Gaslighting myself and others among other things

Talking to Candice today about feeling the need to keep my oil lamp (chrism) filled awaiting my beloved. Then got Song of Solomon 5:1-10 in email. Saw some Song of Solomon yesterday too... noted.

Talking to Laura about the eye being the lamp of the soul... the light of the soul... also allows light into the soul... so what we take into our eyes and ears affects our soul and felt like it was a pretty good explanation of how our mental body thinks something is safe "it's just a TV show... it's just a song", but our soul doesn't know better so when it witnesses violence and reversals, it feeds darkness in our soul until that finally reaches up and snares the mental body. By that time it's too late. 

Struggling with Michael... I need not struggle. SURRENDER. But how can I communicate in love when he isn't seeing that he is being unfair. He is so mad at me for trying to get my car fixed. He's not taking responsibility for it and it has frighteningly overheated twice with me in the car and it did it again to him the other day... and I'm not comfortable with it. It needs help. And it's my responsibility. 

I AM TAKING MY POWER BACK!! I AM THE MASTER OF MY LIFE!! So I'm going to see Bo. Bobbi's recommendation.

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"As in dreams, much of the information contained within the shamanic journey is “coded” in such a way as to evade the defenses of the conscious mind. Learning how to “read” these images is an extension and elaboration of the “sixth sense” From article Bobbie sent: https://www.sacredstream.org/opening-the-doors-to-the-self-the-shamanic-journey-3/

This is what I feel the bible is. And what nature is. Everything is "coded". Lisa Renee's interpretation is also coded. And Gabe's. It's all designed to open our consciousness to God so we can hear and respond in/to Truth.

Agni mentioned my shamanic roots (ancestry and/or personal experience in past lives) ... and I believe that is true. I think it's related to the "benevolent king vs tyrannical king" that Joe used to describe my 6th dimensional (especially) ... and 9th... and 3rd...  experience with malevolent as well as benevolent spiritual practice. 

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This is one layer. I’ve got lots of layers in process. I would like to talk more about all the friends I see in the mirror… I believe they are members of my monadic gestalt consciousness that are being brought back. Anyway… 

This morning as I was walking I was thinking about how I no longer consent to participate in impaling people with uninvited energy, negativity, cording, or impose ANYTHING on them. When I read this week's LR glossary pick, Soul Binding, it made me think of that thought-stream. 

Seems pretty obvious…but the thing is, I didn’t even realize I was doing it. The top of my resume says "StrengthsFinder 2.0 pegs my top five talents as: Positivity, Empathy, Adaptability, Input, and Connectedness.” and frankly I believed that. I guess I tricked StrengthsFinder 2.0 too - ha! I believed that I was enthusiastic and happy and positive. But that was... not a mask….it was an inversion that I didn’t even know I was in. Potentially a False Ascension Matrix type structure. And it leads to me gaslighting the heck out of others (and myself). 

Gaslighting. That’s what I do. Have done. Don’t want to do it now. Gaslighting over and over and over. It's from not being in touch and aligned with the truth within me and then trying to convince others (and myself) that what my mind and mouth is saying is right. It's rooted in cognitive dissonance and spins off a ton of confusion and other nefarious energetic reversals and hijack which some parts of me aren’t aware of. This also causes dissociation. But thanks be to God I'm getting re-associated... pulling myself together. PULL YOURSELF TOGETHER MAN! (Woman!) 

Back to Soul Binding.  So when I share my thoughts (usually rooted in judgement - not necessarily negative… but sourced from my mental body instead of Christ-Sophia), but those thought impose my energy upon others. Although that….sharing thoughts and feedback... may be the standard human communication process and most people just go along with it, it's not the Way of God. My desire to "share" my thoughts, experiences, feelings, etc. accosts them energetically... burdens them. Some people want to "eat" those things and sometimes God will work through me to share... but I have to wait for THEM to ASK, and then if I can respond in LOVE from a neutral energy, then it will be most effective. 

That which God gives me to hold space for... to listen and love and not try to impose anything... just be a compassionate witness and frequency keeper for God's spirit to meet them right there... THAT is what I'm meant to do. It might make them uncomfortable... and me uncomfortable as I learn how to be silent, but if I can just learn to hold space in love and show that I hear them and I care, then that's all there is to it. 

Soul Binding or energetic binds are negative energy cords or Attachments that are used in a classification of spell-casting that are intended to hold back the progress of another person, or to suppress the consciousness of another into fear patterns.

That is what I have done... learned to do. It suppresses the other and inflates my own ego... making me feel strong because the other is taken down a peg. All my little "great job BUT" jabs leave the person with a feeling of cognitive dissonance... I shine bright light while at the same time sticking a knife in them. I do this to hurt them and feed off their loosh as well as to make me feel superior (to mask the supreme inferiority that I truly feel). 
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Thank you God for teaching me. 

