Vincent thank you so much for your sharing. This whole thread has been POWERFUL. As a woman who is working (surrendering) hard to purge these satanic and luciferian forces from my being, I am so appreciative of this insight. I just want to tell you how very sorry I am for all the pain I/we have caused.
The “eye” is a great analogy and I do feel that there is a kind of wicked witch energy that is watching through a magic mirror as we are pawns in a larger game (checkers? King me!) than we comprehend. When our higher selves step down to help us authentically and organically see, then it gets really interesting, aye?
So much of this is covered in Black Magic that encompasses many pieces that I’m working through in my own being. Twilight master , Imposter spirit , Princess Code , Lunar Forces and the deeply embedded Dark Mother and False King of Tyranny energies...not to mention the good ole pain body and negative ego stirring the pot.
Some of this, for me, for this incarnation as Carissa, has come through my bloodlines - hybridization trauma, etc. Some through holes ripped in my lightbody as a child, some through false parent and society/training, and some through possession/giving myself away at my own hand.
The energetic tangle that I created for myself through my own self-loathing has lead to a lifetime of confusion. I have gaslit myself.
Gaslighting. That’s what I do. Have done. Don’t want to do now. Gaslighting over and over and over. It's from not being in touch and aligned with the truth within me and then trying to convince others (and myself) that what my mind and mouth is saying is right. It's rooted in cognitive dissonance and spins off a ton of confusion and other nefarious energetic reversals and soul hijack which is designed to cause dissociation. Thanks be to God I'm getting re-associated... pulling myself together.
Dark entities whispered that I am weak and disrespected and that my contribution is discounted because I am a woman. For me this was very subconscious… I don’t remember feeling that I was a victim for being in woman’s body, although until recently I rejected and resisted even thinking about it because I guess I have not appreciated this. Despite hating myself, or maybe because of it, I found myself being trained as a feminist in my all women’s college and know that some of those energies fuel Dark Mother who is determined to reclaim “power”. I remember marching around chanting “Women unite, take back the night!” which is, of course about reclaiming our sovereignty and exposing the traumatic abuses that are experienced by so many women…and men. But there was a spirit that also worked through that energy to sew distrust and division into my heart, enemy patterning .
As an Indigo, even in just this one incarnation I have tried on many different lives/experiences and I’ve been masculine and feminine, homosexual and heterosexual, feminist and misogynst, abused and abuser… I’m grateful to have experienced these things. I wish there were a way to distill my experiences in a way that provides helpful insight and soothing energy to those who have been harmed. I am working on doing that in my own life in my being and with all the beloveds that I have shared space with during this incarnation…. trying to feel into and heal the schisms through compassionate witnessing.
I wanted to mention that it seems that Dark Mother uses soul bindings to suppress and punish men which inflates the damaged ego... making her feel strong as the other is taken down a peg.
An example of how that looked in my life is I would use these "great job BUT” jabs which left the person with a feeling of cognitive dissonance... I shine bright (false) light so for a minute they feel seen and accomplished while at the same time I’m sticking a knife in them and tearing them down. This was a vampiric activity to cord onto them and feed off their loosh as well as to make me feel superior (and mask the supreme inferiority and betrayal and sadness that I truly felt).
It’s kind of like how we use addictions to provide physical relief or distraction from our torment... how we trade our sovereignty to get a break from the torture. But this also applies to the pain body... for a little hit of "loosh” (like adrenochrome!)... the Satanic energy that makes us feel powerful for a minute... we are trading a piece of our souls to feel better and we get addicted and it creates energetic patterning (and not a pretty one) that leads to further soul damage and imprisonment (at our own hands).
Our reptilian ego brain wants to be the puppet master and does everything it can to hold our souls hostage. My (imprisoned, lunar inflicted) fearful mind wanted to control everything in order to keep my ego feeling safe, so it manipulated people and situations (mostly my husbands) in order to create that reality. My heart (before it was damaged and blackened by my own lies) felt cognitive dissonance, knowing that there was a misalignment….but as I ignored my conscience, it lost power and retreated and before I knew it, my heart was offline….
