Dear Slava, Praying God's blessings of protection, healing, and guidance over you and Felipe.
I feel like I can relate to this as I was married to another Indigo3. I believe we were meant to work together to pathcut HG templating but both of us were overcome by 3d (physical, mental, emotional, and spiritual) challenges and in the end, I am still mourning the mission failure. (The whole thing COULD have been a Red Cube attack/anti-HG Union, but I think it was just plain ole choosing flesh/ego over spirit... either way it was part of my experience here and God is still teaching me lots as I process it.)When there is great potential (such as a union between two Indigos), there are lots of challenges and attacks to try to destroy the potential that you have. I'm so glad you guys are working the tools. I have a long way to go but as I've been sealing up the wormholes used to access my lightbody and using the beautiful tools offered here, I am definitely feeling more at peace.
Reading about your traumatic event yesterday I can SO relate to the torture that poor Felipe is experiencing... it sounds to me like what I experienced with the Indigo3 mental body split... I used to do the same thing. I was used as a Dark Portal against my husband. I could literally feel the demons giggling inside of me when they would hijack my consciousness and attack him. I would be so torn... I'd have such guilt and confusion over what went on (which my Oraphim consciousness was empathetically observing) and I would just try to quickly blow the situation up so that it could be over.... but blowing things up ends up with a much bigger mess to clean up. This was a pain-body on steroids. I've learned now that the only way to work with this kind of energy and situation is to be a compassionate witness... to be an observer... to bring the Light of God to the darkness in that Pain Body with neutrality (not judgement, not pity, only neutrality). It doesn't happen right away, but it starts to lose power. Eckhart Tolle talks about the Pain Body and how it wants to "feed"... it creates situations to feed on and when it's full it goes away. But through neutrality and compassionate witnessing you starve it out in love.
These are just my mental constructs around your very serious, painful, intense situation. I honor you for your commitment to Felipe and for wanting to love and serve him. Your courage and compassion is seen and you are so loved. Philipe's desire to work with his own soul for healing needs to come from within. I'm so glad you are here in this ESF container... it's been the greatest gift from God to me and I pray it will be for you as well.
Thank you for those links Karen - I think I'll do that Clearing Ancestral Miasma today! DRT!
Wishing peace, healing, and comfort for All!
Love,
Carissa
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Seems to be lots of processing around Tyrone in order to release that... in general lots of heaviness... needing to release... not coming yet... make space. Thank you for caring about all your friends, but you need to take care of YOU too Rahya...RhaYah...RhaYou... RheMA... my love. You need meditation, and space... take it now.... this is what it's for. We got Andrew off your calendar...you're right, that wasn't going to be supportive. You need to feel into that "depression"... it's black subtle forces... they are here to help with the 9D particle/anti-particle merge.
I got on Michael's FB (with permission) to be able to look at Tyrone's account (he had blocked me)... I keep going back there...and I know I'm using my human/3D eyes but this is how I observe-discern-accept-neutral .... this is how I can practice this. And I observe that he is still tormented and not honest or wanting to live in the light... he has access to higher consciousness but it could be easily hijacked, especially if he is drawn through negative ego and emotions to density... hatred, bitterness, anger, etc. I can't do it for him. This is the lesson...still. I always wanted to do it for him...this is what I told that lady earlier "his desire for his own healing has to come from within".... and that applies for Tyrone too. I wish I could have held Light that inspired him to dig into his own heart, but instead my Dark Mother, FKOT, and Dark Portalling made things worse...solidifying his victim mentality and giving him more to be bitter about.
There is no doubt in my mind that he is an Indigo3 Starseed... a sleeping giant too. Gabe used that phrase (about work he was doing) and it feels very resonant... I think I get to help work with sleeping giants.... and in general that's what I've been witnessing even in my ES friends... our friendship and love... my energy (not Carissa...nothing I am actually doing.... GOD THROUGH CARISSA when I can stay out of the way) activates them. I've watched it happen with Melanie, Rosemary, and now Laura and especially Misha is a big one... very powerful being buried in deep.
