Personal Power

This MaMuse song just pierced through... God prepped my heart with two songs before and then this:

We cannot do this alone

No need to do this alone

Will you move when the voice inside you calls

And all the walls fall down

No need to do this alone

Will you move when the voice inside you calls

And all the walls fall down

No need to do this alone

I have been struggling through this discomfort of the mind related to FEAR. This morning I woke and knew I needed to talk to a sister and I shared with Diana which was so supportive and beautiful. She encouraged me in love - called me a Frodo and something about holding the ring of darkness for the light. And she called me a human crystal. She compassionately witnessed me and heard my heart.

I also shared with Candice who has also gone into the darkness to recover soul pieces. I haven't heard back from her, but I'm glad I shared with them.

I wasn't ready to share with Paul. I can't put my biwave on him. He's not strong enough. He has his own biwave. But I did hear from Source- that song. No need to do this alone. And will I move when the voice inside me call and the walls fall down. I know it's time for the walls to come down.

I know this is a choice between Princess Code or becoming the divine Queen I AM. To hold the field with my King. But these are lessons I have to keep walking through. Keep remembering to stay connected to Source and aligned with my PERSONAL POWER. 

https://energeticsynthesis.com/resource-tools/resource-tools-2/introductory-articles/1774-personal-power

LOVE Paul. Don't fear. 
I don't need to do anything I am not ready to and he won't make me. But if he does, whatever comes, if I remain aligned with the LIGHT - I AM THE LIGHT THE LIGHT I AM - nothing can hurt me. I AM ETERNAL. I AM TIMELESS. I WILL NEVER DIE. 

My soul has come to feel into these energies and I have the strength and backing to do so. Do not let my negative ego mind take me off. Stay rooted in LOVE!

This is ME overcoming demons. 
You are so brave, Carissa. I love you! Love, ME! MUAH!

I need to go get some better kegel balls. My vagina is a weak gaping hole - no bueno... it's time to get her back in shape! Remember when we used to be able to squirt water across the bathtub with our vag muscles? Let's figure that out again!!

ps. AG and random picks today:

https://ascensionglossary.com/index.php/Psychology
https://ascensionglossary.com/index.php/Dragon_Lines#/random
https://ascensionglossary.com/index.php/Law_of_One

So good!

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Talking to Paul sucks... so much silence... but video chatting with him is amazing... so much can be seen in the silence. 

We just want to be together. Our souls do. My Carissa ego gets in the way. 4 days.

I got a new kegel exerciser...

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Lots of 54's today... and 48's... and 24's. 

I've got to go to bed but should write about Paul more. He wanted me to show him how to shield and I ran through the statement of intention, a modified 12D shield, and Unity Vow and he said during that time he saw what looked like a purple field... like somewhere he'd been before... when I felt into it, it felt hyporborean/Gaian... thought of the 7D Violet Ray....anyway... I'm either being played by some entities or this guy is really special. 

Feels really special. I need to go and see. 
I think he's a shapeshifter though...like me. I think we have similar architecture and he's just going to keep growing and healing into the God-man he is. 10:54

I love his heart. I love his anarchism. I love his courage. I love his brain. I love his humor (even if I miss it often - the fact that he has a sense of humor is fantastic)! I just love HIM. Let's see how this goes....

ps. SIRIUS is INCREDIBLE! Shining and blinking the most vibrant colors at me tonight (and most nights)... tonight especially speaking to me. Light codes?