Free

I cancel and clear all cords and connections and karma related to “The Divine Madman”, “Barinder”, “Rinku”, and any other forms my being may have interacted with related to that being. I clear all black magic, cording, ai, demonic entities, or spirits involved. I am God, I am Sovereign, I am Free. 

The left arm and heart and Nadia’s capsule and left side stuff may be related or may not but I don’t want any openings for anything to mess with me. I love Ryan. I love myself. I love God. Barinder was a lustful demon-ridden human and I pray for his deliverance. It is not my job or project. I got to see and learn. Dark arts training. 

I just deleted our Telegram and connection and conversation on The Pattern app. 

I was playing with fire to talk to another man like that. I don’t know what’s in the cards for Ryan and I, but God will lead and I know I love him. I pray that Ryan will allow God to lead him too.

I choose ME. 
I choose to stand firm in Christ and defend the Way, Truth and Life as I learn and practice it by the grace of God.

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And so grateful and happy and feeling connected to Ryan. We were both happy to hear each other's voices when we got out of work. Glad to be doing this work with my beloved.

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Well, Ryan came over for dinner and it was nice and then I mentioned that Paul liked bulgolgi and he started asking questions about how he is and I confessed that I called him the other day (despite knowing Ryan didn't want me to talk to him). I knew I shouldn't, but I also knew that Ryan may not choose me and we were on rocky ground and I felt like I needed to call Paul and check on him. I'm glad I did. I don't regret it. 

But Ryan is hurt/upset and I don't blame him. And maybe this will be the deciding factor. He said he was starting to work on his list about what he's looking for in a relationship. He said anal sex was on the list. Which is fine. 

He has a lot going on. He got a raise today and also he needs to start being a sub-contractor so he's got to put some ducks in a row. He's got a lot on his plate and I don't know what he'll choose. Or what I'll choose. Right now I'm choosing Ryan still. I am so glad to have seen the Barinder nonsense. But if Ryan does choose me/us, I pray he'll follow God's prompts to grow. I feel like he's on that path. I may not be the girl for him. But I pray that I do good and not harm to him. Today I bought him a bible - it should be here tomorrow. It seems like God is trying to teach him about it some. And about being a business owner and life owner. I am a witness and someone to love and help him. We'll see what God and Ryan have in store. 

I'm so glad I did the "AM energy clearing" and "eternal self" meditations by OmniLov and Lisa's "EMF beam clearing, etc" meditation... all were super helpful. 

I have to be at work at 6:30 tomorrow...up at 5, so I should go to bed. 

Had a bath today. Definitely feeling lots of "Genetic Pathcutter" stuff... and maybe clearing black magic... probably from Barinder situation. Lots of pains and squeezes and anxiety and stuff...but feeling lights and energy around too. Seems like it's happening to lots of people, including Ryan. God, please guard and guide and heal my beloved Ryan.YOUR beloved Ryan.

My AG pick today: https://ascensionglossary.com/index.php/Spiro_Mound

I was telling Ryan that I felt that I was healing a lot of karma in this life and it set him off - he said I had a charmed life (not those words...he talked about the fountain in my basement) and that my problem wasn't karma, it was my victim mentality. Could be true (too?).

Those Spiro Mounds were more of my people. I feel a deep kinship with the Mississippian native american culture. More to dig into there.