Okay, but back to female satanic forces. I have been working with this train of thought for a couple months. Something came up in a session with Charlotte connected to a past life trauma in 7D Gaia. During one of the invasions, a level of my monadic feminine was raped by Dragon Moth entities which resulted in hybridized offspring. At the same time, my monadic masculine was traumatized by having to watch this happen to his beloved, and ashamed that he locked down in fear. Fight - Flight - Freeze… and he “froze”.
My thoughts are that this set the feminine up for a split/cognitive dissonance (and eventually dissociation which allowed the space for Dark Mother infiltration). First, her lack of security had been breeched. Second, she had to wonder why her beloved didn’t show up/stick up for her. Third, perhaps there is confusion and more cognitive dissonance over the deep love she feels for her child who is the fruit of her loins and also the product of trauma-rape who carries anti-life force in their being.
And on the masculine side…perhaps instead of addressing the guilt that threatens to swallow him because he thinks he has failed, he decides to prove his strength or “manliness”. Could he be overcompensating to achieve status and power and in doing so cut off the communication, connection and shared dependence that is a part of divine union?
So maybe there is deep rooted bitterness in our divine feminine for being abandoned as an equal? And maybe there is deep rooted anger in our divine masculine for not feeling honored and respected by the feminine when he tries so hard to show how strong and capable he is.
I wrote a bunch of stuff about how the hybridized child fits into the equation as well but that gets complicated.
I also think the religious/ “original sin” program (which is an overlay to hide the deeply imbedded pain, fear, shame, etc. from the traumatic cataclysms and wars we have experienced in different timelines ) leaves these dense feelings of guilt and shame programs running. This is then exploited by the biggest brightest button the Dark Mother pushes... the “critical” button… the one that says "you didn’t do this right", and "couldn’t you have done this better?” That stuff emasculates a man, especially, because those who are pure in heart are genuinely trying their best. But with this “you’re never good enough” energy, eventually they are worn down…. and Dark Mother wins… and has two empty souls in her clutches… the spirits of both man and woman are left in tatters.
I’ve gone on long enough. The GOOD NEWS is that we are unearthing this madness now… the Solar Rishi (etc.) are here shining the light of God (through us) into this gnarly festering root-ball and it is being dug out to be thrown into the fire.
ps. I'm sorry if there is any eye/ reversal/ lunar distortion/ black magic/ dark mother energy in my sharing. I feel like it rides the waves of my communication, always trying to make a little twist here or there... I'm on high alert, but still very much in the process of identify, locate, remove, and repairing this infiltration. I love all of you very much with my Krystic heart... I just need to keep peeling back the layers of darkness that are trying to squelch the chrisma.
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Pieces I didn't share:
Everyday I walk over a particular tree's root structure … I’m very fond of it and I first thought it looked like an EYE. I first thought of it as “Neferti’s Eye” then the “Eye of Horus” and then the “Eye of Ra”. (None of which I know much of anything about.) Anyway… I’ve paid attention to this eye every day… usually twice a day (as I walk my dogs)... and just a couple weeks ago, I realized that if I look at it from a different direction, it looks like a vagina. Ha! I’m not sure what the significance of this is, but I’ve shifted from an “eye” to connecting "living earth root energy". I sometimes sit on it and pray with the forest (as it is on the edge of a forest. There are a couple “V” shaped trees that cheer me on).
Here's more thoughts on that 7D consciousness
Okay, but back to female satanic forces. I have been working with this train of thought for a couple months. Something came up in a session with Charlotte connected to a past life trauma in 7D Gaia. During one of the invasions, a level of my monadic feminine was raped by Dragon Moth entities which resulted in hybridized offspring. At the same time, my monadic masculine was traumatized by having to watch his beloved be raped, and ashamed that he locked down in fear. Fight - Flight - Freeze… and he “froze”.