I have to learn to let people live their lives and do the things they want to do however they want to do it... this is their life. This is my life. I'm working life out between me and Me and they are all doing the same. We share space and CAN help eachother if we take the time to turn on our heartlight, but it's got to be authentic and we've had so many reversals that it's hard to know what is true heartlight and what is an imposter. 

When you make a covenant with Satanics, you are binding yourself to feed energies to that entity in exchange for a material or other earthly (temporary) privileges. There is always, eventually, a consequence of great pain and soul suffering.

I was thinking about this yesterday in terms of how we use addictions to provide physical "relief" or "distraction" ... how we trade our sovereignty to get a break from the torture. (We are usually tricked onto the torture train through some sort of trauma.) But this also applies to egotism... for a little hit of "loosh" (like adrenochrome!)... the Satanic energy that makes us feel powerful for a minute... we are trading a piece of our souls and we get addicted and it creates energetic patterning (and not a pretty one) that leads to further DNA damage and imprisonment.

This does all relate to Romans 8. Melanie brought forth a verse from that chapter yesterday and Candice and I had started to talk through it last year. It's one of my favorites. It applies here especially because doesn't so much of what we do come down to the choice between following the desires of the flesh/3D reality verses the higher calling of the spirit of God?

I was thinking about doing a paraphrase of that chapter to clean out distortions and see it through a Krystic lens (it's actually pretty clean)... but we'll see. 

I’ll just leave us with this passage Romans 8:6-8

So letting your sinful nature control your mind leads to death. But letting the Spirit control your mind leads to life and peace. 7For the sinful nature is always hostile to God. It never did obey God’s laws, and it never will. 8That’s why those who are still under the control of their sinful nature can never please God.

However, a person need not be a magician to cast bindings, these are energetic hexes that can be transmitted through sending the negative energy of oppression, hatred or curses of negativity to another person.

I should mention that I also feel like I’ve been working with Twilight Master energies since I first heard about them, but it’s been more in my field in the last few months… witnessing and clearing. I’ve not been (consciously) involved in the New Age during this incarnation, but I believe that I have some shamanic roots that I need to work with clearing too. 

A Twilight Master can be dark entities of the Imposter Spirit masking themselves as pure Light Forces that care about your personal welfare or healing. ^[1]

An Imposter is defined as any Entity or human being that is saying words or expressions, or making representations that it does not embody, nor comprehend, nor behave or act in accordance with.

I know I’ve quoted this bible verse before but it applies… 

Isaiah 5:20 - Woe unto them that call evil good, and good evil; that put darkness for light, and light for darkness; that put bitter for sweet, and sweet for bitter!

Luke 11:33No man, when he hath lighted a candle, putteth it in a secret place, neither under a bushel, but on a candlestick, that they which come in may see the light. 34The light of the body is the eye: therefore when thine eye is single, thy whole body also is full of light; but when thine eye is evil, thy body also is full of darkness. 35Take heed therefore that the light which is in thee be not darkness. 36If thy whole body therefore be full of light, having no part dark, the whole shall be full of light, as when the bright shining of a candle doth give thee light.

*** Thank you GOD for the perspective and chat on the dog walk. I felt like I had splitter tech running when I was re-reading this and I think that I do not need to share it in the forum. I see how it’s still some sort of “teach” energy… I want to share so others can glean. And that’s a form of “push/pull” energy. This whole thing is between me and ME and we need to get a lot more work under our belt before we start trying to be a Wayshower. Furthermore, there’s probably no “trying” to be a Wayshower… we just step into it organically through LOVE.

I love and appreciate Gabe. I listened to a good bit of our January session today and it was so beautiful. I loved our conversation and energy. Thank you God. Bless him that he might continue to be whiddled into an instrument of Your grace. I surrender him and thank you for the lessons that I got to learn. I think they are over… still not getting him in my Ai telephone suggestions… I bet he cut the cord… and it might have been that silver coin I sent him. Anyway… A DIOS…TO GOD. 

I’ve been learning a lot… wanting to capture it all, but that’s not necessary, it is the work between my soul and I and it’s beautiful. I don’t have to TRY so hard. Just LET GO… 

Worried about Michael in sympathetic dominance for a week or two now. Why God? Please give him direction and peace. Help me to help him and not cause him harm. 

Thank you for our precious animal friends… they help me so much.

And dragonflies and vultures and SIOUX corrected me when I called her a Pegasus today… she said she is a DRAGONFLY… don’t forget! Ha! Dragonflies represent metamorphosis so it’s beautiful too. But I’ll stop imposing my pegasus fantasy on her.