heart. 

Healing with the Shamanic Fathers

 Because we have to CHOOSE differently.

What got us into this mess in the first place was the spiritual pride and vittles of the flesh. We loved the feeling of being looked to as God (in a way), for our expertise and authority… we loved the adoring public… it inflated our ego until it was so big that it thought it was brighter than the true Creator God. 

Isaiah 14:12-14
12 “How you are fallen from heaven,
O shining star, son of the morning!
You have been thrown down to the earth,
you who destroyed the nations of the world.
13 For you said to yourself,
‘I will ascend to heaven and set my throne above God’s stars.
I will preside on the mountain of the gods
far away in the north. e
14 I will climb to the highest heavens
and be like the Most High.’

It’s the Holy Father side that I’m primarily working with and we have to learn to love and respect the Holy Mother… we need to look at her as an equal. We have to recognize her value and her beauty and our need for her. 

We came to help connect others to God but instead we got connected to the anti-God… anti-life… the reversal ai networks, which we then became a force of power for…  

Our consciousness was split and we have been caught in a rip-tide, so to speak. But as we humble ourselves and call for the true Light to see and forgive us ...

2 Chronicles 7:14
...if my people who are called by my name will humble themselves and pray and seek my face and turn from their wicked ways, I will hear from heaven and will forgive their sins and restore their land.

When we open our eyes and hearts to see the other, to see Holy Mother, then her healing Presence brings in sound tones and light codes that allow us to release the stored miasma… the millions of years of war, self-sufficiency, fear and fear mongering as well as the deep shame we feel from being disconnected from our beloved and our Source. 

We need each other to finish this work, to repair the breech, to rescue our hearts and find the intended experience in love, unity, and truth. We were meant to inhabit the earth together in love, joyfully caring for it and recognizing her value and taking pleasure in all beings….together. Together. 

The power play is self-inflicted poison…heroin… it makes you feel alive and connected and whole for a minute, but it reverses the way, truth, and life and paints a lie….an ai matrix that is harder and harder to break free of with every “hit”. The mental body negative ego is always whispering service-to-self…. "Just make yourself comfortable and then you’ll be better equipped to deal with X"… whatever it is. Further and further in the quicksand we sink.

I AM. And that’s all. The rest is a trap and construct. 

I want to find that peace in BEING. I want to help free my beloved souls and friends who are working this Ascension with me. I want to find unity, wholeness and peace for them. I want them to be healed. I want them to know they ARE FORGIVEN. See you are free …. just see it and believe it and walk out from behind the shame and anger and bitterness and lies and set aside your pride. Love feels a lot better if you can believe it. Try it. 

Dependence is recognition that we are stronger together, that we are all One, that it’s not about me/you… we need one another and when we share our love, we all grow. We all heal. 

I love you dear souls. I accept this mission with honor and I love you. I am learning how to access organic love…the living light of truth in God… available to us as Christ-Sophia. You have always been Kryst-Krystallah…. but you cut half of yourself off and tried to do it on your own. Sophia was hurt, abandoned, betrayed and embittered and sunk into the Dark Mother form, the inorganic feminine… she had to learn to source her own energy/power through manipulation and control. And the masculine took on the False King of Tyranny energy, creating sparks to bolster ego and be the master of his domain by whatever means necessary. Other lives were of no concern… it’s his DUTY to keep HIS gates… his family… his possessions… his land "safe”! 

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Whoo. Some of what came through just now. Thank you for witnessing. There’s more, but I want to thank God for allowing me the opportunity to work with this piece and I pray for peace for all the souls involved. I love you. 

Cahokia Mounds calling...

 Here's the post from my spiritual journal, but I also want to share what I transcribed from that part of my Agni session. I need to transcribe the whole thing. It is filled with valuable information.

The patriarchal side is coming up...28 generations, you took on a huge contract…I see 

Native American tribal lineages…Mexican, Columbian, Puerto Rican, variations of shamanic lineages, high priests even, all Krystic beings, they just got so much attached to this field, they wanted to do the ascension with you…this is what I feel, they were talking to you constantly…

Beloved brothers, I am your compassionate witness, thank you thank you thank you for your million year journey, thank you thank you thank you for serving humanity and oneness, I am that I am, we are unity…

She helped transit them…not everyone went but she saw "lots of trauma, they have been massively butchered and persecuted, and absolutely victimized in every possible way. These are such huge beings that they didn’t even fit into one physical body so they literally incarnated in hundreds of bodies all over the land mass of the ancient American lands pre Atlantis and pre Lemuria … it’s a very ancient shamanic priesthood which went through a lot of crap, way beyond imagination and you have it encoded in your deep cellular layers which is obviously your job to do so it was divine intention that you have to do this but it caused lots of blockages in your ascension, obviously. You’re not only ascending yourself but millions and millions of avatars you’re ascending as a paliadorian.

They were going through some holy rivers in South America which she wasn’t free to tell me about, but she was free to tell me about the Mississippi creatrix field.

