HG Union

 I've been listening to the ... I don't know if it was November or December... I think November 2019 Ascension Call with Lisa and Tomas talking about their relationship and HG unions etc. 

It has been providing some understanding for me in regards to both Tyrone and Gabe. Again, maybe Gabe is just a placeholder, but he IS a placeholder for something. Discerning the Red Cube (and/or nudges from God about our beloved), learning how to surrender and trust God to lead...and trust Gabe to respond.... I can't push it... canceling and clearing Black Magic and Twilight master propensity (for both of us). The gift of seeing our connection blossom through those who we both are assigned to... I can only imagine this is why I'm all of a sudden FRIENDS...like true beautiful soul sister friends... with others Gabe is helping... not everyone, of course, but Rosemary, Staci, Laura, Misha (though I don't know if he feels he can help her... but he can and we will/do. She's a sleeping giant). 

I very much believe that my relationship with Tyrone was God-breathed. I almost said that I felt it was intended as a Hierogamic Union...but I'm not sure if I believe that. I believe God used it both as a channel to place me on my mission path for reconnaissance into the Metatronic Reversal Vortex (and out again)! And also to help activate and awaken our brother Tyrone who is also a sleeping giant.  I feel strongly he is an Indigo as well and has an Indigo3 contract and he, like me, had both Oraphim consciousness as an observer, but also very strong Nephilim consciousness that had claws in his flesh. 

I was definitely used as a dark portal to attack him. I remember the demons laughing through my core... I could hear and feel them. This is my work, closing up those portals of consciousness, those wormholes through my lightbody. 

There was tremendous potential for and through our union but we both chose flesh or ego in one way or the other and ultimately it resulted in mission failure. Even as we were both ascending ... (I know that the "overlapping realities" that I experienced the day I went to the mental hospital were part of discerning multidimensional planes)... but we didn't have guidance or grounding in order to integrate the new energies. And we were looking in the wrong place. I was looking so much to my Negative Ego and mental body (reversal masculine FKOT nature) ...oh and also trying to push and manipulate to get my way (reversal feminine Dark Mother nature). 

I keep wondering if God will rescisgitate that union, but I sense that it is closed. I think him showing me Tyrone's current state of mind and being was to help me let go. And now, especially, that he has the vaccine in his body... he is on a different path for sure. God, I know you will get him back... I know you will and pray it is SOON...NOW...but he is not my divine partner anymore... and in fact, may just have been training ground for the "real deal". 

I am integrating my monadic identity right now and it's powerful work... big and important work... and until I have my divine KRYSTAL diamond (double diamond) heart online, I am not ready for my partner. 

That's not to say that I'm not being prepped and given hints and work to do.... this is why I feel like it really may be Gabe. When did I start thinking that? Last fall sometime? It's like it triggered the whole thing to process and understand and release Tyrone and the broken architecture of that in order to make room for the true Christic architecture we are designed to have.

I'm probably ruining it by talking about it... it feels like gossip because I want to...my heart longs to...discuss it with GABE... but he doesn't want me. I feel that. And it hurts. That's the betrayal. I wish I hadn't sent that message to Emma... I felt like she was experiencing the same thing and was trying to comfort her but it was hijacked and I shouldn't have ... I just shouldn't. I need to be like, was it Mary?, who kept all those secrets in the depths of her heart. These are secrets between Gabe and I... and even if he doesn't want them yet, he's coming along.

We both are shedding our mental body and negative ego... we are both here doing this work. We are doing complimentary work. The freaking prayer the other day ago was another hand on the shoulder from God. And my phone putting him up there to think about... (when I am sending AG articles to myself it makes suggestions of what I might want to do.) It doesn't suggest email...but it tells me often to text or Telegram Gabe (I've never Telegram'd him so it's so strange that that even comes up. I DID consciously connect to see when he joined but I am in a holding pattern... reaching out to him is only scaring him and making him feel like I'm a psycho... which makes ME feel like a dang psycho. The whole thing is strange ...but beautiful if I take a step back. God is peeling the layers back to get to the fruit of the onion so we can ...what? Merge together? Onions don't merge... oh... UNIONS... lol, okay. Anyway... yeah I just need to let it take it's course. 

And of course it might change. Gabe has to come on board... and I need to stay on board. But if we continue the pursuit of God that we are both on, I think we will ultimately be brought together. But again, if I had mission failure before, it means it could happen again. But I am keycoded for a Genetic Equal as a pathcutter at this time. I need to keep healing my body, mind, emotions, and spirit so that I...and we....can stick around a long time to support this part of the ascension. Thanks be to God!