My thoughts are that this set the feminine up for a split/cognitive dissonance (and eventually dissociation which allowed the space for Dark Mother infiltration). First, her lack of security had been breeched. Second, she had to wonder why her beloved didn’t show up/stick up for her. Third, in the confusion over the deep love she feels for her child who is the fruit of her loins and also the product of trauma-rape who carries anti-life force in their being/DNA. Fourth, perhaps she feels (or has imagined) disdain her beloved may have toward the child. Does resentment creep in because she feels she has to choose between loyalties to her partner vs her child?
But does the masculine resent the child or does he just feel abandoned/like an outsider as he now has to share his love with the “enemy”’s child? Also, perhaps instead of addressing the guilt that threatens to swallow him because he thinks he has failed, he decides to prove his strength or “manliness” by running off in his own power. Could he be overcompensating to achieve status and power and in doing so cut off the communication, connection and shared dependance that is a part of divine union?
She probably resents this but they don’t really talk about it… they just try to “get on with their lives” and in doing so without processing, some very deep reversals are planted… and those roots go deep. The root of bitterness in the woman’s heart that her beloved DIDN’T step in… even though she doesn’t know that he tried and failed… freezing wasn’t his fault… it was a trauma response… and because they didn’t work through it, and he didn’t admit weakness, and she didn’t admit feeling scared and neither of them admitted feeling betrayed and not seen or understood because they didn’t want to re-traumatize each other… it just got swept under the rug to turn into what it is today… two individuals striving to be seen and feel power and control and security…pulling energy back and forth until one or both of them are empty shells.
So maybe
There is deep rooted bitterness in our divine feminine for being abandoned as an equal.
There is deep rooted anger in our divine masculine for not feeling respected by the feminine when he tries so hard.
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I spend most of today with this... at least 6 hours writing and reading and re-writing this... what was I doing? Was it dark mother or God-consciousness shuffling through this energy? Were there positive integrations or was it my reptilian brain trying to control this? Maybe both.
So get away from it now. Shake it off. And keep ILRR dark mother, black magic, etc....
I don't do so well when I have to share in the forum... it messes with my ego... and it's not necessary... and invites judgement (by myself especially).... Dark mothering myself!
I wish I had been more personal and talked more about my life's experiences...but... shoot. It's that dang "teaching" energy which tries to keep my ego in control which some people respond to. Just be prepared this one will not get a Thank You from Lisa and the fact that you want one is ucky too. So we see it.
Just love ME. BE HERE NOW. It's you and me kid! I LOVE YOU!
You did good today... it was brave of you to send that email to Gabe. Oh, here it is:
Dear beloved (screenshot/image of Brave Heart Care Bear),
There’s lots to be learned from the crazy stuff that went on between us in the ethers the last couple months… there were lots of opportunities to observe, discern, accept, neutral… and practice GSF. As of 6/11 I feel freed to work in the debrief stages. I don’t know if you did something that day, or if it was from a planetary shift or if it was from the important interaction I had with my guides regarding the topic…but either way, I’m relieved! I’ve been going through it alone as I was supposed to but if you ever want to talk through it, it might be educational. Truth or consequences indeed.I’m happy to talk about it with Maren and/or Rosemary there too… it was what it was and although my 3D ego self has a lot of discomfort around it, seems there was a lot of work with black magic including twilight master, princess code, lunar distortions, and of course DM and FKOT patterning trying to take the wheel. There were some absolutely beautiful lessons too!Anyway, talking about it would require you to feel into it too which is not comfortable and it’s possible that you are unaware of what I’m talking about and if that is the case, then please disregard this whole thing. Ha!You are a brother and supposed to be a friend and this thing was and is a pathcutting project.With love, gratitude, and respect,Carissa
So don't worry - everything is for my own evolution to get me better equipped for the next level so that I can hold more light so I can be a stronger acupuncture point/frequency keeper for this plane and do my work better/more efficiently.
Take a bath. Do a meditation. Fallen Tree. You also need a walk and lunch ...but it's 6:35pm so you need dinner... ahhhhh! BREATHE. All is well.
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