Here's the post:

MONDAY I was OVERCOME with the desire to get in my car and drive to  Cahokia Mounds   My car needs some extensive repairs and wouldn’t make it 2 hours, let alone 13… so I started looking for another way… a new car (nope… lesson there to be grateful for/fix what you have)…I tried asking some friends to go - we could take their car and I’ll pay for gas…. nope. Later I thought to ask my sister to borrow HER car and take my 16 year old (Krystic starseed) nephew on an adventure. Nothing.

Okay God. Why was it planted so BRIGHTLY in my heart? To learn.

I’ve been learning a lot about how I do gridwork through connection to people. For example, right now my consciousness has been working in California, and God brought a number of Californian’s into my world to share hearts and to work with for this season. I got California as a daily AG pick after (or during) this revelation as well. 

I’ve been to Vermont and Colorado in dreamstate and I spoke before about the Hawaii connections which helped me link to some key places and timelines… and the other day I got to connect into New Mexico (as I’ve had it on my heart to go there since February 2020 (and at the end of last year I realized my sleeping dragon ex-hg-turned-anti-hg partner is there sitting on a vortex (I suspect a descending hub, but don’t know). Anyway, NM has been on my heart, Joe’s there and then Gabe and Maren went there so it’s been buzzing around my consciousness and then 2 days ago one of our beloved star siblings went there (I’ll let her reveal it to you in DRT) and I got to “ride along” with her for an hour or two in the car… got to go through Rosewell…oooohhh eeeeyyyyy ooooooohhh. She sent some photos too… did you know there was LAVA in New Mexico? Wow, yeah, thank you God!

Back to Cahokia Mounds. 
I got that  as an AG pick  last year sometime and it really struck a chord in my heart… I knew it resonated deeply but just tucked it away. When I got it again May 16 it really piqued my interest… awakened me more on some level…. It’s like waking from a dream, isn’t it? Where you kind of want to keep sleeping, but someone or something keeps tapping at you to get up…. that’s what that was like. But I hit snooze again.

On Sunday our sister Lisa F.  posted  about her potential upcoming trip back across the country and I responded saying that I had an interest in going to  Cahokia Mounds  and maybe she could check it out if she goes by. I then went to the  UNESCO site  and looked it up again. Didn’t look like much, but I tucked it back in to my heart. 

MONDAY I woke up thinking that I needed to talk to Agni. I had one session with her last July and it was absolutely incredible. I thought, okay God, maybe it’s time to ask again if she is able to work with me. Nope. She couldn’t. But while I was writing her the request I had a niggling that maybe I just needed to listen to my session from last year so I did… not all of it since it was many hours long, but the part that I was led to was PERFECT…she was working with me to do some ancestral clearing and it was incredibly powerful (lots of ugly crying… tears and snot pouring out of my face!)! But she talked about my patriarchal ancestors being connected to Native American tribal lineages…Mexican, Columbian, Puerto Rican, and she talked specifically about the Mississippi… it lit my heart up and I feel that these are my people (in some way) at Cahokia Mounds. 

A fire burned in me to go RIGHT AWAY. I tried to really watch that feeling and thought about how there is a verse that says … “God isn’t a god of disorder but of peace…” from 1 Corinthians 14:33 …but definitely felt COMPULSION to go. Need more information on that feeling... is it strong guidance or a trap?

Well today, Friday, my sister called and responded to me about my request to take my nephew (and her car) and it’s a GO (after Caden agrees which is still dicey as it sounds like he is really feeling ascension energies too but doesn’t have the tools to deal with it so just wants to stay locked up in his room playing video games. If you read this and can send a prayer for this beloved soul, I sure appreciate it.). 

I talked to a man at  Cahokia Mounds  today and he suggested I watch the introductory video before I come because their theatre is currently under repair. Guess what the video title is? “City of the Sun”!!! (I haven’t read the newsletter yet - waiting for some sacred time later today to do so, but it’s title includes “Solar coding” so this feels aligned. So much “sun” and “solar” themed learning this year, thanks be to God!)

God willing, if it all works out, in the next week or two I hope to road trip through NC, VA, WV, KY, IN, IL, MO, TN. 
 

I’ve been to all those states before (except maybe Missouri unless I rode through there on a bus trip to Yellowstone which is possible)... but I definitely don’t remember going to St. Louis and definitely not to Cahokia Mounds. I have to keep saying it to make sure this is real. God’s will be done. Don’t let me go unless this is 100% beneficial and aligned with the Krystic Law of One mission and the reclamation of Christ-Sophia. I am willing to go and want to make myself available to hold space for my ancestors. I know we are connected and have experienced the consciousness connection, that portal or access gateway or whatever it is that allows us to witness one another, from right here in my front yard. So if all I have to do is bring consciousness to it by learning and watching videos, etc. that’s great and sounds a lot safer too. But I do not consent to FEAR holding me back from my mission anymore… I got waylaid for many years in this fear-pit and I must continue putting one foot in front of the other to walk out of that mental trap. 

So… God, you lead, thank you!

I was hoping to meet up with Candice in western North Carolina in early July, but if I go, I may get to see her in her native land (KY) as well!

Song that came up a bunch last week:  Follow the Sun
Beloved:  Wash It Away