Good email

 I was in meditation...or sweet time with God outside...sitting on the dog bed, ha! But I was led to look at this email and I don't THINK I posted it here but do want to because now that I re-read it 2+ months later I see that it is REALLY GOOD. Gabe didn't see it...or let on... or hadn't... but it was honest and I'm grateful and pleased with my courageous inner child for writing it. So I want to save it. 

God is directing me to the "Law of Structure: Michael-Mary Wings" today... 12:23... so I'll do that as soon as I finish here.

Did I mention that I get SO MANY number codes in communication with Misha. 

Anyway, here's the email... it's from a long time ago...

On Apr 22, 2021, at 9:10 AM, Carissa Wages <crwages@gmail.com> wrote:

Beloved Gabe,

Hopefully this email works… too long to text, ha!

Let me start by saying that I hope you and Maren will come live with me one day - I want to take care of you and be with you and serve with you. This could be Dark Mother energy, but I choose to witness it and sincerely mean it! Big shifts are happening and I wonder if that is a timeline possibility?!!? :)

For me Lunar Forces are being evicted - shadow coming up for witnessing and wormholes being closed. 

This thing (mental and emotional storm) yesterday was aligned with my life review how I obsess and fall into mental bondage loops especially around wanting to be cared about by a man. I feel both the divine connection and the repulsion (since I do not appear beautiful ... my Godself is, but my physical being reflects the gaping wounds that my inner child is working to heal). I know there is negative ego mixed in there, please disregard that, but there is truth too. 

7D violet ray reversals surfacing for healing. You know the left ring finger is 7D axiatonial line and has to do with monadic integration and HG union. Help awaken and reclaim your finger tips by squeezing the axiatonial line/tips of fingers and toes (as modeled in meditation entitled Inner Male-Female Recoding Calibration from July 2011). 

Fear of upsetting people (then they won’t like me and will push me away) along with dark mother (control and wanting to dominate or get back at the oppressors), along with ego (wanting to be seen as smart) keeps me tied up in confusion and circles. I've taken on the challenging task of unraveling this gordian knot!

Okay, here's the meat of my feedback... I wrote it most succinctly to myself for my journal yesterday. I have pages upon pages of journal processing from our session which was SOOOOO powerful and beautiful... but I won't bore you with all that. I feel that this insight is important for you and your work.

"Oh yeah, don’t forget- almost mind slid away- the intimacy with Gabe (because he wasn’t fully calibrated in HGS) messes with me/us. He had a strong Christ presence and masculine architecture which my lightbody is looking for in its partner. That kind of intimacy is like having spiritual sex... it opens us up and causes confusion and the whole thing where there are cords intertwined. Not healthy for me or him or Maren, especially. I know that if/when I share this, it will be the end of our relationship- but it will help him and others going forward.

I want the relief and support associated with his “help” holding structure for my lightbody but it isn’t healthy or right. So I have to eschew my own desires and surrender- and cut cords with him." <--note, I do this often with you, but it doesn't completely work... since I first touched your energy signature you have been with me.

I really wanted to bring this up to help you understand what can happen, and so you can guard yourself and your beloved and it reminded me of that guru-desciple type of sexual misery program. Thanks be to God for the intel. Those people start genuinely trying to connect and serve others with this energy and architecture, but just like with the numerous spiritual leaders that are swept away by delusion and vittles for their flesh, this could be a foothold. So many Ai Red Wave distortions trying to get us. This anti-HG one is especially strong. Perhaps this is a little dramatic, but I am not exaggerating when I say that my heart and being has been through a LOT since our session. Lots of opportunities to choose God and love and to see negative ego and distortions. I'm still confused about whether it is God's will because that structure was SO supportive to me... it continues to be. The day after I felt you there (not you, your albion body) and I wanted to bring you close so that I could continue my work... merge with that energy and keep going, but I felt like it was cheating on Maren or something so I didn't... intentionally. I wasn't as strong as I would like to be... I kind of sat with it instead of fully rejecting it but I didn't pull it close. I started praying for God to lead and that their will be done in the Way of Christ-Sophia. And that's it. I have to leave it there.

But then the distortions came yesterday... the schisms... the confusion and emotional pain and feelings of abandonment and betrayal. Again, there for my witnessing and not your doing at all. I hope this isn't coming off accusatory... it's just what I experienced so that I can support the creation of healing pathways for our other brothers and sisters.

You said you appreciated my honesty so I hope that you will, (a.) see through what is astral or emotional, and what is dark mother and lunar distortions, and (b.) hear my heart that it is my intention that you be the strongest and most effective expression of yourself on this earth as possible. You are, to date, the most beautiful man I've ever felt and I pray a triune God blessing over you, beloved Christ-Sophia that you are/we are/I am. You are GSF, fully held, fully protected, fully awake! We do not consent to any dark forces trying to intertwine with your light which is the light of the world. I love you. 

ps. My heart is open to speak about this in person if you have questions or want to talk through it.

And his response:

From: Gabriel Dionne <wellspringeternal@icloud.com>

Subject: Re: A sliver

Date: April 22, 2021 at 11:37:12 AM EDT

To: Carissa Wages <crwages@gmail.com>

This is great feedback, thanks for the update and heads up.  I am working to get fully calibrated has been a long ride.   Great reminder. Thanks you again, when we head back to the east coast we will come visit, feeling no more WV for a while,

I guess I know I'm posting the response because it was so ... it wasn't cold... it just wasn't warm or compassionate or like he even really paid attention to what I said. But... God knows. So don't worry. And everything is as it is. 

I really think that part of my "work" here is "gridworking" on/with people... my Higher Self and guidance teams work with their Higher Self and guidance teams. Nothing Carissa consciousness is doing, except as she surrenders more and more and let's God lead, then more beauty can unfold. When ego gets in the way then we have problems... and 12:34... it's often in the way. Gah!

I think the ascending numbers like that are encouragement that I'm on the right path. 1-2-3-4

Well time to meditate. 

I'm liking the homeopathy so far. Thank you for the support God.

Last night was a hard night. I need to read my notes but I know I couldn't capture it well but it was intense to say the least.  What a life! Thank you God!!

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Just closing out open tabs and I saw the Papahānaumokuākea Google Images tab and had a thought that maybe Gabe and I would go there on our honeymoon and I had a very pleasant feeling in my mother side brain. This is a delusional thing to write. But I want to pay attention to my thoughts.