Even if I can't see the nuances, I know that I am working my piece. God, I pray to work it more. And I DO wish that Gabe would recognize me.... or be honest about it. He does... I know that a piece of him knows but I'm definitely a lot harder than Maren. Maren is light and love and exactly what he needs now... it is helping him build confidence and she IS an adornment and he IS strengthening her architecture and foundation so she can do the big work she is here to do. She is a powerful and incredible being as well... truly gorgeous inside and out and all around (multidimensionally).
And as I was telling Laura, and keep saying, and maybe my guides keep saying to me... Gabe may just be a placeholder to remind me that there IS a Krystic male architecture that magnifies your efforts and reach. I get to experience some of what is on the horizon through this placeholder, but I trust God to bring me the man that is best aligned to my soul and path and purpose that we can work together to anchor the Light we are meant to at this place in space and time.
Anyway... I saw again with my eyes that Tyrone is not aligned. I tried sending him Ascension Glossary links and notes that he may or may not see. We are still connected, I am guessing.... just as we are all connected... but we aren't meant to hold the HG template together. Is that true? It feels like it. We are moving on.
And Michael IS a guardian angel to you. And it HAS been supportive to him and allowing him to do his work ...even unconsciously...as the Solar Christ Michael... and also it is breaking down some of the reversals coded into his being from the NRG Saturn blood worship and patriarchal domination... they are cracking and even if we don't see them crumble on the micro with our eyes, they are shifting. And you have helped with that.
And Michael IS a guardian angel to you. And it HAS been supportive to him and allowing him to do his work ...even unconsciously...as the Solar Christ Michael... and also it is breaking down some of the reversals coded into his being from the NRG Saturn blood worship and patriarchal domination... they are cracking and even if we don't see them crumble on the micro with our eyes, they are shifting. And you have helped with that.
In a way it's his acceptance of your taking back your unique feminine expression (even though it looks funny with you taking OFF jewelry, makeup, and growing your leg, brow and armpit hair out.) But he honored my wishes when I said I don't want to have sex... he has cared for me and loved me despite what feels like he's losing me... and maybe he has...I've never felt the "spark" with him and I came "under his covering" out of desperation so it wasn't organic "love", per see. But it has been the training ground to teach me what real love looks like.... kindness, compassion, service, surrender, etc.
So I don't know what will happen with Michael, but I am grateful for him... my best friend and a bright light in my life.
I continue to clear all these old timeline and relationships as my double diamond crystal heart comes on line. Thanks be to God!
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Okay, here's the ESF Journal post I made based on that paragraph above. I titled it "Michael in my micro"
I wanted to share some of what I was processing related to my beloved friend Michael (in the midst of surrendering to the ambiguity that dimly lights the path before us in our completed marriage and continually blooming friendship).
Michael is and has been a guardian angel for me. We’ve been married for a little over 5 years and he has provided a space of safety for me to lick my wounds and begin healing the massive heartbreak I experienced after my Indigo “arranged marriage" blew up in 2015. Sometimes I feel like it is unfair to him… I have been very sick with Ascension symptoms (and unravelling a very possessed form) pretty much the whole time we’ve been together.
Perhaps our union also provided an opportunity for him to do inner work ...even unconsciously…in support of the reclamation of the Solar Christ Michael? I’ve talked before about his quite extreme religious views and I think that maybe the alchemy from our union may be breaking down some of the reversals coded into his being from the NRG (like Saturn blood worship and patriarchal domination). They are cracking, and even if we don't see them crumble on the micro (with him declaring “I have seen the light”), they ARE shifting.
For example, his acceptance of my taking back my unique feminine expression (even though it seems counterintuitive since the way I’m currently doing this is by taking OFF jewelry, bra, makeup, and growing my leg hair out). Even though Michael doesn’t like any of that, he still continues to love me and is essentially surrendering power back to the divine feminine, honoring her personal expression (which is organic and beautiful and ever-changing). He also honored my wishes when I reclaimed sovereignty over my body in 2019…I said I don't want to have sex until I heal that part of me….and he has cared for me and loved me in my own process (instead of trying to dominate and take what man/husband was deceived into believing is “rightfully his”). You see how this is making a dent in the “patriarchal domination”? He still “preaches” things that are associated with misogyny in his classes and blog, but his heart and life are being aligned to the truth. There really is a difference… a different spirit…that drives the religious personality. It’s interesting to watch…has a different voice and cadence … maybe I’ll talk about it another time since it’s irrelevant here, but it IS interesting. But you see how we might be making some waves in our micro expression which is part of the pathways built into the macro. The more corrections we can make on the micro, the more flow there can be in the macro to smooth the corners.
