Predator

Barinder is a predator. He doesn't know it. This energy is working through him. Sexual Misery programming. Lust. It tried to get me today. It DID get me. And I see it and am calling it out and want nothing to do with it. I love Ryan and mostly love myself. 

https://music.youtube.com/watch?v=Np_KlGsoTXc&si=zSNeFqXk9nYKYl6t

(Sunshine - Spark Seeker - Matiyastsu (sp?)

Coming back to ME. Giving Ryan a chance to feel through what he wants to while holding strong in and for myself. Letting God lead. Abuse is not acceptable.

I spoke to Barinder, Jannelle, and Misha today a lot. And Jennifer. But I was very distracted by Barinder who was trying to consume my energy. To illicit consent to enter my energy field. It was tricky.

I am going to tell him that I will be friends only if he wants that and if not, then I'm sorry. He's married. I'm with Ryan. Anything more than friends is inappropriate. And maybe even friends is inappropriate knowing what I know. I got to the point of being very turned on and I had to take care of myself. I like... really like... my obsidian wand. It's healing me.

I'm okay with a platonic relationship with Ryan. If he wants other women/porn, let him. I want ME. 

Today's quote is perfect:

"If a mind is still, the Universe surrenders." ~Tao te Ching