Stuff from today so far

 It's 11:44 and here are some things that have come up in the last few minutes. I have had a beautiful morning with some seepage of density as I connect to Source, thanks be to God. I surrender all! "You can't rush your healing!" "Be the change that you want to see". (Songs that came up to minister to my soul. So grateful for the songs, Oh God! For the guidance, beloved teams, through songs and bible verses and ES materials, especially the AG. 

Sent from Kirk - seems relevant:
https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Watcher_(angel)

I definitely feel like I'm given this opportunity to choose differently and I'm not doing as well as I'd like to. Yesterday's pain body/ego situation when it came to work... I hadn't slept well the night before... up every hour (sometimes more) to check on baby chicks outside....that probably added to it... so note to self- take care of your body! Rest and eat well. Speaking of eating well, we've eaten VERY rich meals the last two nights too. And lots of spinach. I need to do better. Control my gluttony. Lots of bread. It's not MY gluttony. I do not consent to any spirits other than those aligned with Christ!

And this is it. Abide in God... in Christ-Sophia who is the expression of Holy Father and Holy Mother... WE ARE. And this is my "job". ABIDE. 

And meditate. I've got to be more disciplined about meditating silently. Let's set a timer for 30 minutes a day and just force myself to do that. Breathe and meditate. 

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I won't be able to remember it...and that's okay. It's recorded in the consciousness of the earth. This afternoon I read an AG article on Neuroplasticity which I thought was SO good. About how we need to remain mentally flexible in order to hear our hearts. And I tried sharing it with Michael... the concepts... as I thought it applied to both of us. And he gets so defensive and won't hear anything that I have to say. But again, I know, I just need to listen, not speak. When I'm speaking, I'm not listening. Did I share that "best advice ever" from the other day? So good. 

Anyway, he is not open to anything outside of Torah and not willing for God to speak through his heart. He said it all sounds "New Agey"... and I just need to surrender. I'm not communicating this well... the love I have and the desire to help both of us open our minds and hearts that they would be connected in and to Source which is the only way we can move forward... or the main way, the best way, to move forward. I fear that this stance Michael is taking is leading him astray. It IS. He's now using porn and still drinking daily and addicted to his screen which he spends most of his day on... learning. I guess I'm here in my computer too... and I need to do more meditating and outside activities and connecting to Source myself.... the ORGANIC LIVING LIGHT instead of these AI imposters that are sucking our life force. But I'm scared this Michael beginning his slippery slope down. 

I mean, he was so brave to leave the systems of men and follow God. His broken heart from the loss of his family softened him enough to hear and follow God. But eventually it became a mental construct and ego personality and calcified into what appears to be prison bars. Thank you God for helping me to not have that happen, exactly. I have other things and my dang ego is definitely a problem, one I realllllllly want to surrender. But I fear for Michael. And I know, fear isn't the Way. Fear just creates energetic schisms and blockages... so watch as a compassionate witness. 

DO ME. LOVE ME. LOVE GOD. Don't approach Michael with mental constructs. Don't force his hand. Don't try to change or DO anything. Just BE. Be you, love God, love others, ESPECIALLY him. Your lack of judgement and your untethered love... that which isn't corded onto an expectation of any kind, THAT can be the alchemical agent to help soften his heart. Just love. 

You've tried and tried your whole life to change people with words. It nails the action in further. It is destructive. Your words are destructive. Keep those kinds of words reserved for OUR relationship, beloved. I want to work with YOU on that. This is between me and Me...US. Everyone else has their own process and relationship with Me and with themselves. 

Thank you God, for loving me so much and helping me so much! (tears) I'm grateful. 

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And here's that response from the other day:

Kiran, Thank you!! I this is such a helpful reminder.

Young teens certainly are not given one-on-one times of presence.  They, at least unconsciously, yearn for that. 

Kris, BEST ADVICE EVER!!! 

” if you’re talking - you’re not listening “. 

Huge thanks to you both for weighing in on this topic - I feel really supported and am grateful for your wisdom and experience. I'm also grateful to God who is calling me to step up my listening game... I know that's on the docket... to practice presence and compassionate witnessing and to release my propensity to push/pull energy (even if it did come from a desire to do/be "good"... it is still energy manipulation). Time to drop that and just hold space in love.

I loved what you said, Kris:

you can’t go wrong with being a trusted, calm stable adult...trustworthy and one who brings calm. He won’t remember as much of what you tell him but how he felt in your loving presence. 

Love and appreciation for you both and everyone holding energetic resonance with this topic as we learn to be the best stewards we can be.
Carissa

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Listening to /transcribing Charlotte session and came across:
https://ascensionglossary.com/index.php/Fallen_Angelic_Controller_Hubs 

Is the "wood henge" part of Cahokia the "one place in particular" with a nasty reversal vortex?