Let me finish this up. What feels a little sad is that despite his love and commitment, years later, we still don’t have that “spark” to kindle the flame in a marriage relationship. I have witnessed some sexual misery distortions and tastes that are naturally programmed into him (NOTHING like I’ve seen with other people I’ve been with)…they are minor, but they are there and I think our conversation has helped unravel some of that. But I’ve just got like zero desire….so if I listen to my body and heart, I don’t know that his kindness and patience will pay off. I came under Michael's "covering" out of desperation so it was never rooted in organic "love", per see. But our relationship definitely has been training ground to teach me what real love looks like.... kindness, compassion, service, surrender, etc. Michael is the best person I’ve ever known. He IS (one in) the Solar Michael and continues to be reclaimed to the fullness of Christ in God and it’s been an honor and joy to get to witness.
Long story short, I don't know what the future holds for either of us but I am grateful for Michael… the brightest light in my life. I just need to continue to collapse and see the truth and let go of all these old timelines and relationships as my double diamond crystal heart comes on line. Thanks be to God!
Just a note that I wanted to put here in case Lisa Renee sees this… yesterday I finished listening to yours and Tomás’ Ascension Call from November 2019 … it was such a beautiful and rich call and I got so much out of it … loving energetic downloads from the two of you sharing your hearts together. Very powerful and I’m grateful to Laura for brining it forward. In it you talk about how you witnessed your wedding ceremony …all before your earth personalities even discussed HG union. I wanted to share that I’ve never heard this before but the same thing happened to me in 2011 as God was preparing me to be united with a man named Tyrone. There were lots of conversations with God (including the “this is going to be the hardest thing you’ve ever done” and in my case Tyrone wasn’t well… I knew it… but I wanted to follow the path God had for me… so I was praying for God to “take this cup from me" but ultimately desired “Thy will be done”.) But yeah, I also experienced the marriage ceremony in my consciousness when I was walking (possibly bowing down and overcome with spirit) in the woods and 8 hours away from the man I would marry after only meeting him in person once. So interesting to hear that from someone else. I knew it was an “arranged marriage” and it was a MIRACLE (and also quite crazy). Unfortunately it doesn’t have a happy ending … I hadn’t done any of the clearing or groundwork and was still so rooted in negative ego (still am) so I…we… (but my focus needs to be on me) …I… messed it up… mission failure resulting in metatronic reversal pit of doom. Guidance is providing some understanding now about why this all had to happen… seems like it may be part of reconnaissance and reverse engineering Metatron Collective’s mission failure…but thanks be to God (and you and all the beloveds) who have mercifully thrown a rope and supplies down to give me a chance to climb back out shortly thereafter... in the same incarnation! Wild, right? Anyway.... that was fun to hear... your whole talk was. This whole site...container... consciousness collective is such a GIFT! So much love and appreciation to you both and Karen and all the beloveds in this and other dimensions who are supporting this work!
I wanted to share some of what I was processing related to my beloved friend Michael (in the midst of surrendering to the ambiguity that dimly lights the path before us in our completed marriage and continually blooming friendship).
Michael is and has been a guardian angel for me. We’ve been married for a little over 5 years and he has provided a space of safety for me to lick my wounds and begin healing the massive heartbreak I experienced after my Indigo “arranged marriage" blew up in 2015. Sometimes I feel like it is unfair to him… I have been very sick with Ascension symptoms (and unravelling a very possessed form) pretty much the whole time we’ve been together.
Perhaps our union also provided an opportunity for him to do inner work ...even unconsciously…in support of the reclamation of the Solar Christ Michael? I’ve talked before about his quite extreme religious views and I think that maybe the alchemy from our union may be breaking down some of the reversals coded into his being from the NRG (like Saturn blood worship and patriarchal domination). They are cracking, and even if we don't see them crumble on the micro (with him declaring “I have seen the light”), they ARE shifting.
