Feeling grateful to God and our Guardians for their continued support. I am quite hard on myself about whether or not I should post my “random” thoughts and experiences here. I have a lot of feelings that come up around it (gifts to work through)… and I know that God answers my questions anyway, but it’s so fun to see when it happens like this!
In light of yesterday’s musings about the color red, today my daily glossary pick was Ruby Sun DNA. https://ascensionglossary.com/index.php/Ruby_Sun_DNA Yep. Ruby. Thank you God! Wow!
Grateful for the breadcrumb which also comes with the reminder to Observe and Discern… so it’s important to LEARN from this, not to glom onto it. In the beginning (still now sometimes, ha) I tend to see these things which absolutely have resonance and a lesson and I instantly “claim it” for my mental body…I say “well I MUST have Ruby Sun DNA” and I slap it across my chest and throw it into the jaws of my ego (which happily chomps it up). This is a trap.
If I’m learning anything it’s that when I think “I am THAT”, that I do myself a disservice. It’s never that “I am THAT”… it’s purely about surrendering to the "I AM” as a vessel willing to do the work to make myself worthy to hold the chrism…the anointing…the Spirit of God. This is how I as Carissa in this plane can embody Christ-Sophia, the logos, the expression, the offspring, of Holy Mother and Holy Father in UNITY.
All these pieces of information are signposts to help direct me to surrender of my negative ego (and miasma, etc.) that has usurped that space in my being. I used to pray to be a clay jar (bible reference) that had walls that were so thin that they looked like glass so the Light of God could shine through me. Instead I let build up of miasma, negative ego, especially dang spiritual pride which is one of the worst footholds that they’ve got….these things dim the Light. The goal of the NAA is to fill our jars with so much distraction, distortions, darkness, pain, addictions, etc. that there is no room for the spirit of KRYSTOS.
Well I went off again. I want (should) share how I’m really struggling with what to share and what not to. The other day I responded to someone’s post with what I thought was a really compassionate and honest and vulnerable response… but God showed me that there was something wrong with it. (How did God show me this? This is kind of gross because it was from looking at a human response or lack thereof. Be clear. Okay. So I pay way too much attention to Lisa’s “thank you”… it’s social media programming where I am looking for approval from someone I look up to. But I know Lisa is really intentional about not supporting wonky energy and this is how God teaches/guides (me) through her. I want to be an effective worker and team member on this mission (reclamation of Christ) and I have so much to learn. But it hurts, of course, and I had to take that feeling of shame and rejection...I’m so dramatic, but that’s what I feel and I needed to honor that and feel into it to learn. I’m not 100% sure what I did wrong still… but I see that there was something that was not in alignment to my soul… maybe it was the “trying” … or maybe it was that I ignored some nudges to TRY to be supportive and maybe I needed to just be quiet. Maybe I didn’t understand the situation. Maybe I’m called to be a compassionate witness only and when I put words out there that are based on perception that isn’t developed but it’s more developed than I’m letting on by sharing in order only to illicit a response (i.e. that the person FEELS supported… but if it’s rooted in reversal energy, then it’s actually poisoning them.) There are so many cords and twists and turns… dang. So THIS is why I feel like I should just be quiet… but I also want so badly to get over the “Luciferian Abyss”… but beloved, you can’t force it. You have to just allow it to happen. Follow me. We’ve got you. “You’re closer than you think you are” <— song lyric that I’m listening to just popped through my consciousness. This is amazing how this happens. I see it in my old journals too… I write down these quotes and lyrics that I’m listening to and they are God’s comfort and direction.
So do I post this? Probably not. It’s for you. Why do you want to? Again, to MODEL or SHOW or TEACH others so they can learn from your experiences. Don’t you see that that DOESN’T WORK. People need to learn for themselves. You just have to hold space… LISTEN. CARE. This is how you get through the Luciferian Abyss.
Back to the RED… God nudged me with some red cardinals lately… I saw them enough and felt they were from God so I should look them up… what does it mean? But then it mind-slid away. This happened a few times. Then I saw the MOST VIBRANT red cardinal I’ve ever seen… it was like LIT FROM WITHIN… SO RED… I said out loud “okay God! I hear you!! I’ll look it up when I get home”. Nope. Forgot.
Finally today after Ruby Sun DNA came up and I’m seeing how the theme for RED has come up so much this month… finally I looked it up. Here’s the link:
There is SO MUCH beauty in that description.
Ps. I’d been feeling like we were connecting to Lyra… actually seems like this has been coming online for almost a year, but now like actually happening. Lisa mentioned something to do with this in the last Ascension Call. But I asked Candice about it yesterday and she said definitely, yes. I thought that might be why I’ve felt a stronger connection with cats lately too!
Oh, last thing… wait, I forgot. Forget it. No. What was it? DANG MIND SLIDES.
“I will pull my feather’s out…stay humble”.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1IBFMkt9KGQ
I'm back. I don't need to BE or DO or SAY anything... I just need to embody love. How many times can God tell me to MEDITATE. This is the key. The path. The WAY. All the distractions that keep you from that are doing you a disservice. Hold space and create boundaries and recognize how important your sacred space is.... sacred space connected to God.
It's not about me. Remember that nugget from January 2010? Still true. NEVER ABOUT CARISSA. It's about GOD. How can I best get out of the way so that God can work?
These friends are so beautiful - Misha and Laura - but they are puffing up my ego too and I don't need that. I have a problem with that. That makes me want to "help" "love" "shine" MORE PEOPLE... no. It's NOT ABOUT ME. Down Carissa! Tuck into the heart of God and be transformed.
I'm back again... I spent time with the mirror (me...actually, ME) and then laid in the hammock in the sun a little and I see that now my SKIN is rainbow too. I used to just see my hair as gold and rainbow, but now my skin is. Along the lines of what I said before...don't smack this as a badge on your chest and say "I AM a.."... but is it related to "Rainbow Dragons" too? Rosemary and I do feel cut from the same cloth. But I also feel like I have a cut from all the cloths... I feel like I can relate to everyone... but maybe that was from lightbody wormholes? Or maybe it's part of my blueprint and why I've struggled to find myself... but I AM now finding myself and I find that I AM LOVE. That's who I am. I AM UNITY. And it's BIG... it's a LOT but like Yeshua said, my burden is light... it may be the whole world, but it is NOT heavy... it's the opposite of heavy and I attain it by letting it go.
Luke 9:23-24: If any man will come after me, let him deny himself, and take up his cross daily, and follow me. 24For whosoever will save his life shall lose it: but whosoever will lose his life for my sake, the same shall save it.
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