For example, his acceptance of my taking back my unique feminine expression (even though it seems counterintuitive since the way I’m currently doing this is by taking OFF jewelry, bra, makeup, and growing my leg hair out). Even though Michael doesn’t like any of that, he still continues to love me and is essentially surrendering power back to the divine feminine, honoring her personal expression (which is organic and beautiful and ever-changing). He also honored my wishes when I reclaimed sovereignty over my body in 2019…I said I don't want to have sex until I heal that part of me….and he has cared for me and loved me in my own process (instead of trying to dominate and take what man/husband was deceived into believing is “rightfully his”). You see how this is making a dent in the “patriarchal domination”? He still “preaches” things that are associated with misogyny in his classes and blog, but his heart and life are being aligned to the truth. There really is a difference… a different spirit…that drives the religious personality. It’s interesting to watch…has a different voice and cadence … maybe I’ll talk about it another time since it’s irrelevant here, but it IS interesting. But you see how we might be making some waves in our micro expression which is part of the pathways built into the macro. The more corrections we can make on the micro, the more flow there can be in the macro to smooth the corners.
Let me finish this up. What feels a little sad is that despite his love and commitment, years later, we still don’t have that “spark” to kindle the flame in a marriage relationship. I have witnessed some sexual misery distortions and tastes that are naturally programmed into him (NOTHING like I’ve seen with other people I’ve been with)…they are minor, but they are there and I think our conversation has helped unravel some of that. But I’ve just got like zero desire….so if I listen to my body and heart, I don’t know that his kindness and patience will pay off. I came under Michael's "covering" out of desperation so it was never rooted in organic "love", per see. But our relationship definitely has been training ground to teach me what real love looks like.... kindness, compassion, service, surrender, etc. Michael is the best person I’ve ever known. He IS (one in) the Solar Michael and continues to be reclaimed to the fullness of Christ in God and it’s been an honor and joy to get to witness.
Long story short, I don't know what the future holds for either of us but I am grateful for Michael… the brightest light in my life. I just need to continue to collapse and see the truth and let go of all these old timelines and relationships as my double diamond crystal heart comes on line. Thanks be to God!
Just a note that I wanted to put here in case Lisa Renee sees this… yesterday I finished listening to yours and Tomás’ Ascension Call from November 2019 … it was such a beautiful and rich call and I got so much out of it … loving energetic downloads from the two of you sharing your hearts together. Very powerful and I’m grateful to Laura for brining it forward. In it you talk about how you witnessed your wedding ceremony …all before your earth personalities even discussed HG union. I wanted to share that I’ve never heard this before but the same thing happened to me in 2011 as God was preparing me to be united with a man named Tyrone. There were lots of conversations with God (including the “this is going to be the hardest thing you’ve ever done” and in my case Tyrone wasn’t well… I knew it… but I wanted to follow the path God had for me… so I was praying for God to “take this cup from me" but ultimately desired “Thy will be done”.) But yeah, I also experienced the marriage ceremony in my consciousness when I was walking (possibly bowing down and overcome with spirit) in the woods and 8 hours away from the man I would marry after only meeting him in person once. So interesting to hear that from someone else. I knew it was an “arranged marriage” and it was a MIRACLE (and also quite crazy). Unfortunately it doesn’t have a happy ending … I hadn’t done any of the clearing or groundwork and was still so rooted in negative ego (still am) so I…we… (but my focus needs to be on me) …I… messed it up… mission failure resulting in metatronic reversal pit of doom. Guidance is providing some understanding now about why this all had to happen… seems like it may be part of reconnaissance and reverse engineering Metatron Collective’s mission failure…but thanks be to God (and you and all the beloveds) who have mercifully thrown a rope and supplies down to give me a chance to climb back out shortly thereafter... in the same incarnation! Wild, right? Anyway.... that was fun to hear... your whole talk was. This whole site...container... consciousness collective is such a GIFT! So much love and appreciation to you both and Karen and all the beloveds in this and other dimensions who are supporting this work!
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